John's POV

We all have good times when we're together no matter what. I tried to call Alex but he wouldn't answer.

I cant help but wonder. Why? Alex always picks up my calls. This is concerning.

Alex's POV

I was in my house I hadn't slept in a week I was awake I needed a break. I was longing for Eliza missing my husband that's when I heard a desperate knock on my door.

A/N yes this is happening.

I open it and theres a lady there. She introduced herself as Martha Manning. She said "My husband's doin me wrong beating me cheating me mistreating me suddenly he's up and gone I dont have the means to go on..."

I felt so bad. Her husband doesn't love her. So I offered her a loan I offered to walk her home she said "your to kind sir."

I gave 30 bucks that I had stalked away she lived a block away when we got there she said "this ones mine sir.." I had to get home. "Well I should head back home."

She turned red. Really red. She led me to her bed let her legs spread and said "Staaayy~" "heyy..." "heeyyy~"

That's when I began to pray...lord show me how to say no to this. I have a husband and a kid for God's sake. I dont know how to say no to this.

A/N why dont you just fucking run Alex?

In my mind I'm trying to go but then her mouth is on mine and I cant say no...

That was when I broke the kiss because John has been calling me. I reach for it but Martha grabs my hand so I dont and I miss the 3rd call.

John's POV

To forget the fact that my husband wasn't picking up I remembered the time he came home from work and I told him about Philip.

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I was waiting for Alex to come home from work after I talked to his boss about what I found out a month ago.

He opened the door and he came in he looked worried. "Hey honey..." "hey sweetie how are you?" "Im good. How bout you?" "Eh. My boss kinda...kicked me out for the day after an accident..." "oh thats bad...well welcome home" "thanks"

I showed him my stomach which had the baby bump there already. Alex worked a job were sometimes I couldn't see him for months. It was some of those days.

He stayed quiet after I showed him. "Look around look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now look around look around..."

He looked at me in shock "how long have you known?" "A month or so.." "John you should have told me.." 

"I talked to your boss a month ago.." "no!" "I begged him to send you home.." "you should've told me.." "I'm not sorry."

I gave him a small smile after I said that. " I knew you'd keep working till your job was done.." "my jobs not done.." "but you deserve a chance to meet your son.."

"Look around look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now" I remember Eliza used to say that to me when I was feeling down.

"Will you relish being a poor mans husband? Unable to provide for your life.." "I relish being your husband..look around look around..."

"Look at were you are, look at were you started the fact that your alive is a miracle just stay alive that would be enough..."

I put my hands on the bump on my stomach. "And if this child shares a fraction of your smile or a fragment of your mind look out world that would be enough.."

I look at him. "I dont pretend to know the challenges your facing the worlds you keep erasing and creating in your mind."

"But I'm not afraid I know who I married. So long as you come home at the end of the day, that would be enough."

"We dont need a legacy we dont need money. If I can grant you piece of mind. If you could let me inside your heart. Oh let me apart of the narrative in the story they will write some day."

"Let this moment be the first chapter were you dicided to stay..."

"And I could be enough...and we could be enough...that would be enough..."

!BACK TO REALTY!

I love that memory an I hope I dont lose Alexander any time soon I love him. Hes got me Helpless again.