IF I SEE ANY HETEROPHOBIC COMMENTS THEN YOU’RE BEING REPORTED! none of yall wanna admit it but heterophobia is soooo prevalent in the gay community and there’s a weird mob mentality that every single last straight person is homophobic which is falseeee. saying tHe sTrAiGhTs rUiN eVeRyThInG is not funny at all and that shit needs to be nipped in the bud asap. (ani wanjeon copy)

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“Tae you don’t-”

“If I stop now, I don’t know if I'll have the courage to say it again.” Tae said. “Unless of course, you’re not comfortable hearing this.”

“No, no that’s not it. I just don’t want you to feel pressured to tell me anything.” Jeongguk explained.

“I want you to know. You deserve to know. Well, when I was 16, I came out to my parents. I-I'm actually bisexual you know, but they didn’t like the fact that I liked boys at all, and that kind of launched into a panic. They tried to force me into an arranged marriage, to ensure that I'd get married to a girl specifically; they didn’t wanna take any chances even though it was literally 50% 50%.”

“Wow that’s fucked up.”

“Tell me about it. I understand that their views were outdated and they were really misguided, but it still hurt, you know? A couple years passed and they found this one girl, Miyeon and I hated her immediately, but she had big boobs so I guess that was enough to convince my parents.

We got engaged when we were 18, but I managed to postpone the wedding with the excuse of focusing of school. My parents weren't too concerned about grandkids, but Miyeon was dead set on having a kid – a girl specifically. Obviously, my mum and dad were happy, and Miyeon was happy, but I wasn’t. A-And so I...I turned to drinking. I-It was stupid and I know it now and I knew it back then too, but I did it anyway. I would get shitfaced boarderline every single day, and pass out at night so I wouldn’t have to interact with anyone.”

“Jesus Christ. I'm so sorry you had to do that.” Jeongguk sympathised.

Taehyung smiled bitterly and continued, staring at the pond and refusing to look him in the eyes.

“Miyeon would pick me up from the floor and carry me to our bedroom. And I guess one time, she decided that she’d done enough to deserve a kid. We had argued about it the night before, and she...she took advantage of my state and...she raped me. I remember waking up and screaming at her to get off, but I was drunk and tired and she was twice my size anyway, so there was nothing I could do. I didn’t want it at all, but I was too scared and too weak to fight back effectively. And she got off and rolled over when it was done. Just went to sleep like she didn’t just fucking commit a crime.” Taehyung seethed. “I got up and vomited for an hour straight and she had the audacity, the fucking nerve to ask me what was wrong.

I was 21 when she had Yeonjun. Obviously he’s a boy, so Miyeon was livid. She refused to have anything to do with him, so I had to take care of him on my own, all while being the sole breadwinner too. I remember I came back from work one night, and I looked around the house and I couldn’t find him anywhere. I asked Miyeon where he was, and that stupid woman confidently told me she’d gotten rid of him. And not even in the way you’d expect, like in an adoption centre or somthing; she had put him in the bin.” Taehyung seethed, fists clenching at his sides.

“She fucking what!?” Jeongguk exclaimed.

“That was my response too. She’d picked him up and put him in the fucking bin, because he was a boy. And I just wonder why, if she was so dead set on wanting a girl, why she waited until the birth to
find out the gender, instead of finding out earlier on in the pregnancy and we could’ve avoided the entire situation? I picked up Junnie, all bruised and cold from the bin outside, and I just fucking left. I really couldn’t do it anymore. I packed my shit in the middle of the night and just left that pitiful life behind.

I barely had anything for myself and Yeonjun; just some nappies and a couple bottles and a few changes of clothes. I didn’t have a plan, so I couldn’t take everything.”

“Jesus christ that sounds so awful. I’m sorry you had to go through that.”

“It wasn’t so bad, because Yoongi was there for us. He just upped and left his whole life behind, just to come with us, a-and I’m so grateful for him. Everything I have today is because of him and his friendship and kindness. And Bogum too. I met him in a supermarket when I moved house, and he’s been so supportive in my life too. He was such a reliable friend that I felt that I could ignore his advances and still maintain friendship. He helped me buy my shop and helped me out when I had no employees too. He also takes care of Yeonjun when I can’t. I know I’ll never be able to pay him back for all that he’s done for me. A-and you too, Gukkie. I know I didn’t really show it with my stupid and immature actions, but I’m happy you’re here for me and Junnie. It really means a lot.” Tae said sincerely.

“I’m so sorry that you’ve had such a hard life, Tae. But I’m glad you now have people who can be there for you. Including me. I’m sorry about Hoseok and the complete shitshow of a first date we had, but my feelings for you are still strong and I want to continue to be with you and Junnie for a long time. I want to be the one you two rely on. Not Bogum or anyone else. Just me.”

“Oh Guk-"

Taehyung’s phone rings and cuts them off effectively. He answers the phone call reluctantly:

“Hello?”

“Hey Tae, sorry to interrupt your date, but I have some bad news.”

“What’s wrong?”

“Yeonjunnie threw up.”

“Oh shit.”

“He did mention he felt sick but I figured he’d sleep it off. I’ve changed his clothes and cleaned him up, but he’s still frazzled about the whole thing.”

