Flashback

"Who is that girl you've been playing with?"

I choose not to reply, otherwise he'll do something bad I know he will.

"Is she a friend? A girlfriend maybe?"

His hands slide around my waist and towards the buckle of my school pants.

"She's pretty. But not as pretty as my precious doe eyed boy."

I swallow the lump in my throat, my eyes fixed on Y/n as she reads alone in the playground. I was supposed to meet her but again I was called to the head masters office, leaving me no choice but to helplessly watch her from his window.

"You talk more when she's around. I've seen you laughing too. Maybe we should invite her in here to join us this time—."

I shoot my body around and kiss him. It knocks me sick, in fact I have to pull away quick before I puke in my own mouth.

He smiles and touches his lips, almost blushing with giddiness. He then pulls me close till I'm trapped in his arms, his chin resting on my head. "You love me back. Finally you love me back." He says almost crying.

No.
I love her.

End of flashback

Jungkook PoV

I wake up in shock; my body now sat up with the quilt clutched in my hands. I'm sweating buckets, my heart is racing and I can't stop myself from throwing up onto the floor.

I've been having that same nightmare every night since Y/n moved into the other room.

At first I was glad when she went. I thought she'd take a few hours to calm down and soon come back to me, but she hasn't. It's been 5 days and she hasn't even said more then a hello to me.

We cross paths on the way to the bathroom sometimes. She always lets me go in first.

Rooms always turn silent when I walk into them. Last night I entered the kitchen for a glass of water, Y/n was already in there having a chat with Jin and the second our eyes locked she froze. Jin said hi but I couldn't give a fuck whether he held his arms open for a hug. Y/n's choice of ignoring me is unbearable. I miss her but at the same time I wanna bash her head against the wall for ignoring me in the first place.

Heading downstairs I search for some cleaning supplies to sort out the mess I made upstairs. When I reach the kitchen I find Jin sat at the table, laptop out and pile of papers at his side.

"I've been sick." My voice causes him to look over at me.

"Really? Was it something you ate?"

I shake my head whilst looking down. "I haven't felt right the last few days."

"Could be side effects to your new meds."

"Yeah well I need some cleaning supplies."

"Oh, do you want me to clean it up for you—."

"No Jin I'm not a five year old I can handle my own vomit."

"Right." The male smiles before getting up.

I watch him.

I analyse him.

I don't get him.

Y/n admires this guy and I don't understand why? He helped to put her life in danger, she trusted him and he betrayed her. Offering his home to us shouldn't make up for that.

He's become rather close with her. They talk a lot I know that, but what they talk about is a mystery to me.

I wait till the male has his back to me. And that's when I do it.

"Jin."

"Yes?"

"I need advice on girls."

Next day

Y/n PoV

When I enter the kitchen I'm surprised to see Jungkook sitting at the table, newspaper in his hands and a leg crossed over the other.

Just. Like. Jin...

I flick between them both, trying to work out whether this is a joke or if I'm in a parallel universe.

Breaking out of his pose Jungkook pulls a chair out for me to sit.

But so does Jin...
And given the current situation I accept his offer.

"What are you up to Kim?" I whisper, and judging by the males smirk he knows exactly what I'm referring to.

He keeps his eyes focused on the news paper, licking his fingers before flipping the page. He then shrugs a head for me to look at Jungkook.

Who hurries to do the same...

I shoot my head back to Jin, confused.

"He's jealous." The male mouthes.

"What??" I pull a face of disbelief.

I read Jins texts that explained some of the events of last night, but I thought it was just a random joke.

Is Jungkook...

Actually threatened by Jin?

The dude has a wife and kid?? Plus we're just friends, I'd never see him any other way!!

"You painted your nails?" The male suddenly takes hold of my hand, admiring my dark nail polish. I notice Jungkook flick his eyes towards us and I immediately pull my hand back.

Jins grin grows bigger.

"So kids I'm heading to the park to meet Jisoo. Can I trust you not to leave ass prints in the coffee granules?"

As if in sync, both mine and Jungkooks eyes widen.

Chuckling Jin folds his paper up. "I'll see you two later. Don't forget to lock the door if you go out."

"Where would we go?" Jungkook asks.

"Well. There's a nice beach 3 minutes from here. Might be nice for you both to go for a walk."

"That actually sounds nice." I say smiling.

"You actually wanna spend time with me?" Jungkook looks at me stunned.

"I do."

Once Jin left, Jungkook and I proceeded to get ready in our separate rooms. It's been weird these past couple of days. We've acted like strangers almost, and it's been awful, I've hated every minute of it but I needed that time on my own.

Fixing my jacket I head out of the room where the boy is already waiting. He looks up from the floor, his awkward stance making me smile. I'm nervous too for some reason.

"You have a hole in your jeans" the male points out.

"No that's just a rip. It's a style."

