He wanted to feel loved. To feel needed beyond his skills. To be protected.

But he knew no one would love him back. His skills were the only truly good thing about him, and why protect someone you don't love?

So he let himself fall in love and let himself get hurt from it.

It was a cycle that made him feel human.

Heartbreak from loving someone he can't have felt like a relief compared to the heartbreaks in the past.

But the want to be someone's lover never died.