"Just like that, I lost two years of memory of my life. To be honest, sometimes I feel helpless. Maybe my life would have been different if I didn't lose my memory" I lower my gaze fixing it on my hands.

Since Abir wanted to spend time with me so we are sitting on the swing on our terrace. From the time we have come here, it's just me speaking, keeping all my life misery in front of Abir because I trust him!

I have to admit he is a good listener. When I turn my face to look at him I find him already looking at me with moist eyes.

"Whatever happened has happened. You can't do anything about it, you know you have your life with you now, decide what you want to do. Live your life, be happy." He smiles at me blinking away his tears.

"I just want to spend my life with you" I put my feelings into words as I lovingly look at him, "You are my peace, my happiness!"

His lips are settled in a satisfied smile as if this is what he wanted to hear, "You are my friend but I think, I also want you as my husband." I add not wanting to hide my feelings. Even if he loves his wife that doesn't stop me from loving him.

"You think?" He arches an eyebrow at me teasingly.

A heartily chuckle left from my lips, "No, I am sure. I want you as my husband." He stares into my eyes, though I find it cute but the way his eyes fill with tears confuses me.

"I also want you as my wife." He added before I could question him why he is crying. His words spread peace and warmth in my heart as I feel ticklishness in my body.

"Mishti" He took hold of my hands as he gazed into my eyes, "What if I tell you we are already married?"

I frown at him, "You can say that after we get married!" I exclaim funnily taking his question.

"No, listen carefully" He shook his head as his grip on my hand gets tighter, "What if I tell you we are already married?"

I pay attention to his words, does he mean we are already married and I don't remember about it? My eyes widen, I look at Abir while he nods silently letting me know whatever I am thinking is true. My heart twists painfully yet I feel contentment.

No doubt why I was so connected with him always!

"You are my wife, you are the only one I love and will always do. You are mine. You are the mother of Arya and Aryan." He said each word carefully so that I digest the fact. I don't need any proof to accept his words, our special connection says it all.

I swallow, tears rush out of my eyes. Yes, I should be happy about it but it is not easy for me. All the time when Abir used to chant about loving his wife he used to refer to me?! I was insecure or jealous of myself, what can be great than this?

"Why didn't you tell me before?" It takes all of my strength to utter out the question.

"Your panic attacks forced me to not tell you." He looked hurt as his voice cracked a little in the end, "But I'll tell you now, you deserve to know"

My hands get sweaty as I prepare myself to accept whatever is on my way. He swiftly pulls me into his arms as if giving me strength. Now, it feels different, I am in the arms of my Husband.

"You completed your graduation and came to India with Badi maa. After a few months, you were searching for a job and your mother was searching alliance for you.

On my side, it was like I was living a happy single life and my family wanted me to mingle. They were also searching for an alliance for me.

Finally, one day Eva's mom got an alliance for me. When I looked at your photo it was kinda love at first sight for me.

The next day I found you in my company, coming out of the interview room. Kunal took your interview and he was damn impressed! Soon you settled in our company but being the boss I couldn't interact much with you.

After approval of both the families, we were engaged, you were shocked to find your as boss as your to be husband and I enjoyed your shocked expressions.

After 6 months of our marriage, you were pregnant and as you know you went missing from the hospital. That was like a nightmare to me, I searched you all night wherever I assumed you could be. But never found you!

Police started working on it but nothing worked! After a year I got Meera in my life, also joined the police force to distract my pain.

Then two years later, I got a call from Badi maa stating you are at her flat. I was damn happy, thankfully my cousin, Neha drove all the way or else out of happiness I would have met with an accident.

When we reached Badi maa's flat I found out you lost your memory. That time I don't know what happened to me I was hurt, I didn't want to face you so I went away from the doorstep.

Neha explained to me I should talk to you about it but sadly the next day when we both came you had already gone.

After few days Badi maa called me at her flat we were discussing how to let you know Rayan isn't a good person. Because the first step we wanted to take is to remove trash from your life. By God's grace, you had called that day and I received your call as Badi maa was busy in the kitchen.

I couldn't talk with you, because according to you I was a stranger so I passed the phone to Badi maa. We were relaxed you gave divorce to Rayan.

Badi maa and I was planning to talk to you about our past life. When you came with Sam I was in the room. After you said Badi maa that you know you have lost your memory, Badi maa asked me to come out of the room.

That's when the first panic attack hit you! You fell unconscious, when we took you to the doctor and talked about it we got to know my face reminded you of old memories which were somewhere painful for you.

Few days Badi maa was in her flat then she left the city after informing me that she has to go away to keep you safe from attacks. I was in touch with Badi maa but not so much. I got to know you live with your friends but I didn't know where because if I knew, I know I'll not be able to control myself from coming to see you. Eventually, Badi maa lost contact with me, her number was lost or something I don't remember.

My life was colourless, you were inside me but not with me. I accepted my fate and started living my life for my children, my family and my job as an undercover cop.

