Hello everyone...

I'm back with a Samaina FS (Five Shots)

I've tried writing an emotional story for the first time...

I hope I do justice to the story...

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Ignore the mistakes...

With Lots of Love,

Daksha...❤

TANHAYEE

CHAPTER 1

NAINA

I stood in the balcony listening to the song that was playing on my Walkman,

Tanhayee...

Tanhayee...
Dil ke raaste mein...
Kaisi thokar maine khaayi...
Toote khwaab saare ek mayusi hai chhayi...
Har khushi so gayi...
Zindagi kho gayi...
Tumko jo pyaar kiya maine to sazaa maine paayi...
Tanhayee tanhayee...
Milo hai faili huvi tanhayee...
Tanhayee tanhayee...
Milo hai faili hoye tanhayee...

Loneliness... That was what I was experiencing since childhood. Even when I was surrounded by family & friends, I was alone. Being an introvert, it was really difficult for me to express myself. Whatever I used to feel, I would write down in my diary. But now, I don't feel the need to share my lonely life with anyone nor do I write. A lot of things have changed in my life since last seven years.

Yesss... Seven long years... I'm staying with Phulla bua in Mumbai now. She is the one who made me independent in every way. It's because of her that I'm self-sufficient to take my own decisions & could take a stand for myself. The innocent & naïve Naina was left behind in Ahmedabad. The feelings that I harboured once upon a time, are now buried deep inside my heart. I have made strong walls around my heart that no one could break.

Khwaab mein dekha tha ek aanchal maine apne haatho mein...
Ab toote sapno ke shishe chubte hai in aankhon mein...
Khwaab mein dekha tha ek aanchal maine apne haatho mein...
Ab toote sapno ke shishe chubte hai in aankhon mein...
Kal koyi tha yahin...
Ab koyi bhi nahin...
Ban ke naagin jaise hai saason mein lehrayi...
Tanhayee tanhayee...
Palko pe kitne aansoon hai laayi...
Tanhayee tanhayee...
Palko pe kitne aansoon hai laayi...

I closed my eyes drifting into the painful past that changed me & my life forever...

FLASHBACK (7 Years ago)

I was so happy that Chachaji had finally accepted my relationship with Sameer. I was scared when he wanted to meet us in the temple. I & Sameer had told him all about our love since the first day that we had almost crashed into each other in our school days. He had patiently heard us & then after thinking a lot, he had accepted our love. He was ready to stand with us, when the time comes. That day, I was the happiest as I saw the two most important people of my life smiling heartily. Finally, after going through so much, I saw Sameer happy that day.

When I went back with Chachaji, I had turned to look at Sameer & had winked, making him all smiles. My friends Swati, Kamya, Hema & my soul sister, Preeti, were dancing in elation with the happy news. I too was on cloud nine. I treated my Chachaji with lots of respect & love. He was a father figure to me & his acceptance of us had given me wings to take my relationship with Sameer to another level.

The next day when I had given some riddles to solve so that Sameer could find me, but his friends had found me instead & asked me to meet him outside the college. I was surprised with this but still had gone ahead to meet him. When I saw him, the first thought that crossed my mind was how could I be so much lucky to find such a great love partner for myself.

But something seemed off that day as he wasn't smiling & looked very much nervous. I asked him about it & he spoke, "Wohhh... kal jab main Chachaji se mila na toh milne ke baad toh mujhe bohot khushi hui. Lekin fir achanak se ek ajeeb si ghabrahat, ek ajeeb si bechaini honi lagi aur maine bohot baar apne aap se poocha ki iss ghabrahat aur bechaini ka reason kya hai?"

