I was tagged by the one and only tough potato Jere-bear-screeches and @Could_Be_Gayer69

Warning: this chapter is going to be so very emo

1) Are you pretty to yourself?
Ummm that lol like yesterday I thought I was pretty as fuck but right now I think I look like a fuckin gremlin.

But overall yeah I am pretty to myself

2) Do you feel alone even when you aren't?
Yes I'm not going into depth with that lmao

3) Are you depressed?
This is very vague. Like medically I don't know I haven't tested for that but my mom wants to at some point. And then like just the feeling like— super fuckin sad but more than that, then not at the moment

4) Do you starve yourself?
Complicated. I have been starving myself since like May but I didn't realize I was doing it and I'm trying to eat more but if the food isn't light enough I will throw it up

5) Do you have anxiety?
Yes my aunt deeply apologizes for it since it came from my father's side lmao

6) Have you attempted suicide?
Hah. Yes I have. Though the most times I did it was before I even knew that suicide was a thing tho so *sucks teeth* there's that

7) Do you shut out the ones closest to you?
Again. Complicated. The only people I'm close to are my mom and sister tho I don't tell them shit about anything unless it gets out of hand. So I wouldn't say they are close to me emotionally but I have been through my worst with them. But if I do count them as people I'm closest to, then I would say no

8) Are you abused?
Complicated. Jesus everything is complicated lmao. For a long time I was but that stopped like a few months ago—when my mom divorced my brother's dad, but that was mainly verbal.  And I was physically abused by my family members on many occasions.

EDIT: if neglect counts as abuse than yes; by definition I am neglected. Also according to my counselor and aunt

9) What hurts you the most?
Okay look. This is going to be a super emo answer and I'm aware of it. But it's the fact that I'm expendable to basically everybody I have met. And you can't tell me I'm not when I've witnessed it first hand

0101) Are you a loner? *i was gonna correct the number back to ten but I wont*
Yes, I have always been a loner I don't communicate well with people unless I'm messaging/texting them (cause like I think those through) I don't have many skills in social department (this is so fuckin emo)

11) What's your sexuality?
I am a bisexual bean

12) Are you confident
Ironically yes

13) Are you bullied
Technically no since I'm not in school anymore but I was bullied when I was in school. Mostly verbally but sometimes physically

14) Do you hate yourself?
Yes. I know what are my flaws and what aren't. Even though I have accepted them it still doesn't mean that I don't hate myself. Cause I do

15) Are you important to yourself?
Yes I am. I might hate myself but I know that I need myself in order to get myself through life (that's a lot of myselfs, myself)

A picture that represents me
I am only using the pictures in my camera roll and this is the closest I could get to myself (and yes it's Lance)

Oh my god this makes it seem as if my life is horrible, I promise y'all that it's not tho

You guys don't have to do this nor are obligated to buuuuuuuuuuuuuut I have to tag people so there's that

happytrout
JosieIntheBathroom
Just-A-Fan-25
just-a-patd-stan
Gay_musicals
A_Good_Witch
teenage_babe
b-babydoll
JeremyHeereee

Idk if that's 15 (definitely not) but I did it and yeah. Also again a reminder y'all don't have to do this ehhhhhhhhhhh I'm supposed to be cleaning