Soooo, I mightve just sang the worst way of all times, I hate myself, I wanna quit and die. I've been here ONCE and I already feel like shit. Its way too late, I just wanna go home, the gd drums were way too loud for me to hear myself and I HATE singing fearless.

It's just not my range and somehow really weird, PLUS I didn't fucking hear myself. Yk there's a reason public embarrassment is a form of torture, right?? I wanna die

I just wanna go home and cry to my vocal coach bc rn, I feel like I'm wasting my parents money by even taking voice lessons, bc that performance was just SO BAD.

Didn't even get a second chance either, I was just like oh yea I sang too high and my voice cracked and THOSE GOD DAMN DRUMS!!! I did not hear myself at all, we didn't even warm up our voices and I've sung it for the first time today.

It's not my fault, right?🥲 Maybe i should just stick to vocal coaching tbh. Imposter syndrome is kicking in so hard rn.

I'm just gonna go home and cry, but at least i had Chinese noodles by now🥲 also i really need to pee (tmi, ik)

Tbh, I'm really contemplating never showing up to this stupid band thing ever again. I mean, do i really need the extra stress? I don't think so

Oh god, the walk of shame at home when my mum is gonna ask how it was🥲 imma go cry to her then. I've decided it wasn't my fault it was bad, bc the acoustics were ass and it wasn't fit for me anyways.  PLUS, when we practiced it sounded fine😭

Its the drums fault! (To the people who've heard me sing, pls tell me I don't sound like a dying dolphin😃)

Anyways, how ya doing, hope your day went better than mine :D

Also first week of school is over, second week started yesterday and I already wanna jump out a window😃 it's beyond hot and my brain is fried :)

Anyways, have a great day/night, beautiful people, stay amazing and I'll see you around <33