I asked him curiously, "Toh kuch jawab mila apne aap se?" He replied, "Haan... Jawaab mila toh sahi, lekin apne aap se nahi, Munna se." I was confused & asked, "Munna se?" He again replied, "Haan... Munna ko lagta hai ki hamari love story ka end fir se judaai hi hoga. Inn teen saalon mein humne jaane anjaane mein ek dusre ko bohot dukh, bohot dard diye hai. Lekin kya tumhe pataa hai ki iss dukh aur iss dard ko sabse jyada kisne jhela hai? Munna Pandit ne... Iss duniya mein agar main kisiko apna saccha dost bol sakta hun na toh wohhh Munna aur Pandit hai. Jaisi tumhari ek family hai na, sweet si, ek bohot acchi si family, waise hi Nanu bhi meri family the. Baaki toh tumhe sab pataa hi hai mere baare mein. Ek sheher se dusre sheher, ek boarding school se dusre boarding school, life mein kabhi settle hi nahi ho paaya. Aur isi wajah se kabhi koi dost nahi banaa. Fir mujhe mile Munna aur Pandit, meri jaan, mere bhai, mere sab kuch... Tumhe toh pataa hai na Naina ki jab bura waqt aata hai toh sabse pehle hamare apne hi hamara saath chodke chale jaate hai. Lekin Munna Pandit... Munna Pandit ne kabhi bhi aisa kuch bhi nahi kiya, wohh hamesha mere saath rahe, specially hamare case mein... Chahe wohh tumhare ghar ke neeche aane waali baat ho yaa fir tumhare papa se daant khali waali baat. Munna Pandit hamesha mere saath the, meri parchaayi ki tarah."

I spoke, "Main jaanti hun Sameer ki wohh dono tumhare best friends hai aur hamesha rahenge... Par inn sabka hamare rishtey se kya taalluk???" He answered straight looking into my eyes, "Taalluk hai. Bilkul taalluk hai. Naina... Munna hamare rishtey se khush nahi hai. Usko lagta hai ki agar tumne mujhe dobara chod diya toh mera kya haal hoga? Naina... Jaise tumhare liye tumhari family important hai na, ussi tarah Munna bhi mere liye important hai. And I'm sorry, main Munna ke against nahi jaa sakta. Kabhi nahi..."

I stood there like a statue on the middle of the road & he left on his bike, leaving me alone forever. I didn't go back to college that day. Instead, I went home. I needed time to think over it. When I reached home, I saw that Chachiji was cooking lunch for us. She was surprised to see me home alone, "Arey Naina... Tu itna jaldi ghar kaise aa gayi? Aur yeh Preeti kahan hai? Tu akeli hi aa gayi kya?"

With lots of efforts, I found my voice, "Wohhh... Chachiji... mujhe na bohot sardard ho raha tha. Toh main ghar aa gayi. Preeti college mein lectures attend kar rahi hai." She was worried instantly, "Bhagwaan jhooth na bulaaye... Naina... Tu aisa kar apne kamre mein jaa. Main ekdum kadak adrak wali chai banaa deti hun, usse peene se tera sar dard ekdum bhag jaayega."

I just nodded in reply & left to my room. I pretended to sleep when Chachiji came with a cup of ginger tea. "Arey. Yeh toh so gayi. Shaayad bohot hi sardard hoga. Sone deti hun. Thoda aaraam kar legi toh thik ho jaayegi.", I heard her mumbling to herself & then she left my room.

The tears that I had stopped from falling made its way finally. I wept uncontrollably clutching the pillow tightly. How could Sameer do this to me? The happiness that I felt since yesterday evaporated in thin air today. I lost all the hopes of togetherness. This is the punishment that I deserved to hurt my love, my Sameer... But do I have a right to call him mine now, when he has broken our relationship. He was never mine I suppose.

Taiji's taunts made its presence again. She was right that I was cursed & that's the reason that I never gave happiness to anyone around me. Now I understood how much I had hurt Sameer when I had broken up with him because of my cowardness. I had shattered all his dreams, broken his pure heart, broken his lovely soul. I deserved this. I would never be happy. This was all Karma that was taking its revenge for breaking my one & only love.

I kept sobbing & cursing my destiny, when suddenly the door to the room opened & Preeti walked in furiously. She locked the door & sat next to me. I saw her questioning eyes but remained quiet & didn't feel the need to tell her anything for now. I closed my eyes & Sameer's face appeared. I opened them instantly & saw Preeti glaring at me, "Naina... Tu mujhe bina bataaye ghar kyun aa gayi?"

"Wohhh mujhe thoda sardard ho raha tha toh main sidha ghar aa gayi.", I lied to her too. I couldn't tell the real reason right now. She didn't believe my words at all & continued, "Dekh Naina... Sach sach bataa kya baat hai. Yeh sardard waali kahaani mujhe mat sunaa. Mujhe pataa hai ki tere aur Jijaji ke beech fir se kuch toh hua hai. Ab jaldi se bataa kya hua hai."

