sasha sat, curled up in her bed, a light blush forming on her cheeks from the messages she had received from seth. somehow he know exactly how to make her smile.

"sasha, baby!" her mother called, lightly pushing open the door to her bedroom.

sasha shut off her phone, giving her mom a bright smile, "hey."

"hunny, im going out for dinner with a few of the girls from work tonight. there is grilled chicken for you in the fridge if you'd like."

sasha nodded, meeting her mother's eyes.

something looked off...

her face was slightly paled, her eyes looked tired and dull despite them usually having a glow.

"mama are you okay?" she asked, immediately receiving a nod from her mother.

"i think i just bought the wrong foundation color," she shrugged with a slight laugh.

sasha bit her lip in disbelief, but let it slide.

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"seth you can't possibly already love her. you guys just met!" roman laughed.

seth shook his head, staring at the sidewalk as they walked down the icy cement.

"you don't understand," he mumbled, "it's love. it's true love."

roman rolled his eyes, "bud, your going to get hurt again. take a step back, alright. i know she's sweet and all, but you never know."

seth rammed his elbow into roman's side, "sasha would never hurt anybody. she's perfect."

"seth, this isn't a disney princess movie. this is reality. you barely know anything about her."

"i do too!" he argued back.

"what's her last name?"

seth stayed silent. roman smirked, knowing that he proved his point.

"i still love her. she's everything i could ever imagine," he murmured, kicking a ball of ice up the side walk.

roman wrapped his arm around his beat friend's shoulders, patting his back, "you said the same thing about nicole, paige, and rebecca."

seth didn't let roman's comment get to him.

he was dead set on this girl.

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sasha knew something was up with her mother. she was definitely hiding something.

as soon as she heard the front door slam shut, she made her way downstairs.

she began to dig through the mail on the island counter, but she didn't find much there.

there wasn't many places to look, as they still hadn't decorated the house.

she sighed, walking back upstairs to her mother's bedroom.

she searched through her dresser, night stand, and closet, but she still hadn't found anything.

maybe it's nothing

sasha walked back to her bedroom, flopping down her bed and staring up at the ceiling.

she grabbed her phone and played a random radio station she had found on spotify.

she wasn't too picky about her music, but she was really into 'vibey' songs as some people would say. nothing intense, just a chill beat and beautiful vocals and sasha was perfectly
satisfied.

i lie here awake, thinking of all the games i played
i let you wait, hundreds of promises that i
i never made, i fell forever in a daze
'till you walked away, 'cause of the words i didn't say

after a long exhale, sasha closed her eyes. she let the lyrics consume her mind, listening to the emotion in the singers voices.

it was like she was in a trance; stuck in this song. the only thing running through her mind was the song.

but like all good things do, the song
came to an end.

see, i can't live without you, i hope you'll forgive it
a world without you is a world without living
i can't live without you, i hope you'll forgive it
a world without you is a world without living

sasha did this often. she pretended she was in somebody else's life through the music. whenever her life became to much or got too hard, she just acted as if she wasn't living it anymore, even if it was just for the short length of a few minutes.

it was good to not have so many worries on her shoulders. she didn't have to be sasha banks and she loved that.

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a/n song is words i didn't say by why don't we <3

also really want to move to like canada or some shit right about now.