after 5 years.

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the cold wind blows throughout new york city. pile of snows everywhere and lots of people were crowding the streets.

some of them are busy with works, some went on a hangout with their family and some people, tend to be alone.

hyojin did adapt herself in new york and now she was just like a normal citizen there instead of visitor. jongin and her stayed at their parents house but not for long. hyojin has her own house at america. eventhough they live separately, she will found time to meet her parents.

hyojin was in her room, dressing up as she wants to go out. she puts light make-up and some mist on her. then she wore long sleeved shirt paired with a brown long jacket and jean. she wrapped a pink scarf around her neck and put on a beanie.

it's a typical thing to do when the weather is too cold. she left the house by 8.30 am and she drove her car to downtown.

she stopped at her favourite cafe which is culture espresso and the cafe is really famous in new york.

the snack and pastries they served really satisfied everyone's hunger.

she ordered the same thing for breakfast which is sweet waffle and cappuccino. sometimes she bought bagels and take it home for their extra meal.

she sat at her favourite spot too, near the cafe window display where she can see things that happen outside.

she sat straight while staring at her cappuccino drink on the table. brown colour. it reminds her the colour of his eyes.

she put a bite of the warm sweet waffle into her mouth and ate them slowly. warm foods are important during cold season.

she didn't celebrate christmas but she only wish them since her parents are having business trip and jongin went to france for work. he was been upgraded but sad thing, he is still single.

he doesn't have any plan of looking for a girl but hyojin always trust him that he will find one so he could build a family.

hyojin kept sipping her coffee until a music was been heard. the cafe always played ballad songs that suits the season.

currently, they are playing snsd's song. time machine.

a sad song. but hyojin really amazed by their voice and the melody was soothing. even they are in america, they also played international songs and it's fine to the customers.

she took out her phone to check some messages. she scrolled and scrolled that she didn't realized a guy was sitting accross her.

"kim hyojin.." he said.

she stopped scrolling and lifted her head. her mouth almost hanged down and she stared at him for a long time.

"se-sehun.." she finally mutters.

"h-how did you? why?" she paused and cleared her throat. she was nervous because she finally met him after 5 years.

no calls, no messages and no news at all. and know, he appeared infront of her.

she was scared like she was staring at a ghost. sehun really look different. really different.

his hairstyle changed, his skin is a bit pale. in her opinion, sehun does become more handsome.

but what's big was, his expression. the way he looked at hyojin. it was so different.

"sehun.." she called him and he exhaled his breath.

"why did you come here?" she asked and her hands were shaking at the same time.

"i wish you knew how much it destroyed me when you left." he said which makes her shocked.

"i know sehun, i'm sorry. i had to." she said and he let out a small chuckle.

"i was beyond sad hyo. it felt like i live in this world with no happiness." he said and bit his lip. "i came here and realized that you've been to this cafe and it is sad that you didn't notice my presence." he adds.

"sehun, why can't you stop? stop finding me? stop missing me so much? stop- everything?" she said and tears started to form in her eyes but she tried to hold it.

"today is one of these days, where i terribly miss you so much and want to talk to you. why can't you let me do that? it's been five years hyojin! five years!" he slightly shout and i looked down.

"i know, it's my fault sehun. but that's life. you're not the only person who experience things like this. but why can't you just let go?" she said and pull a strand of her hair behind her ears.

"i'm sensitive. i care about you way too much. i wasn't the same person when you left hyojin. sadness and loneliness were surrounding me." he dropped his head and breathed heavily. he looked desperate.

"sehun, you know that things can't change like it used to be. please, stop." she said to him and he lift his head up.

"i love you hyojin. can i be the love of your life? please.." he asked and she turned speechless.

she was too shocked by the presence of him, and now he is confessing that he wanted to be with her.

"maybe i deserve someone else but i want you hyojin. kim hyojin." he slid his hand on the table, trying to hold her hands but she resist.

"why are you being like this?" he raised his eyebrow and her tears started to stream down her cheeks.

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"sehun, i'm married." she said.

it's a sad word to be heard by him and she could feel the pain. his face looks like he wants to give up.

"married to wh-who?" he asked.

"i'm not gonna say who because i don't want to break your heart even more. sorry sehun, maybe this isn't our fate. i'm destined to be with someone else." she said with a calming tone.

"but..hyojin..i--"

"i can't bare with this. sehun, can you do me a favor?" she asked and his gaze turns weak.

"what?"

"move on. for me."

she closed her eyes tightly and heaved a sigh. she sip her coffee and stood up.

"i wish you have a good life and get blessed with happiness." she said and left the place. sehun only gave blank stare yet inside, it hurts.

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"where did you been?" he asked as she closed the door.

"as usual, i went to the cafe. i brought bagel so we can eat together." she smiled and he replied too.

"but make sure you don't eat much of this sweet stuff. not good for the baby~" he teased and hyojin hits his shoulder.

they went to their dining table and she served the bagel on a plate. they eat silently accompanied with the sound of the wind. it was very cold eventhough they turned on the heater.

but hyojin kept staring outside the veranda and she didn't touch the bagels at all.

"what's wrong hyo?" he asked.

"oh erm. i just met my friend. i haven't see him for a long time." she said and pressed her mouth into thin line.

"that's great. who?" his eyebrow raised.

"oh--"

"the little boy is crying upstair." he said and i flinched. "i better go upstair." she said. she doesn't want her son to continue crying and that'a how mother's work.

as she went up, jaehyun pouted. hyojin didn't finish her words. who did she met? "whatever, as long as he happy." he shrugged.

it was such a heartbreak when people act up being a stranger. she knew the sound of his laughter inside out, and now his laugh sounds unfamiliar.

sehun who she knew so well, is someone who she used to know.

and that hurts the most.