I controlled myself & spoke, "Preeti... Please main abhi kuch bataana nahi chaahti. Chachaji ko aa jaane de. Main unke saamne hi sab bataa dungi. Please abhi mujhe akela chod de behen. Please..." She didn't question further & slept beside me, pulling me in her hug. I let my tears flow this time freely as I knew my personal Hanuman would always be there with me, no matter what... She wiped my tears & consoled me, "Sab thik ho jaayega Naina. Tu ro mat. Main hun na tere saath hamesha."

She kept rubbing my back continuously & I don't know when I drifted to sleep. When I got up, I saw Chachaji sitting on my bed looking at me worriedly. I tried to get up but he didn't allow me to, "Naina... Utho mat. Leti raho. Preeti ne doctor ko phone kar diya hai, abhi aate hi honge." I saw Chachiji & Preeti entering the room. Both of them sat on the either sides.

The doctor arrived in the next fifteen minutes & checked me. "Anandji... Naina ko bukhaar toh bohot hai. Viral ho gaya hai. Maine yeh davai likh di hai. Isse teen din tak dete rahiye. Beti teen chaar din mein thik ho jaayegi." The doctor turned towards me, "Aur Naina... Tumhe bhi khud ka acche se khayaal rakhna hai. Time par acche se kha lena aur davaai bhi time par le lena." He turned to Chachaji again, "Agar tabiyat aur bhi kharab ho jaaye toh mujhe phone kar dijiyega. Main aa jaunga. Thik hai. Ab chalta hun."

Chachiji fed me dinner with her own hands & Preeti gave me medicines... All the while I saw Chachaji's curious & worried glances towards me. Once Chachiji was asleep, Chachaji knocked on our door & entered. She locked the door again. He sat beside me & asked me, "Naina... Kya hua hai? Preeti bhi thik se kuch nahi bataa rahi."

Preeti instantly replied, "Papa... Jab mujhe hi khud kuch pataa nahi hai toh main aapko kya bataun. Maine bhi poocha tha par isne kahaa ki aapke saamne hi bataayegi." Both of them waited for my reply & I repeated the whole conversation that happened with Sameer today. They listened to me calmly but once I was done speaking, Preeti was furious, "Jijaji paagal ho gaye hai kya? Munna ki wajah se aisa kaise sab kuch khatam kar sakte hai? Abhi phone karke daanti hun."

She was about to turn, when I spoke, "Tu kisise kuch nahi kahegi Preeti. Na Sameer se, na Munna se. Tujhe meri kasam hai." She stopped in her tracks hearing my words. Chachaji too was stunned with this. She sat down on the bed with a thud. "Naina... Kasam waapas le. Mujhe unn logon ki akal thikaane laani hai."

"Preeti maine kahaa na ki tu kisise kuch nahi kahegi, na kuch samjhaane ki koshish karegi. Aur tujhe meri kasam hai ki tune yeh baat kisise bhi kahi toh. Yeh baat sirf hamare beech mein hi rahegi. Samjhi tu?" "Naina beta... Kyun kar rahi hai aisa? Kya karna chaahti hai tu?", finally I heard Chachaji's voice. I looked at him with misty eyes, "Kya main aapse kuch maang sakti hun aaj?", I asked him in a low voice.

He nodded & I asked with a heavy heart, "Kya aap mujhe Mumbai bhej sakte hai? Main apni padhai wahin kar lungi. Please Chachaji, kya aap mujhe yeh de sakte hai?" They were shocked to hear my request. Preeti hollered, "Tu paagal ho gayi hai Naina. Aise kaise tu yahaan se jaane ki baat kar sakti hai? Papa aap iski koi baat mat suno. Kahin nahi bhejoge aap Naina ko."

I started sobbing again & Preeti hugged me instantly, rubbing my back. She too cried with me & continued her rants, scolding me all the while for taking such a harsh decision to leave Ahmedabad. I looked at Chachaji again & spoke in a choked voice, "Please mujhe yahaan se jaana hai. Main roz Sameer ko apne saamne nahi dekh paaungi Chachaji. Usko aur khudko tootte hue nahi seh paaungi."

