February 1st, 20XX

your pov:

Sean and I haven't been talking much cause we've both been busy with life. I'm kind of scared we're falling apart

I wake up and get dressed:

(Choose.)

Then I go to school. In 4 weeks we would be off for the sing-offs and we don't have a song! I really want to do something different! Special but I cant think of a song I mean yea we won last semester cause we stood out. But I don't wanna do something like last year!
So the whole walk I kept thinking of songs, going through my playlist nothing hit me with that wave of EUREKA!!

I went to school went through as always and it was horrible.
Pop quiz n first period I forgot about my test for science and I have to deal with glee and chorus....so yea I was pretty much pissed off by 4th period.
I sit down in my chair,

"Yo whore." She said,

"What did you call me?"

"Whore what are you gonna do call mommy or daddy oh wait you cant you don't have anybody to love you."

That's when I lost it I took my shoes off as well as my earrings, got up pushed her char over and started punching the shit out of her she started screaming sean rushed in and took me to the principal's office,

He had a tight grip on my arm

"Let go of me, McLoughlin!" I yell.

"No what's wrong with you today?!"

I continued to try and yank my arm away but his group only got tighter,
Soon I arrived at the principal's office sean left me there I sat down in the chair in front of the principal he did not look pleased but I don't give two fucks about how he feels right now.

"Now tell me why you are here again!" Mr.Dahlberg asked.

"Because I got in a fight duh!" I say.

"Watch your attitude missy! You were on the right path what happened!?"

"Well, you know your little star student everyone's favorite girl Amy has been doing nothing but insulting me for the past  few weeks I've been in chorus I haven't done a damn thing to her and today oh yea she pushed my fucking button by talking shit about my parents!!" Yell.

"That's still no excuse for continuously beating a kid's face!!"

"Well mr.dahlberg if you look in my portfolio you just might find that my mom dies when I was 10 and my dad put me up for adoption at 10 and I've been in a foster care for 6 years before I was able to get  my own house and she thought it was funny to bring up my hell of a past you can whatever the hell you want about me but never ever talk about my family!!"

Mr.dahlberg stood speechless.

"So what detention?suspension or are you gonna expel me?" I ask.

"Cleaning duty after lunch for a week"

"I'll take it and do me the favor of talking to your so-called precious gem Amy." I go back to chorus put on my shoes and earrings and everyone claps.
Except for Sean, he looked at me with total disapproval.

I sat down.

"So guys change of plans." Sean says.

"What?" Everyone says.

"Instead of everyone singing one song we will have 3 groups of 6  go to each hall. And sing a different song you guys are smart enough to figure everything out so ill let you guys choose who does what and let you guys work on it yourselves soo Liam, Kyle, Mikey, Jake, Steve, and Billy!! Come here." All the guys he called went up to sean. "You guys will be singing teenage dream glee edition." All the boys were actually psyched for it. Sean gave them the song arrangements on paper and they went off into a corner to work out the song

"Next Kylie, Mya, Zoe, Magret, Mika, and Lilly you guys will be singing heartbeat song by Kelly Clarkson." He gave them the music sheet and they went into another corner.

"And finally Alex, Charlie, Alison, Mia, Tina, and (y/n) half of the old glee group will be working on Thinking out loud.you guy will be out in the hall." Sean said,

I took the song arrangements from him and we all went outside.

"(Y/n) is it true?" Alison asked,

"About what?" I asked,

"Your parents leaving?"

"....yes it's a very touchy subject for me so can we please just work on the song?" I asked kindly.

"Yes."

We practiced the song for a while working out who sings what part then soon the bell rang!

Of course, I stayed in the chorus room since Alex and the rest of the gang have moved on from glee and our doing bigger things so it just me.

"What happened?" Sean asked.

"I don't wanna talk about it lets just get this out of the way," I say.

"You're gonna have to talk to me about it sooner or later"

"Well, I obviously didn't choose sooner soo..."

Soon everyone comes in and James sits next to me.

"Hey (y/n)!" He said

I smile weakly,"hey James."

" I heard that you beat in Amy's face."

"I did and I don't wanna talk about it."

"Ok ok but tell me one thing."

"Ok?"

"Did you  beat her unrecognizable?" He jokes.

I end up laughing. "I think so, I was dragged away before I could get a good look."

"Well I honestly think she deserved what she got to her I hope she has to have a face lift maybe then it'll reflect how ugly she really is."

He makes me smiles again I hug him." thanks, James I really needed someone to understand me since no one else has been."

"Anytime! Hey, have you chose a song to sing for today?"

"Shit I forgot about the assignment."

We were supposed to choose a song that reflects how we feel about life.

