1 week and 2 days ago

Mich

"Good morning Ma'am. Pa-sign lang po." My secretary said then entered my office.

I immediately signed the papers then she left the room.

Two.. three..four..five calls but still the phone just keeps on ringing.

Wala ba talagang balak sumagot si Harold? After ditching me yesterday at the reunion, eto ang gagawin niya? 

He's been so confused lately, parang wala siya lagi sa sarili niya.

We were once at the mall, then suddenly nung namimili ako sa department store, bigla siyang nawala then biglang sumulpot after few minutes na pawis na pawis.

He's been really unpredictable. Hindi ko alam kung ano na nangyayari sakanya.

Then, these past few days hindi niya ako kinakausap ng matino. I always keep my patience high, dahil alam kong mainitin ang ulo niya. But I just can't keep myself of wondering kung ano ba talaga meron, he must be telling me kung may problema. 

I dialed to my secretary and ordered to check if I have other meetings for this day. 

Pupuntahan ko na lang siya, for sure he's at his office. Sana lang hindi 'yung bitchesang secretary niya ang nandun. Umiinit talaga ang dugo ko sakanya!

Una, nakita ko siyang nilalandi si Harold, why do she need to lean closer para lang mag-bigay ng coffee? And take note! Her 2 buttons in her blouse were opened! Grabe lang! Ang sarap niyang sabunutan!

I told Harold na i-fired siya kaso sabi ni Harold mahirap na daw maghanap ng kapalit and that Annie bitch is already there since the company was born, kaya kabisado na niya lahat. Kaya rin siguro ang landi landi na niya kay Harold, kasi matagal na siya 'dun.

Wala na ba siyang ibang work na pwedeng pasukan? Could she just leave? Para siyang lintang nakadikit kay Harold. I don't know kung sinasadya niya ba talaga na nandun ako kung kelan niya lalandiin si Harold. 

Good thing, Harold isn't affected by her. 

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"Uhm. Ma'am I'm sorry po talaga, pero hindi pa po kayo pwede pumasok. May kausap pa po si Sir." 

"I'm just asking kung sino ang kausap niya? And why it's taking so long?" Kanina pa ako naghihintay pero 'di arin tapos si Harold sa kausap niya. Ayaw naman akong papasukin nung secretary niya kahit 'dun lang sa waiting area ng office niya.

Bago pa maka-sagot 'yung secretary, biglang bumukas 'yung pinto sa office niya.

Napa-tingin ako, at nakita kong may umiiyak na babae na may kasamang bata about 5 years old palabas ng office niya.

Pumunta siya sa katabi nung kausap kong secretary at may sinabi na kung ano.

And she threw away a ring sa basurahan.

Is she Harold's client? Another annulment case?

I'm feeling sad about wives na niloloko ng husband nila. I mean, they don't deserve every single of the false love. Lalo na sa mga may anak na, paanong nakukuha ng mga asawa nilang lokohin ang mga asawa nila eh may mga anak na sila?

Karamihan sa mga client ni Harold, babae ang nagpapa-anul, tapos hindi papayag 'yung husband. How ridiculous, they'll do something bad tapos ayaw nilang tanggapin ang consequences? 'Yung iba naman parang ang guto pa mangyari kanila lang 'yung bata, how could it be? Eh nakuha nilang lokohin 'yung asawa nila while they have a child which means parang sinisira na nila 'yung pamilya nila tapos sakanila pa mapupunta 'yung anak? 

I can't really attain deceitful husband. Luckily, I don't see Harold as one of those men.

"I think pwede naman na akong pumasok noh?" Humarap ako 'dun sa Secretary, pero parang hindi naman niya ako narinig kasi naka-titig lang siya saakin. 

Umalis na ako sa harap niya at nag-lakad papuntang office ni Harold.

I knock my knuckles once at the glass door, then slowly entered the room.

I saw him sitting in his swivel chair facing the floor to ceiling glass window.

"Cancel all my meetings with other client. I don't want disturbance." Sabi niya sa inaakalang ako ang Secretary niya.

Lumapit ako sakanya at pumunta sa bandang likuran ng swivel chair.

"Ayaw mo kahit ako?" I whispered in his ear.

He startled tapos tumayo siya.

"Michelle?" 

I crossed arms.

Bigla siyang napa-iling and all of a sudden his mood changed, he smirked and cupped my face to intend a kiss pero umiwas ako.

May kasalanan ka pa saakin.

"Why aren't you responding to my texts and calls? Hindi ka na nagparamdam. Dahil ba 'yun sa client mo?" I asked continuously. 

His mood changed again. 

Now his brows furrowed and his forehead creases.

"I-I'm just busy with things-" 

"What things? Hindi ka man lang maka-text kahit Hi, Hello, How are you? Does it take too much energy and time to text or call me?" Hindi naman talaga ako galit, I just want to clear things out. I just want him to open up, I know there's a problem.

"Ano ba ang problema? Don't say na wala, dahil hindi kapani-paniwala. You're acting a lot different these days. Ganun na ba kalala 'yung kaso ng mga client mo?" 

"No." He placed his hand in his forehead like he just had a headache. "I'm not accepting client-" 

"Then, sino 'yung babaeng lumabas dito na umiiyak? Bakit antagal-tagal niyong nag-uusap?" Hindi siya agad naka-sagot.

Why do I have this feeling?

Napa-hilamos siya sa mukha.

My eyes are shaking, ready to release bag of tears. Pero pinipigilan ko, I'm still hoping that he would say that what I'm about to think is wrong.

"Who's she, Harold?" My voice was cracked.

"She's nothing Mich." He said, but i'm not convinced.

"Then why aren't you talking to me for days?!" My voice starts to get higher, I'm about to lose my temper. If he's playing with me, then I don't like playing games.

Napa-sandal ako sa glass window niya. I brushed my hair with my hand, "Please, Harold. Tell me, what's the problem?" I said in my best act. Trying to lower my temper. I'm still trying to be nice, I just hope he'll spill now. Because I know in a snap I could release anger, and I know he wouldn't like it. Both of us won't like it.

"Nothing okay?" He tried to grab my arm to let out a hug but I refused him.

Before I can even reply the door opened. 

"Daddy...Da-ddy.." A crying child moves in and ran to Harold then hugged him.

Parang biglang umakyat lahat ng dugo ko sa ulo. This is insane!

He has a child?! And it was the child I saw earlier with the crying woman!

"Fuck." I whispered then take a step back. Nakatingin lang saakin si Harold, hindi niya alam ang gagawin. Umiiyak 'yung bata, at wala siyang magawa.

"I don't want to be with mommy... I wan't to be with you." The child said then cries out again.

I stepped back again. Para akong nawawalan ng lakas. 

As much as I want to spill my words out and be mad, pero nandyan 'yung bata.

And since that's the case, it means i'm just Harold's mistress. 

A fucking mistress.

Shit this life!

Tumakbo ako palabas ng office niya at dali-daling lumabas ng building. 

I cried and cried while driving home. 

I realized, I'm just like the woman earlier who happened to be Harold's wife. 

Running outside Harold's office, crying and broke. 

What an asshole you are Harold. Hitting two birds in a day. What a crap Harold, what a crap.