He stared at me for a while, "Main sochkar batata hun kal. Tum aaraam karo. Preeti apni behen ka acche se dhyaan rakhna." He retired to his room after saying those words. I didn't know what was he thinking about my decision. Would he send me to Mumbai? It was true that I won't be able to face Sameer here. It was best that I left this city. Each & every lane, every nook & corner would remind me of him.

Once the lights were off, I heard Preeti's voice, "Naina... Main jaanti hun tu soyi nahi hai. Toh ab mujhe sach sach bataa ki tere mann mein kya chal raha hai. Tu kyun jaana chahti hai yahaan se? Tu toh jijaji se kitna pyaar karti hai. Ek baar acche se samjha toh sahi unko, mujhe pataa hai ki wohhh tere manane par zaroor maan jaayenge. Naina... Tu please aise apne pyaar ko haarne mat de. Jo galti tune Arjun bhaiya ki wajah se ek baar ki hai, wohhh waapis mat dohra behen. Please ek aakhri baar Jijaji se baat kar le."

My tears hadn't stopped at all. It was time to let Preeti see my wounds. She was my soul sister & she deserves to know my feelings. I took a deep breath & started speaking, "Preeti... Main jo kar rahi hun wohi iss haalaat mein sahi hai. Main Sameer se bohot pyaar karti hun aur isiliye yeh faisla liya hai. Aur aaj jo bhi usne kahaa, wohh galat bhi toh nahi hai na. Abhi sirf Chachaji ne hi hamara rishta manzoor kiya hai, par kya aage chalkar mere papa, taiji, tauji ya Arjun bhaiya, hamare rishte ko manzoori denge, hamare pyaar ko samjhenge?"

"Nahi Preeti. Yeh toh tu bhi maanti hai na ki inme se koi hamare pyaar ko nahi samjhega. Wohhh log Agarwal aur Maheshwari waali baat par hi ade rahenge. Unke liye yeh samaaj mein unki izzat bohot pyaari hai, uss izzat ke liye shayaad mujhe Sameer ko chodne ke liye majboor bhi kar de. Tune dekha tha na ki unhone kaise bartaav kiya tha mere saath jab meri shaadi Sharad ke saath tay hui thi. Taiji ko toh main pehle se hi pasand nahi hun, aur tauji ko toh sirf apne khaandaan ki izzat pyaari hai. Rahaa sawaal Papa ka toh unhe toh meri shakal se bhi nafrat hai toh unhe koi farak bhi nahi padega. Aur Arjun bhaiya toh kabhi khud ke pyaar ke liye khade nahi ho paaye toh mera kya hi saath denge. Aur inn sab mein akele Chachaji ki baat na toh koi sunega aur naahi samjhega. Toh aaj nahi toh kal hamare pyaar ko suli par chadhna hi hai."

"Naina... Jijaji sab ko manaa lenge. Tu fikar mat kar. Bas abhi yeh jaane ki baat mat kar. Ek baar unse baat kar le shaayad sab thik ho jaaye.", she was trying to make me understand. But how could I make her understand that whatever is happening right now is good for us. I tried again, "Preeti... Abhi se agar hum door ho jaaye toh shaayad taklif kam hogi. Aage jaakar agar hamara rishta toota toh hum jee nahi paayenge. Abhi jo raha hai wohi sahi hai aur tu please Sameer ko Jijaji bulaana band kar. Hamare beech koi rishta nahi raha. Sab khatam ho gaya hai Preeti..."

"Yaar Naina... Kaise samjhau tujhe. Thik hai, tu mujhe yeh bataa ki kya tu Mumbai jaakar Jijaji ko bhool paayegi, unse pyaar karna chod degi tu?" I smiled between my sobs & spoke, "Main Sameer se marte dum tak pyaar karungi Preeti. Toh bhoolna toh bohot durr ki baat hai. Main jo kar rahi hun wohi thik hai behen. Please ab ispar koi behes mat kar mujhse. Mujhe ab kuch nahi samajhna. Preeti ab so jaa. Bohot der ho gayi hai. Aur mujhe bhi neend aa rahi hai."

