So, you've probably been wondering why the heck I've not been updating anything, apart from the fact that I'm living in some sort of hellish town.

Well, the truth is, I kind of have some sort of writers block right now, if that makes any sense. I had story lines planned out and I know what needs to happen, but when I open my word document, I just can't put it into words. Before I could just open a word document and write for ages, my fingers not even pausing across the keyboard, but now I just sit there, tapping my fingers, not satisfied with anything I do.

It's pretty much like I've lost the ability to write fluently, in a way. I write out one sentence, but the next seems off. And no matter how much I try, I can't fix it. My writing seems flat and boring, and no matter how I read it, it seems like a robot reading it. Actually, it sounds like a sat nav: short, jumpy and never flowing at a steady pace.

And it's not just with my fan fiction. I've been having the same problems in English classes at school. I use everything I can think of, punctuation, advanced vocabulary and God knows what else, but nothing flows at a steady pace. Everything I write seems to be rushed or too slow, and I don't know why. But its made my grade go down in English by 0.5 of a level. Which, is definitely not good.

You're probably thinking the stuff right here is fluent enough, or at least fluent enough that you've been bothered to read this far, but truthfully, I'm writing down what's in my head. Here are my thoughts - I'm actually speaking out loud, like I'm having a one-way conversation. - And thank God, for the fact that I am home alone right now.

I don't what to write next.

...umm...

So, I think it's just creative writing I'm struggling with - just fiction. I'm fine with any other kind of writing, no problem. I'm just confused about my writing block.

For a while I did wonder whether or not I was lacking inspiration, but I don't think I am. Everything I look at inspires me in a way, to the point I came up with a new Star Wars fan fiction idea five minutes ago. Which I am really proud of, by the way. How did I not come up with it before???

Actually, now I'm thinking this is all microsofts fault. I copy and paste this from Wattpad onto a word document, and BAM, I don't know what to say next. What the heck is happening?

So, um, I might as well move onto a new topic. Like...uhhhh....messages! Yes! That's what I was going to talk about at some point!

Can the person creating accounts just to send me the exact same kriffing message please stop? I keep blocking every account but they just delete it and come back with a new one the next day. I keep reporting them too but nothing has happened. -_- . And also, a lot of people keep sending me things like this:

"Hey I need you to give me a shoutout and advertise my new book. I chose you cus you have a lot of followers too thanks,"

"Follow me"

"Hi! Next time you update it would be awesome if you could give me a shout out and tell everyone to read my books because they are really worth reading you know. Bye!"

"If you don't update *insert particular fan fiction my me* then I'm going to unfollow you,"

Then someone else (who I've now blocked) sent me the same message constantly: UPDATE, UPDATE NOW, UPDATE SOON, UPDATE SOON!, UPDATE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!.

Argh! Please stop. I wouldn't mind, but most messages I get are just rude, random and selfish. Most of the time they'll start off as innocent messages, then turn in this direction:

· Them: Hi

· Me: hi

· Them: how r u

· Me: fine. You?

· Them: I'm good and I really really love your books I am your biggest fan please can I have a shoutout because my fan fictions are star wars and they are so good I swear please give me a shoutout and read my books too and don't forget to vote and comment on them as well.

^Actual conversation I've had with someone. I just sit there with wide eyes like "that escalated quickly" and wonder what on Earth goes on inside people's brains. I don't mind people asking me to check out their books if they're polite, but this is just... I don't know how to explain it. Too far?

I feel like this is turning into a rant. Sorry.

Maybe I should update the humour wars to make up for it. Anyways, tell me what you think and...well...bye!

Ahsokafanfic

xxx