I can't fix you... Nor can I fix myself...

What I told one of my best friends the day before school ended... I was right...

My depression is gonna take over me 2017-2018... Like it did 2015-2016...

My summer just.... Hurts. more than it should because it's easy to put a nail into the holes already.

This school year hurt like hell. Drama popping up because of my stupidity, then, well... My way of "cutting" myself...

That is starting again.
And no.. I don't have scars. All of my scars are from falling and crap like that...
I stop myself from eating...
Like my message said a few minutes ago... Maybe I just won't get out of bed. Then I'll see who actually gives two shits about me in my own house.

I can't even keep a straight face. I keep crying. I don't want to cry. I don't want to hurt... Its just... There... I can't stop it...

I don't care if I become those twigs of actors that starve themselves for a role...

Maybe that's why guys don't like me. I'm not skinny enough, or talk enough, or nice enough, or I'm just too loud when I'm in a good mood.

Being brutally honest... I don't think I'll ever make it to the point of getting married. Or.. Out of high school... Because of my stupidity to see the real world.

Now... I don't want pity.. I'll get out of bed when I calm down... And... I still want to be there for everyone else...
Just...
I need time as well to attempt to heal... Lonlieness won't do that so... I'll find some of my favorite things to do and Do it...

Bye...
-Aurora