napatigil ako sa pag lalakad.

"Damn it!" Bulong ko. How could I hurt him like that?

What would I do if he decided to leave me?

Why am I acting like a slut?

Why did I keep chasing a man that was not supposed to be mine and I hurt my husband at the process.

Nakaramdam naman ako nang paninikip nang dibdib at parang natauhan ako dahil sa ginawa ko.

I even publicly humiliated him in front of a crowd.

"I regret what I've said" bulong ko then babalik na sana ako kay kuya kaso may babaeng pumigil sa akin.

"BITCH! HOW DARE YOU HURT HIM! I MAY NOT KNOW HIM AT ALL BUT DAMN YOU! HE DID ALL HIS BEST TO MAKE YOU LOVE HIM BUT IN THE END YOU'VE JUST THROW HIM LIKE A PIECE OF TRASH!" sigaw nya then tinulak nya ako kaya napaupo ako. Ayaw kong lumaban kasi tama naman sya.

"ALAM MO BANG NAKA BROADCAST SA BUONG CAMPUS YUNG GINAWA MO? SIX HOURS NA SYANG NAKA LUHOD DUON AT NAG HIHINTAY SAYO TAPOS SINAKTAN MO LANG SYA!" sigaw nya then sinabunutan nya na ako.

"I regret what I've said" bulong ko naman.

"DO YOU KNOW HOW PITIFUL HE LOOKS LIKE WHEN HE FUCKING TRIED TO PROTECT HIS LITTLE CUPCAKE FROM THE RAIN? WHAT A HEARTLESS SON OF A BITCH YOU ARE!" sinampal nya ako then umalis na sya.

Umupo naman ako. Ang dumi ko na at ang dami ko nang scratches. Ang gulo din nang buhok ko at ang sakit nang katawan ko.

Tumayo ako and umupo ako duon sa likod nang mga bushes. May sugat pala ako sa legs and it's bleeding.

Ayaw kong mawala sa akin si Kuya but it's too late to take may words back.

Iyak lang ako nang iyak hanggang sa mawalan na ako nang malay and when I woked up its already midnight. Basang basa na ako at namamaga na din ang mga mata ko.

Tumayo ako and pumunta sa garden.
Wala nang tao at tumigil na din ang ulan.

Nakita ko naman yung nasirang cupcake at yung nahulog na singsing kaya pinulot ko iyon then napaiyak na naman ako. Nahihilo ako at ang init ko din. Siguradong mataas na ang lagnat ko.

Lalayuan na ba ako ni Kuya?

Sana mapatawad pa ako ni Kuya sa sobrang dami kong kasalanan at sa pananakit ko sa kanya.

Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat.

Sana mabigyan pa ako nang second chance para mag bago at itama ang mga maling ginawa ko.

I'm done being a selfish fool.

Habang naglalakad ako ay nakita ko si JC na may kasamang ibang babae.

"Oh, look who's here" napapatawang usal nang kasama nito.

"JC, is this the stupid gurl that keep on following you? It's no wonder you don't like her. Look how filthy she is" she mocked me at napatawa naman si JC.

"JC" usal ko. I want to tell him that I finally realized that I didn't even love him. What I've felt for him was just an infatuation.

I want to tell him that I'll be together with my husband from now on.

"I-" I wasn't able to continue what I'm saying dahil agad nagsalita si JC.

"Listen, don't even start with your stupid antics about love. I don't and I won't love you. I've used your feelings in order to achieve my goal. I got my boss pay for the breach of contact with my father's company and it saved us from bankruptcy" he pointed at me at napatawa pa sya.

"And you, being a big idiot decided to hurt your husband even more. I don't have any use for you now. So please do me a favor and leave me alone" muli nilang ipinagpatuloy ang paglalakad nila habang tinatawanan ako.

Napaupo naman ako at mas napaiyak.

Yes, I'm an idiot for not realizing it sooner.

Hindi ako nasaktan dahil hindi ako gusto ni JC. But I feel like a total shit for letting him use me like that.

I blame my self for being such a slut.