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Leah has been on her own for over a year, but you will never hear her say it. Lying to everyone she has cared for since moving here, but she has no other option. She’s 17 years old, in school and everyday she’s scared that her past will come back for her, take her away and bring her back home. People think home is a loving safe place, for her, it’s her biggest nightmare. Her best friend Laura is her favorite person in the world, except everything Laura knows about her is a lie. When she meets Jason, her friend’s brother, they click. She starts to trust him, to like him, and he brings out the best of her, brings her back to life in every way. The only problem she sees…it won’t last, as much as she wants to believe in love, she knows the past doesn’t stay hidden for long.…

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This is a true story about my life. I was told to write a letter, a letter I didn’t want to write because I was afraid of dealing with my emotions.For your information I wasn’t pregnant nor have I ever been pregnant. I wrote this letter in June of 2012. I wondered if I should post it or not but that if I did, maybe I could help someone else in the same situation… I was asked to write this letter to help the grieving process move forward. I have a mental illness and when I have my good days, I always wonder back to this letter. Did I pay the biggest price anyone can be asked of to be well, in a sort of way, to think clearer. I was told by my doctor at the time to never have kids, that I wouldn’t be a good mother. That once pregnant I’d have to stop my medications, I’d go crazy and when my child would be born, I wouldn’t be able to touch or see him or her. After the birth, I’d be pumped back full of medications and it would take around two years to be somewhat ‘normal’. I’d probably lose custody, my child could have the same mental illness that I have and what would I do if we were sick at the same time….My options:Give up my child and give him or her for adoption.I was also told I could get an abortion. Or…have a hysterectomy.This is a part of my story... and this is my letter.…

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The night before the wedding Derrick spoke to his fiancé over the phone. They said how much they loved each other and that they would meet at the alter the next day. Both, Derrick and Angela had a few friends over that evening, they stayed in the same hotel but in different rooms.Except the next day Angela was no where in sight. Only leaving a note and her engagement ring behind while everything else was gone.Derrick couldn't understand what went wrong. She didn't explain and with new information from others, telling him how nervous she had been, he knew she had a change of heart and left him.Five years later with no contact from Angela's family or friends, Derrick receives a call from her father, Dave. Dave informs him that the police showed up at his home early this morning and was told to go to the hospital.Angela had been found and now the policemen would like to know why they never officially declared Angela as a missing person? Also, everyone would like to know who is the young girl that is with her?With many years being apart and so many questions, Derrick and Angela are both desperate for answers that can't come fast enough.Derrick is engaged and is to marry Carly in three months.Are Angela's answers going to change Derrick's mind or will it push him further into his relationship? Or are Angela emotions going to get the best of her and refuse to let Derrick back into her life?…

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*This is the spin-off to Runaway Bride. I recommend reading it before starting to read this one.*Locked in a small room with her mother since birth, Amanda quickly learned the dark side of life. Her mother Angela, chained by her ankle, was only able to walk around the small space. When the day came and they were freed, Amanda being 4 years old, her life turned upside-down. She had to learn to trust others, believe in them, put her life, emotion and heart on the line. She made so much progress with Emily, her psychologist of 12 years but she's having trouble with the next 'homework' Emily wants her to do, befriend Blake and learn to trust him. Being 20 years old and still only trusting her family and her only friend, Lisa, she doesn't know where to start. Sex doesn't need emotions and doesn't need for her heart to be involved. As for Blake, he'd seen Amanda for years without her giving him a glance. Working with her father as a mechanic, and her coming around now and then, made him curious about her. When they started sleeping together, he thought he had her but always waking up alone, he realized she had other things in mind. Amanda's finally an adult. What has become of her? Will she ever fully trust a man with her heart? Will she find happiness or will she continue to live her life being cold, heartless like some people call her?…

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I'll just say quickly, these are poems I wrote, some years ago, some recently. You can probably tell where I am emotionaly and what frame of mind I am in. Like the title says, some are dark and others light, it would depend on my mood and what was going on around me. These are 100% from my life and things I went or are going through. I am doing better but, I wanted to share, again maybe it will help someone. To know they aren't alone in the world even though sometimes it does feel like it.…