Warning this story contain PTSD , Panic attack and self harm.

           Who never knew being in pain could be so normal for Midoriya, I mean he always breaking bones so it's kinda normal for him to get used to the pain . He felt the light hitting his eyes forcing himself to open his eye lids . He slowly moved his head around wondering where he is , he felt uncomfortable and scared. The room reminded him so much of the "event" that he doesn't want to remember it , the room have the same color as what he call cell. He could feel himself shaking , sweats pouring from his forehead , without thinking he started to scratch his arms forcefully, feeling the needles pricking his skin into his veins , tears started to fall , continuing hurting himself seeking warm liquid spilling onto his sheets and skin. He doesn't want to go back to that place , he doesn't want to be in that room. He refused to feel the needles hurting him .

I don't want to go back , I don't , I don't , I don't ! It hurts ! Where am I ?! I'm scared !! Almight...mom....anyone !!! Save me ! Please save me and Denki ! I promise I'll be quiet ! I promise I won't hurt myself ! I'll be good ! I'll be good....

He felt somebody shaking him , uproar of muffled voices could be heard but to him all he could hear is the doctor smirking , forcing himself to watch Denki get tortured , he could see the blood spilling on the floor...so much...blood.

I promise I'll be good...don't hurt him...don't hurt Denki !!

He then felt needles causing him to mutter in fear , Denki trying to get close to him only to be kicked by Tomura , he could feel the wicked smiles that appeared on both the doctor and Tomura . They enjoy this a lot, he knows he couldn't be saved this time.

"Izu- wake u-"

Please....someone....no more needles...no more....

"Ya- listen- me " he shook his head refusing to believe the voice . Tears spilling more , the voices started to get louder and he started to scream on top of his lungs.

" NO MORE ! "

His eyes sprung open seeing recovery girl and Aizawa staring at him in intense worry, Aizawa who have both his hands on his shoulders. Midoriya glances at his sensei ,looking around the room , he let out a shaky sigh of relief before glancing back at his teacher.

"A-Aizawa...w-w-What...you doing h-here ? " he spoke trying to show a smile , forcing himself to stop the tears. What he learned is that heroes should always smile no matter the situation is , so people could have hope . Aizawa only stare at him then at his arms.

Izuku glances down at his arms wondering what caused his teacher to feel so guilty , then he knew. His arm is coated in blood and scratches , he could see some skin removed. His eyes widened in fear, he hurt himself. A little boy, only three to four years old...hurt himself.

"Midoriya...take deep breaths...do not panic..we'll fix your injuries" Aizawa spoke , picking the child up to his arms, placing his head on his chest.

"You must've been terrified...I'm sorry Midoriya, I wasn't there to protect both you and Kaminari.." Izuku could hear so much guilt by his tone. He wanted to yell saying it isn't true but he just couldn't open his mouth, the fear and torture both he and Denki is unbearable. But he will never blamed Aizawa or the heroes for this. As much as Midoriya wanted to yell at him , begging why he or Almight didn't rescue them , he wanted to hate them. He wanted to hate Almight.

"I won't fail you two again...I'm sorry , I failed my job as a teacher and a hero "

I can't hate you...I want to hate heroes...but you saved me..

He is confused on who to trust, confused on why he hate them. He should be thankful that he's being saved, he should. He should. He should be grateful that he was rescued before it gotten worse. Aizawa saved them , he saved them and protected them .

He stares at his teacher once more trying to smile , showing that it's alright, yet, tears starts to fall . He forced himself to smile only to have Aizawa shaking his head.

"Don't force yourself Midoriya...it's alright to cry, I'm here ..." he spoke.

Midoriya glances at him with wide eyes wondering if that is okay to cry , to feel weak and powerless, to feel that he failed to do a simple thing all because he is a child . He should've hate himself for being in this state, he should've been stronger. He should've not gone to that villain . He felt more hatred to himself
Than anyone else in this school , in this world. With that the poor child starts to let out his tears , crying as his teacher held him tight. The fear of going back haunts him , he refused to go back. He refused too, he wants to be a hero , he wants to be fearless. So why...

Why am I so weak...why am I so powerless

Midoriya continues to cry holding on to his teacher is if it's their last. Aizawa pets his hair in comfort , closing his eyes as he listen to the boy's crying.

"From now on...me and Almight will not let you all down" he spoke glancing at the bed next to Midoriya . His eyes glancing at another student who witness the event.

On the other side , Denki's face was filled with guilt. Nothing but pure sadness and regret. All he could feel is Midoriya's depression and crying. He couldn't do it anymore , he cannot keep it in any longer. Right now he doesn't care about the consequences he have to faced, he doesn't want to see Midoriya suffer again.

Even if it means having people hate on him, his friends turning their backs from them. Having Bakugou no longer on his side, it's painful , it hurts. But he will not let this go on. Even if it means he have to pay the price. He will tell them everything...even if Bakugou and Midoriya will hate him.

"Sensei.....I'm the UA Traitor "

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Wow ! I sure wrote a lot !

Anyways I decided to put some music in this chapter bc I feel like it matches somewhat. So sorry if anyone cried but don't worry to make you all feel better I was also crying .

Omg Denki finally confessed ! Holy shit ! He finally had the courage to say it , he knew this will get him into trouble but he doesn't want to see any of his classmates including Midoriya to suffer . What an amazing kid !

Alright I am happy that I have more motivation ! Thank you all for reading and next chapter will be coming up !