This one-shot is dedicated to the lovely I_am_shyyyyyy regarding his 1 month anniversary being a stay. I hope you like it <33
Even tho u prob won't even read this engl version xD

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Felix chewed his lower lip continuously - paced up and down in his room - before he stroked his hair out of his face in frustration.

They kissed...
He had kissed him.

"Fucking hell!" he angrily threw his cell phone across the room - it smacked against his pillow and fell, softly, onto his bed. With force, the feelings from last night caught up with him again.

Soft, gentle, tender - Hyunjin's - lips.

Fuck!

Felix had accepted to carry his secret - that he was in love with Hyunjin - around with him for the rest of his life and at best just to suppress it. Because they were all friends in Straykids, even more than friends - family - and then he came up with these stupid feelings?

He couldn't and actually didn't want to admit that to himself at all, but that was the way it was. But the best thing he could do - at least in his opinion - was to lock these feelings far away and keep them as a safe secret.

And it would certainly have remained one - basically, it still was, at least if you couldn't add up the obvious events last night.

Nervously, he rocked his feet. How was it possible for him to ever look at Hyunjin again? Why hadn't he just been able to keep his mouth shut to Jisung? - that maybe he saw Hyunjin as more than a friend...

But no. And then what had he done? Right, what any best friend would do.... make them kiss at truth or dare.

An ice-cold shiver ran down his spine, made him tremble and he exhaled heavily. He had made such a fool of himself and had failed grandiosely to suppress his feelings - to put it kindly. Felix gave a dejected sigh.

Okay, he didn't even know if Jisung had done that on purpose - after all, he couldn't hold his liquor and they had drunk quite a bit yesterday. Maybe he was just overthinking it?

He fell backward on his bed and fixed a small spot on the blanket. Annoyed - by the situation and especially by himself - he blew a silver strand out of his face as the flashbacks of last night glaringly overtook him.

They had all met together in the dorm of 3Racha and Hyunjin for a movie night. First, they had ordered food from the delivery service and then the eight of them crowded into and in front of the couch to watch a few movies.

After the second movie, Jisung had the brilliant idea to play Truth or Dare for the first time in a long time. They all sat down in a circle on the carpet between the couch and the TV, dimmed the lights, and started to play.

In the beginning, Felix was enthusiastic - of course, why not? He actually loved this game. They had already drunk a lot while watching TV and were fooling around with more drinks in their hands and stomachs. They asked each other questions that they had already answered a thousand times and fulfilled one or the other questionable dare.

It was fun until it was Jisung's turn again and the bottle had pointed at Felix. Self-confident he had chosen dare without question.

And lo and behold, suddenly it had been his dare to kiss Hyunjin...

To fucking kiss Hyunjin!

Not on the cheek - which was quite a usual dare - but on the mouth, on his damn lips!

The others were enthusiastic, after all, all were tipsy - if not drunk. But for him, it felt as if his alcohol level had dropped to zero all at once - just like his heartbeat.

Hyunjin, on the other hand, seemed to find it quite funny as well. He stood up and squatted next to him. Said with his typical smirk: "Come on. It's not meant to be a tongue kiss."

While he was close to a heart attack - and the shock could seemingly be read on his face - the blond suddenly seemed to be serenity personified. But of course, he didn't want to expose himself.

So he had turned further to Hyunjin with a thumping heart. What the other members said or did, he blanked out - only the blood rushed loudly in his ears, which his heart pumped through him in a wild rhythm.

Pressing his eyes tightly shut, he leaned forward toward Hyunjin in a barely noticeable way. When their lips finally touched - he didn't know how best to describe it - it was almost magical, even if it sounded cheesy.

It was nothing more than their lips lying on each other - God, they hadn't even moved them, just pressed them warmly together - and yet it was more than Felix could have ever imagined. Hyunjin's lips were as soft and tender as they looked.

He couldn't tell how long they remained in that position, but eventually, Hyunjin pulled away from the kiss.

Of course, what else could have happened?

Felix had felt his cheeks burning, they were probably completely red - but in the dim light, no one had seen that at least he hoped so. As if in a trance, he had almost not noticed what Hyunjin said.

"Well, it wasn't that bad, was it?" he said with a cheeky grin, tousled his silver strands once, and rose to drop back into his seat between Jisung and Sungmin.

The others joined in the laughter, while Felix just sat there - completely caught off guard. After a few more rounds of games, in which he hardly participated, he excused himself and went to sleep - not at all conspicuous...

Or rather, he had spent the rest of the night just tossing and turning in his bed - could hardly close an eye without seeing Hyunjin in front of him again. Since then, he hadn't come out of his room either.

Felix knew very well that he was acting absolutely childish - just like his feelings towards Hyunjin.

Stupid.

It was just a dare, this kiss meant absolutely nothing - he sighed heavily again and turned onto his stomach - at least not for Hyunjin.

But it hurt like hell just thinking about it.

The only problem was that he couldn't stay in his room forever. He had already sent Jeongin and Sungmin away - when they wanted to wake him up for breakfast, or rather already lunch - saying that he had a hangover and needed to sleep it off.

