I feel horribly ill
So horribly ill in my head
I haven't felt this awful since early last spring,
When my anxiety was only just starting to melt into insignificance
Now I feel it's getting worse again
Gosh darn it...
I don't want to get tossed into the waves again
In the ocean where I'm violently tossed about and have no control
I can't let the pain take over again
This can't happen again
My mind feels wounded and trapped
So sick
And I feel all too familiar feelings of loneliness and unworthiness
I'm sick
I'm horribly, dreadfully ill
God, please don't let me sink into the darkness again