January - Before

Talking to you

It used to be scarier.

I thought you were grumpy,

I thought you would judge me.

But none of that happened.

Instead we talked

For five to six hours.

I smiled at your messages,

I hope you smiled at mine.

You gave me some compliments,

Made me my night.

I told you my secrets,

You told me your darkest.

I showed you something

I'd rather not seen.

Yet instead of being mean

You told me the truth.

I thought it was a lie

Then you said it again.

I said the same to you,

But I think you don't believe.

But we're still talking,

We're more similar than we seem.

It's creepy really,

How close we have grown.

We have so much in common,

I don't know what's wrong.

As much as I like this,

I'm getting too scared.

You're going too deep,

The hole is too big.

I would love it if we

Could always be like this.

But this situation

Never ends right.

I always get hurt,

It always gets worse.

It's still not too late

To turn back around.

See, I say that myself

Yet I still don't believe it.

I know it's not true,

But then I ask myself

Because I'm very confused.

If it's all a lie,

Then why do I try

So hard to convince?