Vantae.Kim

I've been miserable. Why am I wasting my time on this guy? Hah cuz I'm blind in love.

I'm blind to see that our relationship is getting ruined just because I don't open up about the truth. I also have my reasons, he never listens to me. Everything has changed, everything since that day. He has started seeing new girls and guys. Not that I complain. He has the right but, I- I just want him to talk to me like we used to do before. How we used to hold hands, hang out at each other's houses, Just for once then I'm ready to let him go. Even now my eomma, appa and hyung are worried about me.

What can I say more? It's not even his fault. It's mine. I distracted him, why didn't it happen to me? Why did he save me? Cuz he was my fiance?I mean he still is but he nevermind, I- I just want his old self back. You know what's funny? He doesn't remember we're engaged. His parents are trying to convince him, but he said that it is a mistake and that I don't know anyone by that name.
Everyone says it'll be better. What will be huh? I don't have anything left apart from my engagement ring. That also when I showed him today, he threw it away saying I just care about his status and money not him. I love you with my whole heart. I gave you every single piece of me why? Only for you to break me again? I can't even do anything cuz again it's not your fault. But why can't you just listen to me hmm? I just want 10 minutes of your time. Is that also too much to ask for?

I know now you love someone else. Your parents are upset from you, but I comforted them. I said 'it's ok. I deserve everything which has been happening' I hugged them and when I was about to leave they didn't let me. But I couldn't stay there, with you present there. So I hurted your parents. Or did I? They've always treated me as their own child!
At last, I just want to let you know that, if you get married don't forget to call me yeah? And let your children call me tae tae not uncle cuz that'll be awkward. I'll be there with you, even when I'm not there. I know you'll never miss me, but if you do you'll forget about me cuz I'll not be near you.

I love you Kookie, I'll always wait for you. Don't worry if you don't find me anymore near you because you're the one who told me to stay away from you, so I did it. I'm not near you anymore. Hope you'll always be happy. Take care of your significant other and your parents. If you can, please take care of my eomma and appa too. Nah I'm not dying on them. I'm just moving far away with my hyungies.
Haha I didn't notice I've been ranting on my blog. Anyways if you're reading this, maybe this will be my last blog related to you.

Good bye Kookie, I love you

̶Y̶o̶u̶r ̶l̶o̶v̶e Sincerely Taehyung.
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I sigh as I close my laptop after updating my daily blog. I get up and look at my and kookie's photo

"I miss you kookie" I mumble as my sight blurs with tears
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I just did not do that! Nah I didn't just write angst while listening spine breaker. Nah I just can't. . . I'm crying anyways

Take care rawrs! 💜

~R