To say Jungkook's heart was thumping was the least.

As he stared into those clouded over grey eyes, he couldn't decipher what Taehyung was thinking, apart from the fact that the silver haired boy was hurt, hurt deeply.

" What was that? " Hyungwon whispered to Jungkook, who was to caught up staring at Taehyung. When Jungkook didn't answer, Hyungwon asked again. " Jungkook? " Jungkook looked at Hyungwon slowly, "Huh?...oh I was just making sure of something. Listen, I'll catch up with you later. " Hyungwon nodded, and got in his car, driving off.

Jungkook looked back at Taehyung. The doe eyed boy slowly walked over to Taehyung. "Taehyung.....i-"

Taehyung pushed past Jungkook, walking away briskly. Jungkook sighed, and followed after Taehyung quickly. However he didn't make it far, when Jin grabbed his hand, restricting him. "Let me go." Jungkook whined.

" Jungkook..maybe it's better if you give Taehyung some alone time to himself. " Jungkook looked down at the ground, and nodded after a while.

Jimin put his hands around Jungkook. " Come on, let's go to my house and talk about this. "

After arriving at Jimin's house, Jungkook sat down on the sofa in Jimin's living room. "Boys...and Irene? Maybe it's better if you go into Jimin's room. " Jimin's mother, Mrs.park said.

She walked into the living room with a tray of food in her hands, filled with all sorts of sweets and chocolates. "It's better if you kids have some privacy rather than let me and my husband eavesdrop on your conversation. "

After they all nodded, she turned to Jimin, " ah Jimin. Take this tray upstairs and some drinks. "

Jimin placed the tray and drinks on his dresser, than sat down on his stool that he had, Jungkook was sat on the corner of his bed, Jin was lying on the floor, and Irene was sprawled across his bed. The four didn't say anything. Until Jimin spoke up, " why did you kiss him? " Jungkook was snapped out of his trance, and looked over at Jimin.

He shrugged, " I...wanted to see if I still had feelings for him..."

" And do you? " Jin asked, sitting up.

" No.....I'm pretty sure of that. " Jungkook said, fiddling with Jimin's duvet cover. Irene spoke up, " and how can you be so sure of that? "

Jungkook took a deep breath, " I'm sure of it because it felt so wrong when Hyungwon complimented me. I didn't feel like I did when I was with Taehyung. There were no sparks this time. No butterflies. You know that feeling when you're with someone you lo...care about so much, you just feel like it's just you and them? When I was with Hyungwon I didn't feel that at all. "

" Jungkook....how do you feel about Taehyung? " Irene asked cautiously.

" I guess it took me months to figure out, and a not so pleasing kiss from Hyungwon to figure it out, but.......I want Taehyung. I need Taehyung. I like him....so much. " Jungkook said, taking some pauses in between. " Every time I see him, it's like my heart jumps out of my chest, and runs over to his heart..and I can't do nothing but watch. And I can't believe it's taken me this long to realize it..... but I'm absolutely nothing with that silver haired boy. My silver haired boy. "

Jungkook let out a small breath, " that's how I feel... "

His friends didn't say anything, just looked at him happily. Jimin smiled, and handed him a drink, " better late than never my mother always says Jungkook. Don't worry about it. "

Jin agreed, " yeah, at least now that you've figured out your own feelings, and your own happiness, you can be open with everyone and Taehyung. "

Irene pounced on Jungkook, " I'm not sad, mushy, and sentimental like those two potato sacks but I will say, go get that dick bitch. " Irene screamed in Jungkook's ear. Jungkook laughed and rolled around.

" It's all smiles and laughs but remember the situation I'm in. What do I do? "

" The only thing that you can do is give him time, and be completely honest with him. You both went through the same shit, now you both have to go through the same shit together...again. " Jimin's mother came.

" Mom! You were listening to us! You sent upstairs for a reason. " Jimin groaned, shutting the door.

" She isn't wrong tho...." Irene said, taking a quick picture of Jimin's closet. " Hey Jimin...I'm taking this top. And these shorts. Ooh! And these shoes. " Irene said, grabbing everything she could possibly fit in her hands. " Bitch put them the fuck back before I slit your throat with this tray. " Irene frowned and slowly put them back.

Jungkook flopped around Jimin's bed. " Ugh...I don't know what to do. Stupid ass me for kissing Hyungwon. I didn't even like the kiss. Like there was no passion to it. No roughness. Nothing. Like when I kiss someone, I want to feel dance the night awayyy. I don't want to feel, why the fuck did I do this. "

Jimin laughed, " and what are you going to even say to Hyungwon? You proper led the poor boy on. Did you see how happy he looked when he left. The poor sod looked so happy he could drive into a wall. Reverse. And then do it again. "

Jungkook groaned loudly. " For fucks sake. I'm a stupid fuck. " He said before smashing his face into a pillow.