Grumbling, they had left him alone. Minho had come in the afternoon as well into his room and had measured worriedly his temperature since he had the assumption Felix had caught something. But he had left relieved when the silver-haired had assured him that he would only need a little more sleep because of the alcohol - after the fever thermometer had not detected an abnormally high temperature.

But by now it was already evening and he knew that he would probably be taken out of the room - if necessary dragged - for supper at the latest.

This is why Felix got up again and started pacing back and forth in his room. Constantly checking the time - by now it was almost 9 p.m. - and puzzling over who would fetch him for dinner. Because they wanted to eat together again today, in the second - their - dorm.

He stopped and grabbed his chest, hopefully not Hyunjin. The very idea alone...

He would simply suppress his feelings - after all, he had already managed the last few months, since he had become aware of his feelings at all.

Suddenly his room door was torn open, he flinched and looked at the person in the doorway - Hyunjin.

He would have preferred to sink into the floor at that moment.

"What are you doing, Felix?", Hyunjin not-so-gently let the door fall back into the lock and then leaned against it.

He stopped and grabbed his chest, hopefully not Hyunjin. The very idea alone...

He would simply suppress his feelings - after all, he had already managed the last few months, since he had become aware of his feelings at all.

Suddenly his room door was torn open, he flinched and looked at the person in the doorway - Hyunjin.

He wished the ground would open up and swallow him whole.

"What are you doing, Felix?", Hyunjin not-so-gently let the door fall back into the lock and then leaned against it.

He had folded his arms and now looked at the smaller one with an inexplicable look. The latter did not know what to say for the life of him, which is why he simply stood frozen in the room - although his knees became dangerously weak and his heart was already increasing its frequency.

How had he endured the last months in Hyunjin's presence without any problems - at least halfway? Lots of physical contact was commonplace among the members, after all.

"Lix... What are you doing? You didn't even drink that much yesterday but had to sleep it off until now? You're fine, but you haven't eaten a thing? There's something wrong," he said and actually sounded upset. But Felix still didn't know what to do, until finally a confused "What?" crossed his lips.

"Oh come on... Don't act unknowingly. What are you pulling here? Some diet crap again-" "N-no..." he stuttered, overwhelmed and confused in equal measure. Was Hyunjin worried now, or was he angry with him?

"Then what is it, Lix?" He pushed himself off the door and slowly approached him, causing the younger to instantly lower his gaze to the floor - heart beating wildly in his chest.

"I don't know what you mean, Hyune... It's nothing-" "I don't believe you." interrupted Hyunjin's clear - suddenly much too close - voice. He could practically feel Hyunjin's warm breathing on his skin, which made him gasp in fright.

"That's what I mean."

"What do you mean?", still not looking at the taller one, Felix stared at his feet, which were placed not an inch from Hyunjin's. They were way too close for his taste, which is why he took a step back - that closeness didn't let him think straight right now.

"Your reactions towards me lately.", the blond said more quietly this time and closed the just created distance again. Alarmed by this, Felix's head shot up. "What are you talking about?!", he tried to defend himself and at the same time took another step backward.

But he should rather not have looked at Hyunjin, because now he could no longer pull himself away from the sight of his dark eyes. In the gathering dusk they seemed almost black and seemed to swallow Felix - above all worry but something else, indefinable, was reflected in them.

"About exactly that." the blond-haired said, still just as calmly, and took another step forward.

Had he been caught? Was this just now the cruel end of their friendship? Shakily Felix exhaled - but if so, what was Hyunjin doing right now?

"What are you doing, Hyune?"

The latter sighed, "I just can't figure you out. Isn't it obvious?" Confused, the silver-haired wanted to avoid him again with another backward step, but he felt the cold wall in his back instead - he swallowed hard after the realization that he had nowhere to dodge.

What in the world was supposed to be obvious then, please? His feelings? - he knew that himself.

Blinking, Felix continued to stare into the unfathomable eyes of his counterpart. His knees were meanwhile really close to simply giving way under his weight, which is why he pressed himself even harder against the wall, grasping for support.

"You're trying to hide something from me, aren't you?" the older continued to claim with an inquiring look, this time stepping so close to Felix that he could feel his breath - a cold shiver chased down his spine.

He instantly felt reminded of their kiss yesterday.

"Not true.", Felix pressed out strained, "I'm not hiding anything from you." - except for the fact that he wanted nothing more than for Hyunjin to kiss him again, really kiss him.

He was getting hotter and hotter, he would have liked to just run away, but he was captivated by Hyunjin's eyes - he could do nothing but stare at the blond in front of him.

10 - maybe 50 - seconds passed, in which no one said anything, they just looked at each other and increase their breath and smells mixed - it was almost suffocating, but it seemed none of them wanted to end the moment.

"You're a bad liar.", Hyunjin finally broke the silence, in a darker voice than before - gave Felix goosebumps, "But at least that makes it easier for me to see through you."

"See through me?" repeated Felix, breathy.

