Another song that's WAY to long to be a song...

I don’t know who I am

I don’t know who I’ve been

I don’t know who I’ll be

I don’t know anything

I’m lost inside my mind

Afraid to find out why

I watch the world go by

They ask me how I am

I say I’m fine

I’m okay

I’m alright

I’m lying

If they’d just look closer they would see

The demons they’re inside of me

The ones that plague my soul

They won’t leave me

Alone

And the voices in my head are screaming

Talking at me

Saying things that I try not to hear I’m worthless

And stupid

I can’t do anything right

I fail

At life

I don’t know what I’m saying

Don’t know who I am

Don’t know what I’m doing

In this world

I should just give up this fight

I’ll never win it anyway

I push them away

I don’t let them near

Can’t let them hear

The screaming in my mind

I try to let it out

Let it build and let it go

But it won’t come

And it won’t go away

I know

I’m delusional

At times

I’m hysterical

And idiotic

I say things that I don’t really mean

But I mean them

And I don’t

I watch the sun rise while the moon is setting

Feel the cold heat on my face

Laugh in the face of death

I’m reckless and insane

I know

I don’t know who I am

I don’t know who I’ve been

I don’t know who I’ll be

I don’t know anything

At all

And the voices in my head are screaming

I’ve got to let them out

But if anyone could hear them

They’d lock me away

Throw away the key

So I keep them bottled up inside

Feel the hate

The anger

And the pain

Watching them watching me

Wishing I could change

The way things are

I try to let them out

Sing my song

Even though I am off key

But every time I try

I fail at life

I can’t do anything

Right

Why don’t they understand

The demons that they plague

My mind

They make me cry

When I don’t want to

Won’t let me when I do

I want to feel

But I am empty

I’m lost and I’m alone

I’m broken and I’m terrified

I’m nothing and I’m useless and I’m stupid and

Insane

And the voices in my head are screaming

Talking at me

Saying things that I try not to hear

Screaming words that I try not to hear

Oh they say that sticks and stones

Can break your bones

But words can’t hurt you

They say that no one

Can make you feel

Inferior

Unless you let them

But how do you stop it

When you’re the one who’s doing it

No it’s not me

I’m not like that

Why would I say things like that

To you

I mean to me

But the voices in my head are screaming

Screaming

And I can’t drown them out

I don’t know who I am

I don’t know what I am

I don’t know why

I can’t fight

These demons that they live inside

I don’t know why

They can’t see me

Who I am

They don’t care

They walk around with

Blinders on

They say they love me

They say they care

But if they’d just look closer

They would know

I’m not here

I’m not there

I’m nowhere

I’m nothing

I’m crazy and I’m dumb I’m useless and I’m stupid

And I am insane

And they don’t care

They don’t see it

They don’t look close enough

So I keep walking

Keep talking

Keep shutting them out

Hoping that they’ll never see

The colors that are me

Hoping that they’ll never hear 

Me screaming