There wasn't much about the coma that was exciting. No rather boring actually. You lay there, the whirring and beeps of people and machines around you as you lay there in the dark of your own head. Maybe, just maybe if you rested long enough you would wake up. You had to wake up, you had to help your friends!!

"Is (y/n) going to be okay, Dr. Lake?" Claire!! Claire is here!! she is talking about me!!

"I don't know," Dr. Barbara Lake says and there is a clicking noise, and then the scrambling of a pen on paper ", It's not clear right now. All we can do is keep an eye on her condition and hope."

"Mom," JIM!! It's Jim!! His voice is close to my ear! I can hear them!!  "That can't be all you can tell us! We have to know she'll be okay."

You felt someone take your hand, it was warm against your skin and felt really nice. You hated being cold and the hospital seemed really stingy not to give you more blankets while you were here... in a coma... fighting and resting at the same time...

"I can't guarantee anything kids, I have to do my job as a doctor and do what I can."

"But she has to be okay!" TOBY!!! Oh, Tobes! I'm so sorry Toby!! You want to cry when you hear his voice. His voice was the most painful to listen too! Oh, Deya!! This is what you got for jumping in front of an angry troll!! A coma and scared friends!!

"Tobes..." Jim says calmly.

"No! She HAS to be okay!!" Toby's voice cracks and you hear something close to your ear, it sounds like fabric crumpling up. Something tickles your nose and your hand feels a pressure that you cannot describe.  You want to cry out a little but you CAN'T! You want to scream "I'm HERE!! I CAN HEAR YOU!!! I AM ALIVE!!!"

But you can't...

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You hear the sounds of light footsteps before you hear the voices. The click of a door, the shing of curtains drawings, and the scraping of stone and windows. You had a feeling that Jim, Claire, and Toby were risking something.

"Deya's Grace..." Blinky moaned sadly and one of his cold hands touched your hand "... She looks awful..."

Thanks, Blink.

 "She looks great for someone in a coma!" Tody growls defensively and takes your other hand.

Ah Tobes, my knight in shining armor.

You hear something coming through the window and a massive hand rests on your covered legs, AAARRRUUGH. His quiet sadness filled your chest and you wanted nothing more than to wrap your arms around his furry neck and smell the mossiness of his green fur.

"Looks sad. Sad sleep."

"Indeed my great green friend."

You liked that they were all her, at least. You think they area ll here, you haven't heard Jim or Claire yet. Maybe they were keeping watch in case someone was going to try and come into your room. You didn't know...

YOu wanted to call out and tell them, 'I'm here! I'm alive! I can hear you!!'

But you couldn't.

You were stuck here, eyes closed, hands held by those who loved you. 

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You felt the grip of his hands before you even knew he was there. You felt soft lips on your knuckles and the choked sob of a boy. 

You were all too familiar with this choked out sob, this pain, his pain rally hurt you.

Oh, Toby... I wish I could hug you...

Toby would spend hours by your side. He would stay for days if not for school, you missed it a little bit. Not more than you missed seeing your friends every day. You wanted to wrap your arms around your three best friends and tell them how much you loved and missed them. How much fun you had together. 

You wanted to tell Toby-

"(y/n)?" Toby started ", You awake?"

Yes! Yes, Toby! I am awake!

"Probably not... but I read that sometimes people in comas can hear other people talking..."

Yes... I can hear you... Oh, Tobes there is so much I want to tell you...

He sighs and takes your hand, squeezing a little bit when he does.

"I really miss you, missions aren't the same without your jokes and puns..."

I thought you all hated my jokes.

"I know Claire and Jim and Everyone misses you... But I like... I really miss you... Like a lot. I wish you were here."

Oh, Toby...

"I miss you a lot...."

He sobs and you can almost feel your heart shatter. You miss him too. You miss seeing his cheeks and smile and his big green eyes. His fiery red hair. His face, you miss him too. Toby lifts your hand and presses it to his warm cheek, you would shiver but you couldn't. It was heartbreaking.

"I wish you were here... maybe I could finally tell you how I feel... But I'm way too nervous..."

Am I going to miss what I've been waiting for forever?

"I really like you, (y/n), so you have to wake up, so I can tell you in person..."

Oh, Toby, don't say it...

"I love you, (Y/n)"

I love you too, Toby...

You jerk without realizing you moved. Your body seizes and jerks so that your head slams onto the pillow. Again and again your muscles close and open, you feel the warmth before you register what it is, there is screaming. Then there is pressure on your chest, someone is holding you down, securing your head on the bed.

"(Y/n)!!" Toby screams and you can imagine him struggling to get to you.

You would struggle back, but you weren't in control of your body, it controlled you. You saw the brightness before you realized that you'd started walking towards it, your hands reaching out in an out of body experience.

You looked back for one second.

Toby... His face is red from crying, his voice is raw and in pain.

"I love you, Toby... And I'm so sorry.."