But instead of answering, Hyunjin just smirked before suddenly leaning down and kissing Felix.

Overwhelmed, the eyes of the smaller one widened at first, which was frozen. Their lips touched so gently that Felix's knees threatened to give in. But Hyunjin determinedly put his hands on his waist and pulled him even closer to him - overcoming the last distance.

Felix felt like he was dreaming, but this was real. Hyunjin kissed him - it was not a dream, but sweet reality.

A wave of bliss swept him away. He closed his eyes and finally gave himself completely to his feelings - sinking into the moment. And it didn't take long for Hyunjin's kiss to become more intense as if he had longed for him just as much.

Felix simply copied his every move and put his hands on Hyunjin's neck to pull him even closer. His fingers buried themselves in the silky soft hair - God, how much had he desired this? He still couldn't believe it.

Hyunjin gasped softly into the kiss as Felix stroked his lower lip gauzily with his tongue. He could feel the shivers - which clenched as urgent heat in his lower abdomen - as his tongue collided with Hyunjin's.

The latter's one hand, meanwhile, had found its way to his cheek - its fingertips tangled in strands of Felix's shiny silver hair.

And Hyunjin moaned again against his lips. Or was it himself? He couldn't place it anymore. He only felt the blessing heat moving further and further down his stomach, while Hyunjin kissed him out of his mind.

Only after an eternity - which nevertheless didn't seem long enough - did the taller one eventually really break the kiss, not just to gasp for air. Felix opened his eyes slowly, feeling his own heavy breathing as clearly as that of Hyunjin.

They stood there, tightly embraced - Felix pressed against the wall and Hyunjin against him - just looking at each other. The smaller one still couldn't believe what had just happened, but he could see the same desire in Hyunjin's eyes that he himself felt.

It was as if they could see into each other's souls, and needed no words at that moment. As Hyunjin leaned even closer against Felix - brushing his thumb over the soft skin of his cheek - he knew he wanted to kiss him again.

But he was suddenly threatened to be overwhelmed by the situation and murmured dazedly, "We shouldn't do that, right?"

Hyunjin tilted his head slightly, scrutinizing every detail of Felix's face before grinning. "Probably not~," he confirmed to him before still lowering his head a bit to kiss him anyway. Once again their lips met in longing and Felix noticed how something began to stir not only in his lower region.

He moaned softly into the kiss as he could feel Hyunjin's fingers hot under his shirt and how the blond smirked into the kiss.

And he wanted it, he wanted more - he wanted Hyunjin.

But suddenly the loud voice of Chan flashed through both of them and catapulted them back into reality - immediately they pulled apart.

"Lix?! Hyune?! Where are you guys?!"

Felix would have preferred to laugh out loud given the bizarre situation, but instead, he ran his hands through his hair but still a giggle escaped him. Hyunjin, who was motionless and not able to think clearly, looked at him in surprise.

Felix's lips were red and clearly swollen, and Hyunjin didn't look a bit better either - tousled blond strands hung down his face and his lips were also tinted a deeper pink from swelling. And then he fell into Felix's giggle and gave him another little peck - with love-struck expressions they looked at each other.

"The food is already here! I'll drag you there myself if you don't come voluntarily!"

"I think we should hurry," Hyunjin murmured with a grin as he began - more or less successfully - to rearrange his hair, which had been messed up by Felix. While Felix tried to straighten his clothes as well. "Oh, God. Hyune..." he laughed in a still lowered voice - his cheeks now covered in an equally deep pink haze as his lips.

But to be honest, you'd have had to be a very big fool not to notice what had gone on between the two of them - not the least because the wide grin wouldn't leave their puffy lips.

And so it was.

When the two emerged from Felix's room, all conversations fell silent. Their appearance had probably spoken for itself, nevertheless, the other members tried not to let themselves notice anything. So they sat down next to each other, in their usual places, and everyone started eating as usual. The conversations also returned - if not the one or other inquiring side-glance was turned to Hyunjin and Felix.

Until Jisung finally put down his cutlery, and actually looked at Felix and Hyunjin in a huff, "Now you've already gotten together, and you won't even give me the credits for it?"

Everyone at the table stared at him with wide eyes.

"What? Did you really think I chose the dare task without ulterior motives?"

"You did it on purpose?" asked Felix, squinting over at Hyunjin - were they actually together now, like boyfriends?

"Of course. That's what best friends are for. Besides, Hyune confided in me about his problem with you yesterday while we played truth or dare - you know, the dare where he had to tell me a secret, that no one knows - so I figured why not?"

Another short silence.

"You told Ji that you had a crush on Lix?! Of all of us, Ji?" "Yeah, the same goes for you Lix. I mean, come on." The rest of the band began to discuss the topic - why they would trust Jisung with something like that but not them - their trustworthiness and support. A familiar warmth and lightheartedness enveloped them.

Meanwhile, Felix's hand under the table had made its way onto Hyunjin's leg next to him. And the blond took his hand in his before they smiled at each other and just listened to the others - warmth and especially love were in the air.

- the end -