She touched my forehead to check my temperature. "Bukhaar abhi bhi kam nahi hua. Tu ruk main thanda paani le aati hun. Thodi der paatiyaan rakhungi na toh shayaad bukhaar utar jaaye." She went to the kitchen & brought a bowl of cold water & a cloth. She continued keeping the cold cloth on my forehead for about half an hour. My eyes felt heavy & I don't know when I drifted to sleep.

I got up late the next day during noon time. I couldn't believe that I slept so much due to the heavy medications. Preeti hadn't gone to college that day & had stayed home to take care of me. I scolded her that she shouldn't miss college but she didn't listen & continued helping me. Swati, Kamya & Hema came home after college to meet us.

They were worried about my health & asked me to take proper rest for few more days. I didn't ask them anything about Sameer but still they kept teasing me the whole time saying that he looked upset today as I wasn't present in college. How could I tell them we have broken up forever this time & we haven't talked since yesterday? I could see Preeti struggling to keep quiet because of my promise. The girls left after an hour. And I went back to sleep.

I was waiting for Chachaji to come so I could ask him of what he thought about my decision. It was late at night when he came home. He met me for five minutes & asked me about my health but didn't say anything more. I knew he too needed time to think about my sudden decision of leaving Ahmedabad.

Three days passed by with me staying at home with Chachiji & Preeti. At least my stars were good that Taiji & Tauji had gone to Baroda to attend some relative's marriage, & Papa had gone to Rajkot to meet Arjun Bhaiya. Chachaji still hadn't come up with a solution. He kept the conversations limited with me related to my health only.

It was the fourth day, when the doorbell rang in the evening & Chachaji came home early with Phulla bua. We were surprised to see her after a long time. The last time she visited us was for Pooja didi's wedding. We welcomed her & Chachiji cooked her favourite food. Taiji & Tauji returned the same night while Papa came the next morning.

We were having lunch, when Tauji asked her if she had visited for something important or was it just a casual visit. We all were stunned with her answer, "Main toh yahaan apni pyaari si Gudiya ko lene aayi hun." I looked at Chachaji instantly & he blinked his eyes in assurance. She continued, "Wohhh kya hai na ki main ab akele rehkar thak gayi hun. Toh maine socha ki Naina ko hi apne saath rehne bulaa leti hun, isliye main usse lene aayi hun. Maine hamari kal ki flight tickets book karva li hai."

She turned to me, "Naina beta... Tujhe jo saaman zaruri lage, wohi lena. Baaki sab hum Mumbai se hi kharid lenge. Maine tumhara admission wahan ki college mein karva diya hai. Toh apni kitaabe yaad se le lena." No one could utter a word in front of her as she was the eldest amongst all. I then realized that all this was done by Chachaji. I understood that he alone couldn't have managed to convince the elders to let me go away to Mumbai.

I glanced at everyone one be one. I saw tears in Chachiji's & Preeti's eyes, the others weren't affected by this news at all. I didn't matter to them at all. After finishing the lunch, I packed my books & some clothes. Preeti & Chachiji helped me in packing. I didn't know what Chachaji must have told Phulla bua. I decided to talk to her once we reach Mumbai. Chachiji cooked my favourite dishes that night for dinner as it was my last meal with them.

We left early in the morning with Chachaji, Chachiji & Preeti. They came to drop us at airport. I cried my heart out when it was time to bid them my final goodbye. When I walked towards the plane, I turned around & took a final glance. I was bidding a final goodbye to Ahmedabad too. With tears in my eyes, with love & pain in my heart, I left towards a new life that wouldn't include the important people of my life, the most understanding & respectful Chachaji, the most loving & caring & always smiling Chachiji, my soul sister & better half Preeti & my forever love Sameer...

I would miss them a lot. I had to leave from here so that Sameer could move on in his life & would find a better life partner & love who would always be there for him & won't leave him...

FLASHBACK ENDS...

I opened my eyes & all that I saw around me seemed blurry with those misty eyes.

Kyun aisi ummeed ki maine jo aise nakaam huvi...

Door banayi thi manzil toh raste mein hi shaam huvi...

Kyun aisi ummed ki maine jo aise nakaam huvi...

Door banayi thi manzil toh raste mein hi shaam huvi...

Ab kahaan jaun main...

