(TW— as it gets to the shower scene it involves mention and actions of a type of self harm) ————

we're under the covers, his hand on my stomach, my back to his chest and my body between his legs. possible the best way i could ever wake up, i always spend the night with oliver, well, mostly. only on a few occasions i dont. it was six am meaning i was awake a little earlier than normal. my alarm goes off at 6:05, it would normally wake ollie up. i would try and stop it since he always slept in a lot longer than i did so i always felt bad. he wakes up at around 7:30 he has an hour to get ready since school starts at 8:30, but i need the 3 hours to get ready (at least). i slid out of his grip and got out of bed, throwing some of his grey sweats on and moving to his desk , putting red lipstick on and writing him a note

"morning oli! didnt want to wake you so im leaving you this, neville will probably read this before you so hey neville :) ill see you in the great hall in 3 hours. i love you oh so much. </3"

-kissing the note, leaving a red kiss mark in the corner.

i pulled the covers back over him and kissed him on the forehead leaving a kiss mark on the middle, whispering "see you later lovely" shutting the door quietly behind me.

i made my way down to the showers by the ravenclaw dorms. the girls section was empty which i was always glad for. i shoved my bag and robe into my locker and went into one of the stalls. olis sweats fell off my hips onto the shower floor, i pulled his shirt off over my head, folding the clothes up and putting them on a shelf in the stall. that had left me in my bra and underwear on. i unclasped my bra and got fully undressed, turning the shower on so it was steaming and practically boiling. i stepped under the water watching my skin turn red and irritated. i kept the temperature at the same level and washed my hair through.

i finished up my shower, drying myself off and getting changed, putting my fishnets on, pulled them up to my waistline, followed by my skirt. i buttoned up my shirt not bothering to tuck it in and put my tie round my neck, not tying it at all.

i grabbed my cloak from my locker along with my bag walking up to mine, luna's and cho's dorm. "im backk" i yelled, knowing they'd both be awake
"oh hi y/n! i see you've been in the showers already, how are you?"

luna and cho knew about the slight "obsession" i had, it wasnt an obsession, well it was. i relieved pain and thats what i though of it, so, we called it an obsession. oliver knew too. non of them could do anything to stop it for obvious reasons. "yeah, im all good, how are you guys"

"we're both good, you sure you're okay tho" cho had asked, arms out hugging me, luna soon joining us. 
"its 6:30 i should probably start doing my makeup"

i sat down at my desk pulling out my makeup bag and mirror. turning my ring light on and doing my everyday makeup. i had re useable ice packs in my top draw for times like this. my wrists had blistered from the hot water. i grabbed one out shaking it to active leaning my wrists on them.

"were gonna go down to the hall early, we'll see you there okay," cho put her hands on my shoulders rubbing them slightly
"kk, ill see you down there, love you guys"

about an hour later i had finished getting ready, hair and makup, by now it was 7:30.

i left my dorm throwing my bag over my shoulder and grabbing my keys, shutting the door behind me.
i made my way down almost every set of moving stairs before finally reaching the floor and getting to the great hall. i sat on the ravenclaw table, sitting backwards on the seat so i was facing mione and ginny (at the tables in order of  hufflepuff, ravenclaw, gryffindor, slytherin)