Warning: Please do not read if your sensitive to self harm.

"Have a lovely day sweetie" my father shouts from the car as he drops me off outside the schools gates. I rolled my eyes, "yes I will" I said with a fake smile. "See you at home" he says as I close the door and headed on in.

Pulling up my jumper closer to my neck and looked down with every step I took. People in the school stopped and stared at me; even though I couldn't see them I felt each of their gazes on me.

Heading for my locker and opening it up I was suddenly pushed roughly against them. "Ow!" I winced in pain, "ohh, did baby girl slip?" Turning around I was met with my bully Taehyung. The bad boy yet somehow the heart throb of the school.

"I asked you a question sweetie" he spat whilst pushing me further against the lockers.
Looking into his eyes I pushed him back and continued to gather my books.

"Taehyung there you are" looking across I saw Taehyung's friends walking toward us. "What are you doing here?" Jungkook spat. "Come on we've got class to get to, you don't wanna be around this worthless girl do you?" Jimin added.

Hearing a pathetic laugh escape from Taehyung's lips Jungkook stood close before they all turned away and laughed amongst themselves.

Tears soon brimmed in my eyes.

Am I really that worthless?

Scanning all the old bruises on my arm a chunk of my heart faded away.
Throwing my bag over my shoulder I closed my locker door before heading to class.

•

Once i arrived and took my seat I felt something hit the back of my head. Turning back I heard giggling, it was Jimin and Jungkook. Leaning down I up the scrunched up piece of paper to read.

Hey looser. Another day we all get to see your ugly face. Meet me at the bike sheds after school.

Tears welled up in my eyes. "Why do they have to be so mean?" I whispered to myself. Wiping my tears away I scrunched the paper back up and put it into my bag, making sure my teacher didn't see.

"You better be there you looser" Taehyung spat with a harsh whisper.

"Kim Taehyung" the teacher shouted. "Is there anything you'd like to share with the class?" Taehyung shook his head, "No miss, sorry miss." She rolled her eyes at his sad lie before turning back to the board.

End of school

Clenching onto my books I made my way out of school. "Where do you think your going looser?" I froze in my tracks. "It doesn't look like she's heading for the bike sheds, more like she's escaping from us" Jungkook glares. "J-just l-leave me alone" I stutter.

"Taehyung is waiting for you precious girl." Grabbing my arm Jimin forces me to walk ahead. "Move" he spat harshly.

Once we arrived I locked eyes with Taehyung. "Ahh there you are" he smiles evilly. "She was trying to escape" Jimin says as he throws me to the ground, causing me to scrape my hands and knees. Squealing in pain I looked down to see my knees already bleeding.

As I tried to regain my stance I was pushed back down. "So worthless" Jungkook laughs. Tilting my head I felt someone's hand come in contact with my face.

When will this ever end?

"Just leave y/n. You'll be doing everyone a favour." Taehyung said whilst kneeling down to me. Blood soon gushing out of my lip and nose. "Get her up boys." Taehyung ordered "No please" I screamed as I tried to get out of their grip.

"Don't go crying for help now, daddy won't save you"
Hearing no voices other then myself and the boys I knew I was all alone.

"You better do a good job at hiding these bruises" I gulped strongly. "Keep her steady" Taehyung demanded before sending harsh punches to my stomach. Feeling weaker by the moment my knees collapsed from beneath me. "S-stop please" I cried in desperation.

"I'm really enjoying this" he chuckled.
Taking one last punch to my face I fell to the ground.
Seeing dark red patches on the ground I exhaled softly.

It was my blood.

"Come on boys. I've had enough for today" Taehyung said as he wiped away his bloody knuckles. Scanning my week body they took one last look before walking away.

I laid there stiff, I choked on my blood as I looked up at the grey sky. Building up enough strength I managed to pull myself up and walk home.

•

As I pulled my keys out to unlock the door I heard smashing of bottles from the other side. "She was home" my awful step mother. "Where is dad when you need him?" I whispered before taking a deep breath and walking inside. "Where have you been you bitch?" I stood in silence.

