I'm trying to hold on to every little memory of you I can find;
I want to remember every detail of you.
I want to remember your beautiful dark brown eyes
Your constantly cold hands
The feeling of running my fingers through your hair
The way you used to do that thing with your lips when you were about to kiss me
Your rabbit-toothed smile
Your low voice as you whispered sweet words to me.
I desperately grab at all the memories I can and hold them close,
And I weep for all that I lost,
Soaking the memories in tears.
I wish I wasn't so stupid.
Why did I have to throw it all away
I want to make you happy again,
But now the only way for me to do that is by getting the heck out of your life.
How can I possibly do that when you are such a huge part of my world?