Kis ko samjaun main...

Kya maine chaha tha aur

Kyun kismet mein aayi...

Tanhayee... Tanhayee...

Jaise andheri ki ho gehrayee...

Dil ke raaste mein...
Kaisi thokar maine khaayi...
Toote khwaab saare ek mayusi hai chhayi...
Har khushi so gayi...
Zindagi kho gayi...
Tumko jo pyaar kiya maine to sazaa maine paayi...
Tanhayee tanhayee...
Milo hai faili huvi tanhayee...
Tanhayee tanhayee...
Milo hai faili hoye tanhayee...

Tanhayee... Tanhayee...

Tanhayee... Tanhayee...

I've stopped expecting anything from my life as expectation leads to only disappointment... When you don't get what you expected, it only gives you pain. The same pain I'm going through now. Since the first time I saw Sameer, I had fallen in love with him at first sight only. But see, where do I stand now. I'm here all alone. Even after loving each other so much, we were destined to never be together.

The day I came to Mumbai, I had decided to move on & make myself so busy in studies & work that I would never get time to remember him. But my poor heart couldn't forget him even for a second. Whenever I closed my eyes, his charming face would appear in front of me. I tried a lot but could keep his thoughts away for long.

Phulla bua was a sweetheart. She helped me to settle down quite easily. She had changed my entire wardrobe. I too for once wanted to live my life for myself & enjoy it. When I joined the new college in Mumbai, everything felt strange & I was nervous. But the moment I entered the college, all my fears flew away.

I made some friends there who helped me in finishing the course by lending me their notes. I started spending my maximum time in library as I would find my solace there. Days turned to months & then to years. I finished my college & applied for post-graduation. I wanted to be busy & what could have been a better choice than studying.

Soon I finished my studies & I joined a multinational company. I had started earning on my own. In these last seven years, I never visited Ahmedabad. Chachaji visited here with Chachiji & Preeti twice a year. Preeti too had finished her graduation & had opened a parlour with Kamya. It was her dream & I'm very much happy that she has fulfilled it & is successful.

Preeti was going to visit this week alone. She was going to open a new branch here in Mumbai & was visiting here for the meeting. They had already opened three branches in Ahmedabad with the help of Swati & Hema. I sometimes felt bad that all the four girls were still together & I missed them a lot. During these years, apart from my family, I had lost my best friends too...

But I couldn't change it, this is what I had wanted for myself. If I'm alone today, I shouldn't blame it on others. I am the reason for my own loneliness. Whenever Preeti visited, she would ask me if I wanted to know about Sameer, but I never answered & then she stopped asking too.

Sameer... What should I say? Even after these seven long years, I haven't forgotten him, How could I forget, when he resides in my heart & still rules it. He has made his permanent place there. I missed him terribly. There were days when I desperately wanted to talk to him, wanted to see him. But I resisted & controlled my stubborn heart.

Phulla Bua knew everything. Chachaji had told her the reason why I wanted to leave Ahmedabad & stay in Mumbai. I was happy that she never talked about it but always supported me, whenever I felt low. She is my strength now.

I didn't have much friends here now. But there was someone who wanted me to be his life partner, which I had rejected several times. At first, I thought that he was joking, but then one day while having dinner with me & Phulla Bua, he had asked me again which looked quite serious. That day, I realized that he was seriously interested in me. But I didn't want to hurt him or lose him as my friend, so I told him everything about my past. I never mentioned Sameer's name as I didn't think it appropraite.

He understood but still he is waiting for me. I could see it in his eyes. But what can I do, when I still love that charming face who hasn't left my heart even for a second? Phulla bua asked me to give him a chance at least as he was my good friend & also my boss. But I had already made some decisions when I had left Ahmedabad that I would never marry anyone else as my heart already belongs to someone special.

But something is bothering me from last few days as if something is going to happen again that would change my life.

How was the first chapter?

So, any guesses who is this new person in Naina's life?

Will she agree to his marriage proposal?

And what will happen when Preeti visits this time?

Next update will be on Sameer's POV.

Seven long years is not a small time, so do you think that someone has already replaced Naina's place in his life?

Do shower your precious votes & comments if you liked the update.

Ignore the mistakes.

With Lots of Love,

Daksha...❤