I laugh from his confused expression but stop when he locks eyes with me again.

Those doe eyes of his can silence me so quickly.

10 minutes

I smile out at the waves rolling onto the sand. It's so beautiful out here. So peaceful.

I turn to look behind me where Jungkook stands at distance, himself just staring out at the ocean contently. I feel bad that he has to be in disguise, but at least he's out in the fresh air instead of some stuffy bedroom.

I had a dream last night.

Of me and him.

Together.

It was a few years on. We'd bought a house together, only small but it was so warm and cosy, and full of colour, everything beautiful enough to distract him from his recent places of refuge.

Jungkook was drawing, a smile on his face as I hugged him from behind. We weren't saying anything, just enjoying one another's company.

So perfect.

"Y/n—."

I jump when seeing the boy now stood before me.

"You were just standing like a statue is everything alright?" He asks.

Whoops. Gotta stop with the day dreaming.

"You ready to head back?" I ask him.

"Already?" He replies with shock.

"Oh well we don't have to."

"Good because I wanna stay. That house bores the fuck out of me."

"Well why don't we dip our toes in the ocean?" I say with a smile, but the boys lack of response makes me cautious. "What? Did I say something wrong."

He shakes his head. "No it's. Well it's embarrassing really."

"What?" I step closer to him. "Whatever it is you can tell me kooks."

"I can't swim."

"Oh. Well, I only suggested we dip our toes in." I chuckle whilst removing my shoes and socks. "You don't have to but I am."

APoV

Jungkook simply watches Y/n as she excitedly hops towards the sea. She giggly jumps and squeals from the coldness of the water before looking back at Jungkook and signalling for him to join her.

Such a child, he thought to himself.

However despite his lack of interest, the boy proceeds to removing his shoes and socks.

Jungkook PoV

Flashback

"So how was your weekend?"

"So good! My dad took my to the beach for the day and we bought sugar dusted donuts—."

I zone out from Y/n's words and just stare at her. Her smile is always so big whenever she talks about her dad. He must be a good man, I'd love to meet him one day, hear one of these amazing jokes he apparently tells.

"And then me and Taehyung went into the ocean and it was so cold—."

"Taehyung?" I suddenly break out of my trance. "Who's Taehyung?"

"Oh just a boy I met on the beach. He was really funny and insisted we run into the sea."

She was with another boy this weekend...

I would have loved to have gone with her this weekend to the beach but she never asked, and now she has a new friend.

Is she forgetting about me?

End of flashback

It's becoming more often that I'm remembering her. Young Y/n...

"Oh my god why did I do this?!" I hear the girl laughing as she stomps around in the water.

I gasp suddenly before looking down, seeing the foamy water now washing over my feet. "Fuck me!"

Y/n PoV

I smile from the boys reaction. "You alright?"

"It's fucking freezing!"

Yeah suppose not everyone is a fan of the ocean, but I'm just glad he gave it a go at least.

20 minutes later

I continue to walk along the sand, my shoes and socks held in one hand as I use my other to hold Jungkooks. "We can go back if you want?" I look at him.

"Aww but then our super fun day out will be over."

I sigh with a smile. "You know this sarcasm of yours is getting old."

"Yeah well sorry if I hate the beach."

I pause in my steps, my hand slipping out of his just as he turns back to face me.

"I'm really trying here Kooks."

"Trying to what?"

"To make the most out of our situation. You can't really go anywhere so I thought a day out like this would be good for you—."

"I didn't care about the day out I just cared about being with you."

"What?"

Through irritation the boy removes his mask, tossing it to the ground. "We haven't said more then two words to each other until this morning and it's been more then frustrating. If I wanted to go back to having no one to engage in conversation with then I'd be back in that cell, counting the hours until I could fuck someone out of boredom."

"Yeah well I was mad at you Kooks. You can't blame me for needing some time to myself." I say before sitting down on the sand. Rather than joining me he walks away, and I for once don't chase after him.

Things just don't seem to be getting easier with him. Sure, we're on track with the lawyers and legal strings. But on a more emotional side I feel like I'm losing him, all of him. I don't know, it's always been difficult getting close with him, but recently it feels like I'm going backwards and unravelling everything I've ever created.

We have a past that tangles us together. And even if that past didn't exist I'd still be tied to him by my own feelings. But that doesn't mean there aren't day where all I can think about is giving up, walking away and avoiding the heart break I can sense around the corner.

But there's always something that tells me not to leave him. Something reminding me why I should still have hope.

My attention turns to the paper bag dropped at my side, a pair of legs standing behind it. I look up at a Jungkook confused, and rather then responding he sits down to stare out at the sea with me.

Ending my curiosity I peep inside of the bag, and my heart warms from the site of 4 delicious looking sugar dusted donuts.

"Jungkook I—."

"Don't go all mushy on me now nuisance. Just eat your donuts."