You know what?

No. You listen to me!

I've got something to say.

I'm going to make you see.

You know that girl,

The one who sits for hours,

All alone and lost,

Building up her towers?

The girl who cries into her pillow,

Because a piece of her is missing

That will never be there

And her heart in her is twisting

Into knots of fury,

So much fury that she

Has become afraid of herself,

And who she might be.

The girl who is more alone

Than you can ever be

Because she is half of herself-

That girl? She's me.

I lost a part of me

And I will never get it back.

I am surrounded by well-wishers,

But all I see is what I lack.

I don't remember her laugh,

I just remember the pain

And the all-consuming hatred

That pours forth from me like rain.

I can't stop it

Any more than I can stop

The sun from rising,

But I won't go over the top.

I won't bore you with the tale

Of how I lost everything

That was important to me,

EVERY. SINGLE. THING.

I won't tell you of the rage

That makes me feel dumb

And terrified

Of who I will become.

But what I will tell you

Is that you're right.

I have no idea who you are

Or what you dream of in the night.

But I know one thing

And that is this:

You CANNOT let the problems

Or the things that go amiss

Make you forget who you are

Beneath all the layers

That you've built

To keep out all the haters.

Trust me when I say

That Pain and I

Are old friends,

Like the clouds and the sky.

But You CANNOT let it break you,

You have to fight,

Or else you'll be lost to

Everything that isn't right.

If you let the hatred

And the rage

Win the war,

Then you will fall right off the page

Of life, and be forgotten,

Don't tell me that I don't understand!

I may not know your circumstances,

But I Know the contraband

Of all-consuming hate

And pain and fear

And anger that makes you

Lose yourself in the sheer

Volume of the things you cannot have

And will never get back Again,

So don't look at me like I'm stupid

Or don't get you and can't ken

That sometimes life is so hard

That you just want to give up

And let the vultures have your body

Until you are just another rut

In the road of other peoples' lives

And you don't have to worry

About anything ever,

Or feel the fury.

But trust me when I say

That life is not meant

To be lived that way!

Your whole existance spent

On fear and self-hate

And the need to get rid

Of the feelings

But you can't put the lid

Back on the casket,

It's happend and it cannot be undone

Don't give up, don't let them win!

Your race is not yet run.

LISTEN TO ME,

I am speaking the truth,

I am saying it loud,

I am shouting from the roof,

DON'T DO IT

DON'T GIVE IN

DON'T LET THEM SEE THAT THEY HAVE HURT YOU

NEVER LET THEM WIN!

Whether you are your enemy

Or it is someone else,

The answer to your problems will NEVER

Be hurting yourself!