Until one day I found out about Meera's intentions. Then I came to Mumbai because I had my company here as well as I had a mansion here too! But then my children needed love not luxury. 6-7 years children knowing they don't have a mother is not easy for them.

I was suggested by my family to take a flat in Eva's apartment. Eva didn't even tell me you live here, I was shocked when Eva came along with Sam to invite us to Christmas Party. Though not even once Sam mentioned she knew me nor did I mention.

I was not sure if you live with her so I relaxed. Then my daughter's, uh sorry, our daughter's demand to down through stairs made me run behind her till your flat.

The moment my eyes met yours, honestly for a second, I died out of happiness and came back to life. I was somewhere worried about what if you get a panic attack but glad that you didn't get any.

Shaking hands with you after 7 damn years was no less than a magical feeling for me. That day I knew you have recovered.

I thought it will not be easy but somehow everything went so smoothly. Gradually, things went fine between us, you considered me as a stranger while I considered you as my wife.

I am sorry if ever I hurt you if ever I couldn't understand you. I apologize if any time I have acted like a pervert. It was not easy for me to keep everything in me. You were with me and I was happy with it but it made me sad that we were so close yet so far.

Mom and Masi came all the way along to meet you, they were too happy. There's one more special person who loves you like hell, my cousin sister Neha. She may act like mad but she isn't, she is just way too carefree and silly"

He stopped speaking completing his part of the story while I am still in a dream. I am already married, I am Mrs Mishti Abir Rajvansh. I am a mother too!

"I am sorry" He presses his lips on my forehead as I take a long breath. Pulling out of the hug I stare into his eyes, it may be difficult for me because I have missed all the happiness of my life but he wasn't happy too! I am feeling this pain after knowing the truth and he always knew the truth then how much hurt he must be?

I at least don't remember spending time with him but he does remember so I know it wasn't easy for him.

"None of us should be sorry, it was in our fate and it happened. Let's forget and start everything afresh?" I smile keeping all the pain inside and I know Abir's love will vanish away all my pains.

"I Love You!" He exclaimed as he pulled me in a tight hug. My heart suddenly burst out with love, concern and peace at the same time. Love for his lovely words, concern for his tears falling on my shoulder, peace in his arms!

"I missed you a lot" He cried breaking down and I realized how much hurt he is, knowing nothing is different and knowing everything yet acting opposite is different.

With each passing second, I find him pulling me more into himself, I let him cry in my arms just like he let me cry in his arms. I move my hand on his back trying to calm him down.

Minutes later his phone rings, he pulls out wiping his tears. "Happy Anniversary, My wife!" He exclaimed smiling at me.

I raise my eyebrows not expecting this, "Happy Anniversary, My husband!" I add smiling and his face glowed with a charming smile.

"Your phone" I curtly nod at his pocket when his phone keeps ringing.

"That's not a call, that's alarm I had kept of 12, to wish you Anniversary" He chuckled as he turned off the alarm.

Before he loses his smile I chose a topic to keep him engaged with me and not let him go back to the times where he needed me and I couldn't be with him.

"How was I when we married?" I question out of curiosity.

"You were just like how you are now. But that time your favourite colour was black and white, now it's red." He chuckled, "You were a bossy type of wife"

"That I am always going to be." I lightly slap his arm.

"That is what I would always love to see you as." He pulled my cheek softly.

"Who are there in your family?" I enquired as the curiosity arises in me.

"It's our family, Mishti" He corrected me, "Nanu, Mom, Masi, Mama, Mami, Neha and Kunal. Then I, You and our kids"

"You tell me, how was our first night? Was I feeling shy shy types?" I giggle to myself thinking how beautiful that moment would have been.

"Hell no! You weren't any shy shy types" He rolled his eyes while I pout, "You had changed into some comfortable clothes and were reading some novel. I hoped we will at least have some normal conversation but when I asked you if we can chat for a while, your reply was like 'Kindly sleep, chatting feels good in mobiles'. I had no other option but to keep staring at you."

"I was so cute" I giggle to myself.

"Yeah! You still are!" Abir added with a wink.

"Anyway, dear husband, have you got some gift for me? It's our anniversary!" I raise my eyebrows getting excited.

"As of now, I am giving you myself as a gift. However, in the morning we'll celebrate our anniversary then you'll receive your gift" The smile on his smiles made me excited, what gift will it be?

"Now, let's go and sleep." Abir got up, I pulled him back while he sat on the swing giving me questioning look.

"I have said 'Goodbye' to my sleep and 'Hey' to Mr Abir Rajvansh." I eye his lips as I move close to him before placing my lips on his. He took a sharp breath still in shock. Expressing his love in the kiss he started responding, his hands roam around my body while my hands wrap around his neck.

We pull out to take a breath then Abir again captures my lips. My fingers run in his hairs, I gasp when his fingers slip inside my top. It wasn't needy it was all love, love and love.

"I Love You!" Pulling out I hug him tight.

He planted a small kiss on my forehead as he whispered, "I Love You, too and will always do"

I smile recalling all his promises to me, and I know he'll always be mine even in the coming future just like I'll always be his!

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