~Time skip~
I was at kaycees apartment already and laying down on kaycees bunk bed and these says have been absolutely horrible...well being with my best friend was awesome yeah...but being away from someone you love ...was really hard....I cried from missing Alex and I cried from not being with her, not being able to feel her touch or her kisses...at the moment I knew how long distance relationship couples felt like...I cried when we didn't get to talk on the phone...and I just couldn't handle much of it...I was so use to seeing her face to face and I was so use to being in her arms and slowly drifting to sleep..
  I began to tear up but stopped as my phone buzzed, I slowly reached for my laggy- crappy phone and saw that Alex texted me I responded of course...I mean why wouldn't I ,it's the girl I see a future with..I wipe the tear away and smile as I read the message that said I love you..and then...she texted again and what I read...I got pissed off and stayed silent...why were you crying, and you didn't tell me. I read that message over and over until I responded I wasn't...she told me that kaycee told her and as soon as she replied with that I ran and tackled kaycee and dragged her into her room and the argument began.
*The argument*
Monic:WHY DID YOU TELL HER!?
Kaycee: BECAUSE I WAS WORRIED, SO I TOLD ALEX ABOUT IT..
Monic: WELL DONT BE, OKAY I AM FINE !?
Kaycee: NO YOUR NOT MONIC YOU WERE CRYING BAD!
monic: JUST- UGH LEAVE ME ALONE!
  *End of argument*
I looked at my phone and had to respond to Alex...let's just say...it ended with bye...I cried...and I didn't want to talk to anyone..so I just stayed in kaycee's room crying...kaycee and her brother left to the pool and I stayed inside of the apartment..in silence ,feeling like I messed everything up...
  I'm never open with my feelings...especially to my girlfriend...the only times is when I'm on my period...or I just stay silent....I don't like telling her I'm sad...or I'm mad....I'm scared that she's going to get scared or mad...that's almost kinda why I don't tell her I cry...
   I cry for stupid reasons...I mean like I'm all the way over here and Alex is all the way over there..I haven't seen her for a week and a half...like come on..wouldn't you be dying to see the one you love.
    Everytime she had to go, I didn't want her to because sometimes I felt like it wasn't enough time..or because I felt like the more we were distant the more our hearts will get distant.
    I cried even more when thinking about the fact that I felt like I'm not a good girlfriend...and the suicidal thoughts soon come to mind...
     I broke out of that as soon as I heard cinder block garden, from all time low...I freaked out because it randomly played...and that's mine and Alex's song.
    I started tearing up more and just broke down. Until I had an idea I started making a video thanks to flipagram and I got half of all our pics and put them together to make a slideshow for alex , so I can apologize for the argument...
~*A/ N: hey if you wanted to see the video I'm sorry...*~
   I posted the video on Facebook and tagged alex in it..I soon got a message..on messenger and it was her...I kept apologizing but she told me it's alright...I missed her throughout the whole little time...and I felt like shit, cause I know her well enough to know she was crying cause she was scared to lose me...but damn I can't dream of leaving her. She's mine, she's Noone elses, she's my hero, my baby...mine..and I'm hers...only hers ,all hers... no one elses..
    We soon talked on the phone at night but I was silent and she was happy again, it made me smile that she was..but the argument through us off...it was very unexpected.
"What's on your mind?.."I broke out of thought once alex asked me that question,"oh nothing just sleepy I respond with a slight yawn, added with a stretch.
   "Don't lie to me..."Alex's says while sounding more serious than before."its nothing.."I respond while trying not to tear up or cry.."monic, I know somethings wrong..I'm sorry if I'm being annoying but just tell me" Alex says..
   "I'm scared.." I respond, with tears forming in my eyes.."of what?"she responds,"of losing you of not being able to make you happy, I'm scared your going to leave...I'm scared your not going to love me anymore I say while secretly crying my eyes out but sounding like I'm not even crying..
     "Don't say that, I'm never going to leave, I can't leave you, your mine, I don't want Noone else to have you, I don't want you to ever leave me..I love you monic..and you know I wouldn't leave..your to good to lose" Alex's says while her serious voice gets alittle calmer.."but what if-"I was cut off by Alex saying that no matter what I'm stuck with her...and that made me smile I then stayed silent.
     "I love you" I say breaking the silence,"I love you too she responds, I know she's smiling because of the way it sounded when she said she loved me too, it made me smile
     "I love you more.." I say while holding the stuffed animal closer I know" she responds..
   And after that we both fell asleep once we said I love you goodnight.
~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡   A/N: hey chus well I'm sorry for the late update and I promise I'll try to update sooner, but anyway hope you liked it sorry if it's short..I'm slowly falli b back to sleep but yet I want food so I'm staying up hehe anyway hope you liked it once again bye love chus♡