“I’ll come pick him up. I’ll be there in maybe 30 minutes? Traffic dependant.”

“Okay then. I’ll pack his stuff up.”

“Thanks, Mirae. Sorry for the inconvenience.”

“No worries, Tae. I’ll see you soon.”

“Bye.”

The phone call ends and Taehyung sighs.

“Gukkie, I’m sorry but I have to go. Junnie's been sick.” He explained apologetically.

“Oh dear. Is he okay?”

“He should be fine. Maybe I’ll keep him off school tomorrow. I’m really sorry that I’m abandoning our date.” Tae said sadly. “I was having a really great time with you.”

Jeongguk smiled warmly and leaned forwards to link their hands together gently together.

“Don’t worry about it, Tae. I had a great time too.” He holds Taehyung’s hands a little tighter and smiles, looking like he was thinking about something, some sort of mental debate.

“What’s wrong?” Tae asks, picking up on it almost immediately.

Jeongguk shakes his head and smiles.His eyes flicker down to Taehyung's lips and then back to his eyes.

“Nothing.” He replies, biting his lip slowly.

Taehyung nods and smiles, stepping away from Guk.

“I guess I should go then. Let's do this again.” He smiles, waving at Jeongguk before turning around leaving back the way they came.

I should’ve fucking kissed him. Jeongguk thinks to himself as he kicks a rock lying beside his feet. He was so pretty and sweet and the date was going so well and I literally just blew my shot. He sighs, deciding to stay outside for a little while longer, before also turning around and heading back to his car.

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Taehyung holds his son’s hand as they leave Namjoon’s house, helping him into the car and buckling his seatbelt up.

“Do you still feel like throwing up, Junnie?” Tae asks on the drive home.

“No. Not anymore. I'm tired now, Daddy.” Yeonjun yawns. “My tummy hurts.”

“I’ll give you some medicine when we get home, and you can sleep in my bed today, how does that sound?”

Taehyung looks in the rear-view mirror and sees his son smiling tiredly. 15 minutes pass and they make it back home safely, Taehyung bathing his son and helping him with his teeth before tucking them both safely into bed. Yeonjun’s nightlight was plugged into the wall, and the room was bathed in a warm yellow glow.

Jun was fast asleep now, after he had made himself comfortable, sprawled out on Tae’s chest. Taehyung, on the other hand, was not sleepy, and was currently on the phone with Jeongguk, texting each other silly messages. The white light of the screen, illuminated his face and happy smile as the conversation with Jeongguk flowed easily.

They texted for hours, like two lovesick teenagers, and before they eventually called it a night, Jeongguk had one more question to ask him.

Gukkie 😚💜
Did you enjoy our date tonight? Bc I had lots of fun with you

😊 TaeTae 😊
I had a great time too, guk.
I havent felt so carefree in a long time.

Gukkie 😚💜
That’s great to hear. I like seeing you smile and making you happy.

😊TaeTae😊
You're such a smooth talker. 🤣

Gukkie 😚💜
I'm serious lmfao.
In fact, my next question literally proves it

😊TaeTae😊
I'm all ears

Gukkie 😚💜
You wanna go out with me again?
Second date?

😊TaeTae😊
Are you fucking serious?
I thought that was implied 😭😭

Gukkie😚💜
😭😭
This is so fucking embarrassing

😊TaeTae😊
NO LMFAO IT WAS CUTE DW
I  would love to!!! 😚😚

Gukkie 😚💜
Naaaaahhh I'm far to embarrassed now

😊TaeTae😊
Gukkieeeee
Literally what did you think "lets do this again" meant
😭

Gukkie 😚💜
I was a bit too distracted so I didn't even hear that 😭

😊TaeTae😊
🤣🤣

Gukkie 😚💜
Where do u wanna go next?

😊TaeTae😊
Idk
Where do u wanna go

Gukkie 😚💜
No clue
Oh btw how is Junnie doing? I hope he's feeling better.

😊TaeTae😊
He's okay now.
He's actually sleeping rn

Gukkie 😚💜
What a cute little man.
Haven't seen that little rascal in a whileee

😊TaeTae😊
😅
U wanna come over some time and see him?

Gukkie 😚💜
WHAT IF HE COMES ON OUR SECOND DATE

😊TaeTae😊
?

Gukkie 😚💜
We could go to Disney Land or some shit.
Smth kid friendly so we can all hang out

😊TaeTae😊
That's so cute omg :(

Gukkie 😚💜
I wanna see both of you in the mickey head band 🥺

😊TaeTae😊
Hahahaha
When do you wanna go?

Gukkie 😚💜
Saturday in 2 weeks?
I've got work all next week 😭🔫

😊TaeTae😊
Works for me 😊
Not like Junnie has anywhere to be anyway 🤣

Gukkie 😚💜
🤣🤣🤣
I've got work in the morning so I'll call you tomorrow, okay?

😊TaeTae😊
Okie

Gukkie 😚💜
Goodnight cutie ❤

😊TaeTae😊
Goodnight Jeonggukie ❤
Thanks for such a wonderful date 😚

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Sorry for the very long wait but I genuinely have 0 time for writing rn so there will have to be another long wait again. Please check out my other books too!

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