Greetings, it's been a long time since I posted or even came online. I was busy trying things which didn't work out and finally I thought "hey actually I have a lot of free time which I waste on useless things so let's start writing again to express my ideas more clearly".

Like most people the future isn't clear for me as well. With the new development going around the world I too feel stuck in the cycle of adapting to it and a fear of losing myself haunts me to the core.

There are many things in this world which clearly don't make sense to me and as I try to immerse myself in such people's mind, I feel this drift away from my beliefs, principles or say morals. As I embrace my denial, acceptance too enters my mind as people do what they want, I can't control everyone or anyone.

As I accept my helplessness in this world I too grief on it.

Maybe I don't want this safe bubble to pop, maybe it's the world that scares me, I can't really point it at this moment or I don't want to accept that part about this life, about my life, about everything.

Does it help to know it all? maybe I need to save myself from my own thought, I'm overthinking. I read this somewhere, the less you know the happier you will be, it's hard for me to accept this way of life to simply turn my back on problems which don't really concern me but as I indulge in this way I life I feel more peace but is this peace worth it, what are the consequences of us being overindulge in our self to the point the entire morality of the world becomes this thin line which is "everything which isn't illegal or doesn't hurt someone is allowed or maybe it shouldn't affect kids too".

I think it's the fear of a such a world which caters everyone's need but limits none. Maybe I feel this fear if we all become this selfish individual who is so overly indulged in their own pleasure that it blinds itself from its surrounding and dwells in the pleasure of testing the boundaries only to face the consequences yet not stopping others from it.

Thanks for reading these messed up thoughts of mine, I didn't even realize that I'm using this tag book as a venting book.

@emptyhead28 I miss you yr, bc where are you!

As I was looking through my inbox the most, recent chats are from like 2-3 years ago. Such a gap *signs* with a smile I can say my past feels like nostalgia at this point. Maybe I am not the right person to say this but I do wish we all reach our goals and don't have any regrets.

I will stay here longer now so maybe I will start updating my other books. Be ready for new chapter of "fools' day out", those who don't know it's my projection. Stay safe and happy