I didn't like him
I didn't I swear
But he liked me
And I was surprised

At first it had been sweet
All gifts and trinkets
Poems and confessional love

He'd sworn that his
Life was in my hands
I was his heart
That I kept him alive

I was flattered
Touched
I enjoyed it

I liked him fawning
Over me
Like I was
The only girl he could see

Then it got weird
Love letters in my mailbox
Everyday

I didn't think much of it
But it slightly creeped me out
I brushed it off
Hoping it was his way to show love

I watched him for anymore
Weird behavior
But he didn't show any

Then was the stalking
Nothing major
Showing up around
My workplace

Loitering around
My favorite
Coffee shops

Again I brushed it off
He worked there too
Right?
Right?

Then I'd see flashes of light
Through my window
'They're just car headlights.'

How I wish it were true
I'd confront him about it
He'd claim innocence
I'd believe

Only to see
Lights
Again

Then it was really weird
He'd ask my friends
Places I'd go
They wouldn't tell

He stormed off
Sending threats
Glaring icicles

A few days
I got a call
It was him
Funny

I never gave him my number
I got teddy bears at my apartment door
I never told him that either

I freaked
I moved
Far away
A new life

Years later
He found me again
With a grin he said, 'I'd never let you go.'

A wolf's grin
Predatory
Dangerous
Wrong

Nothing happened after
For a while
I'd thought he'd forgotten

But I got
Flowers
Songs
Poems

I couldn't keep quiet
I called the police
Had a trial

And won
Now he
Is on a

Restriction
40 ft away
at all times
I never felt more glad

When he lost
He snarled
He said

'I never loved anyone but you!'
'Why would you hurt me like this?!'
'You were my life!'
'My soul was yours!'

He claimed
I strung him own
I refused to believe so

Soon
When I couldn't fight anymore
I thought
'What if I did string him along?'

I started to wonder
'What if I'd accepted him?'
Would things be different

Would he be so
So
Obsessed
For me

Would he have
Moved on
If I'd

Tried with
With no success
I don't like
Those thoughts

I try not to think about
It so much
But
It never would've worked

His obsession
Has made
Me obsessed
With the 'what ifs'

And that's
Not
Right