The four of them discussed further on what to do, up till around six o'clock. Now the sky was dark, and the rain clouds were forming. And Jungkook knew that if he didn't leave now, he be walking home in the rain.

" Alright guys, thanks so much for the advice but I'm not going to follow any of what you guys said. Thanks anyways! "

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On the way home Jungkook thought about a lot of things. And then suddenly he had an impulse. He had an impulse to suddenly turn around and walk the other way. And he knew that his destination was far away, but he was willing to walk.

Jungkook shivered in the cold. It was around half past six, and the cold had arrived. There was still some daylight left, but Jungkook knew that soon it would just be a black plain with pelting rain, but that didn't stop him from walking on.

When Jungkook arrived at his destination, he stared up at the large white door. He took a big deep breath and stepped forward, knocking on the door.

" Taehyung? Are you home? "

Jungkook looked at the side, and saw Taehyung's black Mustang. He was in this car when he first realised that had a crush on the grey eyed boy. This car was Jungkook's revenge on Taehyung. Jungkook sighed and looked away.

He knocked again, " Taehyung? It's me, Jungkook. " It slowly started to rain, and Jungkook was now getting anxious.

He looked through Taehyung's window and seen Taehyung was sitting, with a glass of bourbon in his hand, he was taking slow sips from it, not paying no attention.

Jungkook knocked once again, " Taehyung! I know you're in there. And I'm not leaving until you open the door. " Jungkook sat down in front of Taehyung's door. Now it was raining heavier, and Jungkook was absolutely drenched. The sky was also grey, and it looked like a thunderstorm was arriving. " Taehyung? I don't care how long i stay out here in the rain. I'll stay out here all night. I'll catch colds for you. "

Jungkook stood up, knocking on the door.

Abruptly the door opened. And Jungkook was grabbed inside by Taehyung, and pressed against the door. " What are you doing here? " He husked, the liquor on his breath. " I had to come here. I had to make sure that everything was okay. I had to make sure to tell you how I feel. "

" Are colds the only thing you'll catch for me? " Taehyung asked, completely ignoring everything that Jungkook said. " I'll catch anything for you...."

" Be careful with what you say..broken promises aren't worth my time. "

Jungkook held Taehyung's face in his hands, " Taehyung.......promises are meant to be broken. I promised myself that I wasn't going to get hurt, but look at me now. I'm here, trying to express how I feel to you. But really there's really no words, and I don't know what to say. So I'm not going to say it. But I want to make sure that you....are okay. "

Taehyung moved away from Jungkook. "Why wouldn't I be? My dear Jungkookie! " Taehyung slurred, stumbling into his living room to drink more.

" Taehyung are you going to listen to me? " Jungkook asked, frantically following after him.

" Of course there's food here Jungkook. I don't starve myself. " Taehyung chuckled, pouring himself more bourbon.

" Taehyung! " Jungkook yelled.

" What Jungkook? What do you want? " Taehyung snapped.

" I'm....trying...to- "

Taehyung laughed, " to what Jungkook? To explain yourself? You don't need to because there's no us. There never will be. You can go back to that guy who has disgusting brown hair and pink roots. "

Jungkook scoffed, " I'm trying to tell you that I love you, you dumbass. " Jungkook finally let out.

Taehyung's smile dropped.

Jungkook continued, " you. You are everything that I want. I love you Taehyung. And I'm sorry that it's taken me this long to realize it, but I really can't live without you. Every smile, I want it to come from you. Every thought is already about you. "

Taehyung walked over to Jungkook, and titled the doe eyed boy's head up, and leaned in, his lips ghosting over Jungkook's. He kissed Jungkook's cheek, and moved over to his ear, " you broke my heart. Now I break yours. I think you should leave. " He whispered gruffly, and pushed Jungkook away.

Jungkook looked like a deer caught in headlights. But he didn't say, nor do anything. He nodded and left. Walking out in the rain. He held in all of his emotions.

However, as soon as Taehyung's house door shut. He cried. Sobbed. And yelled. All for the whole world to hear. And he knew one thing for sure.

The old Taehyung was back. And it was all because of Jeon Jungkook.

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i can't have you the way I want, let's just go back to the way it was

+I feel like I wrote this chapter so quickly like it took me a few hours
+ I love all my comments last chapter saying "I KNEW IT" and sum shit like that. But I bet you didn't see this coming!! Taehyung rejected Jungkook. This ain't your average cliche book I guess.
+ I love my readers, they're all so fucking funny omds