"I see someone else has already had their way with you" she scoffed in annoyance. "Shame" I closed my eyes tightly before feeling the impact of a slap to my already bruised face. "Worthless little girl. Get out of my sight" With my body shaking I ran up to my room and locked myself inside.

Walking into my bathroom I looked at my reflection in the mirror, my unrecognisable face was the worst of all. Dried blood was stained on my lips and cheek. Bruises were scattered all over my body and most importantly the old scars on my wrist. The only relief was to pull out my blade.

Sitting on bathroom floor i looked deeply at the blade, this was my secret that no one else knew about. As the blade came in contact with my skin my head fell back onto the wall in pain but a happy sensation ran through me.

Maybe the world will be better off without me?

The next morning

My body shook itself awake, I had fallen asleep on my bathroom floor "great" I sighed.
Standing to my feet I ran the cold water and wiped away the dried blood.
Splashing my face with more water my breathing became uneven. 

Reaching for my makeup bag I applied some makeup around my eyes and lips before wrapping my wrists in a new set of bandages.

•

As I reached my locker door I was thrown against it just like yesterday. "Look boys, the looser is back. Love the new look" Taehyung said while inspecting my face. "Leave me alone" I whispered. "And why would I do that?" He whispers deeply in my ear. "B-because I-" I was cut off by the feeling of something trickling down my hands. Looking down I saw my hands covered in blood.

Oh no the bandages.
Taehyung will see

But it was too late...

Taehyung's POV:
I looked down to see y/n's hands covered in blood. I pulled back slightly, she looked up with tears in her eyes. I stood in shock.

She'd cut herself.

Once realisation kicked into the both of us she pushed me back and ran away. "Fuck how badly did you scare her this time" Jungkook laughed as he and Jimin approached me. I turned around with my mouth slightly ajar, fear now in my body and eyes. Jimin looked at me blankly before waving his hands in front of my face.

"She cut herself." I whispered. "Wait what?" Jungkook and Jimin asked in shock.

What have I done?
What have we done?

Your POV:
The quicker I ran the quicker could feel more blood escaping my body. I ran up to the roof and collapsed to the ground in tears.

"Why me? Why? What did I do?" I said looking up at the sky. "Mum just bring me up there with you" I cried softly.

In sadness and anger I ripped my jacket off to see my white shirt covered in blood. Reaching into my bag I pulled out a new set of bandages.
Crying aloud I wiped my wrists clean.

Upon hearing a loud bang my actions stopped.
There in stood in the distance was, Taehyung, Jimin and Jungkook but something was different about them. Sadness and guilt was shown in each of their faces. "Y/n please" Taehyung said as he knelt down in front of me. "Just let me help you"

That was the last thing I said before falling into Taehyung's arms.

•

Beep Beep Beep

Opening my eyes the strong and bright lights blinded my sights. Scanning the room all I saw was white, the walls, the bedding and even my outfit.

"Y/n" Turning aside I saw Taehyung. I began to panic. "No. No. I'm not going to hurt you, just please rest y/n. Don't move around too much" I looked at him blankly yet my heart was racing. "I'm sorry for everything that me and the boys did, and I'm sorry to hear that you were also being abused at home."

How did he know?

"The doctors told me what happened and the police arrested your step mum, she won't hurt you no more and either will we." "W-where's my dad?" I asked softly. "He's just popped out to grab a coffee, he wont be long. He's devastated y/n" Taehyung sighed.

"I can't count how many times I want to say sorry y/n. Please forgive us, forgive me" I looked away. "I can't accept it that easily" I replied. "I'll do whatever I can to make you accept it, I want you to accept me. I love you y/n. I've been such a monster."

Reaching up I held onto his cheek, "you love me?" He nodded eagerly, "Let's start again" he looked at me with happy tears.

"I'm y/n" he smiled a boxy smile "I'm Taehyung it's nice to meet you"

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