What have I done?
I've realized,
This is truly my fault.
You were not the one who destroyed our relationship.
I unknowingly ripped it to shreds before you merely finished it off.
I'm opening my eyes
And I'm seeing what I've done,
What I've said,
And I can hardly believe I was so stupid.
What have I done?

Now it's not just out of self hatred anymore.
I've realized that I did and said terrible things to you.
And I did those things blindly,
Not knowing how it was tearing us apart.
I was trying to help, but instead I made everything worse.
And now I've lost you...

How was I that foolish?
I put my entire weight on you, expecting your skinny arms to be able to hold me up,
And I cried when my body hit the ground, wondering why you didn't catch me.
Maybe you really did have to leave me;
Maybe that was the only way to open my eyes.
Even now, I don't know if they are fully opened.
But if they are, then maybe
Maybe we could try again,
If you'd give me another chance.
I could be better.
I promise I'd be better.

But who am I kidding.
You'd never give me any more chances.
It's too late for that.
I can't undo what I've done.
Your hate for me is already too strong.