"Maybe we can do another duet?"

"What song?"

"Carry on by fun?"

"Bingo!!"

"Alright glee club we are all about being free expressing yourself through song last week I asked you guys to choose a song on your view on life (y/n) do you have your song picked out?" Sean asked.

"I do and its a duet with good ol James!" I say smiling.
Everyone clapped and we went up and chose to play the karaoke track.

James

You

Both

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Song in media.

Well I woke up to the sound of silence
And cries were cutting like knives in a fist fight
And I found you with a bottle of wine
Your head in the curtains
And heart like the Fourth of July

You swore and said,
"We are not,
We are not shining stars."
This I know,
I never said we are

Though I've never been through hell like that
I've closed enough windows to know you can never look back

If you're lost and alone
Or you're sinking like a stone.
Carry on.
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground.
Carry on.

Carry on, carry on

So I met up with some friends at the edge of the night
At a bar off 75.
And we talked and talked about how our parents will die,
All our neighbours and wives.

But I like to think I can cheat it all
To make up for the times I've been cheated on.
And it's nice to know when I was left for dead
I was found and now I don't roam these streets,
I am not the ghost you are to me.

If you're lost and alone
Or you're sinking like a stone.
Carry on.
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground.
Carry on.

Whoa!
My head is on fire but my legs are fine.
After all they are mine.
Lay your clothes down on the floor,
Close the door, hold the phone,
Show me how no one's ever gonna stop us now.

'Cause here we are
We are shining stars
We are invincible
We are who we are
On our darkest day
When we're miles away
Sun will come
We will find our way home

If you're lost and alone
Or you're sinking like a stone.
Carry on.
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground.
Carry on.

Oooh.
Oooh.
Oooh.
Oooh.

(No one's ever gonna stop us now)
(No one's ever, no one's ever gonna stop, no one's ever gonna stop us now)
(No one's ever, no one's ever gonna stop, no one's ever gonna stop, no one's ever gonna stop us now)

Everyone clapped.

"Even though life is hard you gotta keep going," James says.

I smile." what he said."

Everyone laughs and people go up and sing their song,
Afterwards, I go home and collapse on the couch and do my homework while listening to music when a song came on

Uh huh (eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh) x4

You had my heart and we'll never be a world apart...

then it hit me I know what song we are gonna sing for the sing-offs.

I hear a knock at my door.
I open and its sean.

"What the hell has been going on with you lately?!" He yelled.

"Nice to see you hun are you ok? Yea I'm fine y'know I had a bit of a bad day but ill be fine." I said replying to myself letting sean in.

"I'm sorry, but you've been distant lately and I'm worried."

"I've just been too busy sorry," I say. I sit on the couch a hold my knees to my chest and stuff my face into my knees.

Sean comes in and closes the door.

"Don't you have some work to do?" I asked,

"No not today luckily." Sean sits beside me and rubs my back. "I'm sorry I yelled at you i was just surprised at your outburst."

"I had a bad day," I say.

Sean picks up my homework." what's this?"

"Pythagorean theory. 23 problems."

"Not bad want me to do your homework with you?"

"Seriously?" I asked smiling sarcastically at him.

"Why not?"

"23 problems."

"We can get it done faster and maybe just maybe if we get it done quick enough we can do a little something more.." he said coming closer to me.

My day was getting better! "Well since you put it that way."

"Great." We start the homework within 30 minutes we finished.

"Aaand done!" I say.

"Good girl," Sean says in a seductive voice then kisses me.

I giggle into the kiss.

"Mmm wait let me go to the bathroom real quick," Sean says.

"Ok." Sean leaves.

After today I started doing something I haven't done in a long time...I thought about my parents. I lay down and listen to my music when my mom's favorite song came on...

https://youtu.be/3VxrZd51yVM

I found myself thinking about my mom and how happy she would be to see how far i've come even though I've flunked 12th grade something good came out of it then. I started crying. Sean came in and comforted me.

"Why am I such a baby?" I mumble to myself.

"You're not a baby (y/n) you're only human you make mistakes you feel pain. You've experienced the most pain out of anyone I know and for that I don't expect you to always be strong but I will be here for you."

I hug him."I love you." I say smiling.

"I love you too." He rubs my arm and kisses my forehead.

"I found a song."

"Really?"

"Yea."

"Show me."

I pull up YouTube on the tv and show him the song.

"That's the song?" I asked,

"That's our song," Sean says,

"Yay!!" Sean lays me down on the couch, climbs on top of me and starts to kiss my neck a bit I giggle.

"I don't know what I would do without you," Sean says.

"You wouldn't have 38 glee members"

"True."

We make out for a bit then go to my room and go to sleep.