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i've been crushing on this girl for a while now and it just so recently happened where she started distancing herself and i don't know why.

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333YOJ333: talk it out and tell her how you feel. once everything is out in the open then maybe she'll explain why she's pulling away.

TAEGAN

I shut off my phone after reading the first comment to appear under my post on Talk Love. I still sat up in my bed, wondering all sorts of things.

Penelope and I had begun our "tutoring sessions" for two months now. Each time it became more and more intense and I continued to fall for her each time we met. No matter how much my mind was telling me to stay away and that I might get hurt, I couldn't. I wanted whatever we were having to continue.

But it just seemed like she didn't. Maybe Penelope just wanted to have a little fun. But some things she would say, it seemed all too real.

We'd never spoken about the topic of dating. One, because we were always either on top of one another or our hands were on each other's bodies. Second, because she would always leave before I'd get the chance to say anything.

It's a difficult thing to attempt to read people, but trying to communicate with them was a whole 'nother level.

The door of the dorm shut and I jumped back to reality.

"Tia, dear!" The only voice I needed to hear right now rang through my ears.

Joy swung into my room, her hand holding onto the rim opposite of the door hinges. She had a big smile on her face, which made me smile, too.

"Joy, darling!" I cupped my hands around my mouth for the speaker effect.

She giggled and lay flat on my bed. "What have you been doin?"

"Tutor sesh." I shrugged.

"You guys run this late?" Joy sat up, eyebrows furrowed. "You must be really focused on your schooling right now."

I shrugged again. "I'm working to become the dream writer we fantasize about. What have you been doing?"

"Running around with a mafia prince." Joy laughed, wiggling her shoulders cutely.

"I take it everything went well today then?"

"Funny story, actually. I was with Jungkook the whole day. And then Namjoon came and found me and we kissed in the rain." She giggled.

I tried to chuckle but this was really bothering me. "Why were you out with him anyway? Isn't that your boyfriend's roommate and best friend?"

"He asked to meet up for lunch so I did. And then I met one of his friends, which is the librarian, can you believe that?" She started to laugh mid-sentence.

"Joy, you spent the whole day with your boyfriend's best friend," I said more as a statement than a question.

"Yes," She replied slowly. "It's not like we did anything bad."

I shrugged. "I just expected you'd go to Namjoon and try to work things out."

"Tia, he did the wrong to me. It was his doing so he needed to come to me."

"And he did." I stated. "Right?"

"Yes, Tia. Why are you so concerned about what Jungkook and I are doing?"

"Maybe because I'm watching out for my best friend," I replied, blinking in unbelief. "Look, you need to get some beauty sleep cause you're in a mood."

Joy sighed and shut her eyes for a second. "I'm sorry, I don't want another fight tonight. I shouldn't have snapped at you like that."

My lips lifted slightly. "Yeah, you definitely shouldn't have."

Joy smiled instantly and nodded, brushing off our tiny argument way too fast for my liking. "Now, I have big news." She took out a brochure from the inside of her bag and handed it to me. "Professor Min wants me to enter this fine arts competition in November. You can win a scholarship to the Paradise School of Fine Arts! Thanks for telling him I play."

I opened it up, scanning a few paragraphs. "That's awesome, Joy," I said. "But I didn't say anything to him."

"What do you mean you didn't say anything?" Joy faltered.

I shook my head and sat back against my headboard. "Wasn't me, babe."

"That doesn't make sense." Joy crossed her arms. "No one else knows. I mean I've mentioned it to Namjoon before but he's never heard me play."

"Either way, you're in the competition. Doesn't really matter who recommended you, right?"

"I guess not."

I smiled softly and handed the brochure back to her. "Alright, well, don't practice too hard. We can't have you winning that scholarship when we have to work on our writing here at Swan Academy."

Joy paused, like she was trying to process what I said. Then she nodded. "Right. World famous authors. Night Tia." She placed an exaggerated smile on her face as she walked out of my bedroom, still staring at the opened brochure in her hands.

***

PENELOPE

"Ezra? Ez?" I shouted as I stepped into our dorm.

I slipped off my shoes and headed for the hallway. I heard small sniffles coming from her bedroom. Immediately, I knocked.

"Ezra, can I come in?" I asked, softly. My heart ached for her.

"Yeah," She faintly said and I opened the door.

She was snuggled up on her bed — a hoodie wrapped around her body and a blanket over her head. Her eyes were puffy and red from crying, and when she looked up and saw me she frowned even more.

"Oh wait, no, stop." I walked to her, slipping under the blanket and letting her hug me.

"Penny, he — we were— " A sob escaped her mouth and then she was crying again.

"Who's he?"

"Jung- Jungkook." She said in between staggered breaths. "He's all h-hers now, he's not m-mine anymore. I don't know if he ever w-was."

I caressed her head with my hand. "Who? What do you mean he's all hers?"

"That spoiled devil needs to stop getting everything she wants!" Ezra yelled into her sleeves.

"Are you talking about Joy, again?"

"Who else would I call a spoiled devil, Penny?" Ezra slouched even more. "I don't deserve any of this p-pain." Ezra took a deep breath in.

"I still don't understand, how is he her's?"

"She has his heart," Ezra frowned. "He likes her. A lot."

"Wait what? What about you guys? I thought everything was going good."

"At least I thought we were but he was just leading me on." She broke down even more, tears staining the sleeves of the hoodie.

I frowned at the sight of my best friend crying and hugged her tighter, continuing to let her cry as much as she needed to. Soon her sobs turned into soft, staggered breathing until she finally stopped.

"It's not fair," Ezra whispered. "Why does she get him? I've known him longer, I know him best. His eyes should be on me."

"Ez, it's not her fault."

"Isn't it?" Ezra sat up and my arms felt empty.

"She doesn't know he has feelings for her. You don't even know."

"Penny, are you taking their side right now?" Ezra wouldn't look at me.

"Ezra, really? You know I always have your back I'm just trying to think about this rationally—"

"Look, I get that the girl you're seeing's best friend is Joy, but aren't you always with me on things?" Ezra turned to me, her eyes softening in a way that would always make me weak — in the knees and in my heart.

She crept closer, inching her hand towards me until her soft grip was on my hand. "I thought you were always on my side." Ezra looked into my eyes and I hesitated for a moment.

She was so close to me. Not that it made me feel exactly the way it used to but I didn't want any old feelings to be brought to the surface.

I gently took her hand off mine and got off her bed. I gulped, "Of course I am." I nodded. Always."

"Penny, where are you—"

"Ez, it's late and we have to get up early tomorrow."

"Penny—"

"Love you," I smiled softly, peeking my head through the crack of her door. "Goodnight."

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