February - Before

Today I made a fool

Out of myself.

I thought the message would be clear,

But this time I screwed.

I guess you were uncomfortable,

That I like you so much.

For the first time

You didn't respond.

I guess it was too much,

You weren't so ready

for that much attention.

And I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I hurt you,

You know I truly am.

You know me so well,

And I threw it down a well.

It came out too strong,

For that I am sorry.

But know that I wasn't,

I swear I wasn't lying.

I love you, okay?

So much that it hurts.

I really am sorry,

If I hurt you any way.

Know that I miss you,

I really miss your words.

I never intended,

For it to go so far.

I thought I could do it,

I guess I was wrong.

I think now you hate me,

But that isn't so bad.

It's just like we started,

Only this time I'm tired.

The first time was fun,

A second no so much.

I hope you forgive me,

I really hope you do.

Because inside your heart of steal,

Lies a heart so hard to steal.