" I wanna ask something is that okay? " Hyunjin asked and of course Seungmin didn't mind.

" Sure. "

Suddenly Hyunjin hesitated and fell silent for a few second.

" Hyunjin? Are you still there? "

" Ah. Yes yes. " Hyunjin answered. He was still thinking would it be better for him not to ask, but he was really curious. Because he doesn't want Seungmin to keep anything from him, just wanted to be a closer friends with him. So hopes that Seungmin could really rely on him.

" I'm still thinking about something. Something you said when you first came here. You said something about being left in the snow... " Hyunjin started.

" I'm still curious about that. " Hyunjin said and Seungmin didn't show any respond. He wonder if Seungmin fell asleep but he finally answered.

" That's not really necessary. Just forget about it. " That was the only answer Hyunjin got but he was not giving up. So Hyunjin came up with another type of question.

" Where's your parents? Where's your family? " Hyunjin asked. Another question that he had been wanting to ask. He was expecting Seungmin to answered him with a cold attitude or maybe he'll be a bit pissed, but instead he heard him chuckled.

" Why are you so curious about someone's life? " Seungmin asked back and Hyunjin was trying to think of an answer but Seungmin didn't even let him answer.

" Well. Long story short they left me on Christmast Day. At midnight when it was snowing and nobody even cared to help. How did i survive? I'm asking the same question. " Seungmin answered. Hyunjin wondered how could he always talk in such a calm attitude, especially when the topic is sensitive like this one.

" They did what? " Hyunjin widen his eyes. He was surprised more than anything. He got a feeling about Seungmin keeping something from him but he never knew that it is something as bad as this.

" Hey. Don't be so surprised. Christmas is not for everyone. " Seungmin said. Tone still sounding very calm. To be honest, Hyunjin hated that. He hated how he can still be this calm after what happened. As if it's all normal. It's feels like talking to Seungmin's mask.

" I'm sorry.. I never thought it'll be about something like that.. " Hyunjin said. He was feeling a bit bad after asking that and making Seungmin tell him about his past.

" That's why i don't believe in those bullshit. Family, friends, and lover. Those are temporary. They'll all leave you at one day. "

Again with the calm tone. Hyunjin played his blanket with his finger as he bit his bottom lips, feeling nervous.

" So.. just don't.. put your hopes up when someone starts to become close to you... You never know when will they leave. "

Hyunjin blinked. Seungmin's voice just cracked when he said the word 'leave'. Then Hyunjin heard a sob, definitely coming from Seungmin because there was only the two of them in the room.

" Seungmin..? "

" Goodnight. "

That was the only thing Hyunjin heard before both of them fell silent until the next morning.

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The next day, Seungmin acted like nothing happened. The cafe was not as crowded as it was a day before but they still got customers. Seungmin does acted like nothing happened but Hyunjin could feel Seungmin kept avoiding him. Christmas will be tomorrow and if Hyunjin doesn't fix this situation then they will be super awkward.

Because on Christmas day, usually they would exchange gifts. The members bought their own gifts. And then they would play a little game to decide who will get who's present. They never really cared about what they get but simply playing the game and seeing the members sometimes gets excited about what they get is fun to watch.

And Hyunjin didn't want to spent this year's Christmas exchange gift feeling awkward and bad just because him and Seungmin is not in a good mood.

They closed the cafe earlier that day because they wanted to go out to buy gift together and meet up to eat in the fast food restaurant like they promised Woojin. Because Woojin had been cravings for chicken for days now and won't shut up about it. They all clean the cafe together. Hyunjin kept looking for an opportunity to talk to Seungmin without having the other members hear them.

And it's almost like the god just heard his prayer. Seungmin walked into the kitchen when everyone was not in there. Hyunjin looked around before entering the kitchen as well. He caught Seungmin looked at him before quickly looking away. Seungmin was doing the dishes. Hyunjin approached him and coughed.

" Um.. so... How are you? " Hyunjin asked and Seungmin laughed.

" What? Have we just met or something? " He asked while smiling. But Hyunjin knew it was all just an acting.

" I want to apologize about what happened last night. I really didn't mean to brought up bad memories like that. " Hyunjin said and Seungmin only let out another laugh.

" Hyunjin i think you're drunk or something. " Seungmin said with a smile but Hyunjin could only sense pain instead of happiness. He grabbed Seungmin's hand and looked at him in the eyes.

" No. I remember everything. Clearly. " Hyunjin said. Seungmin could sense how serious he was. His smile dropped but his expression was still strong. Hyunjin really can't break the wall that Seungmin built for himself.

" Stay here. Stay with us. We're family and we will never leave you. We will stay together until the end. " Hyunjin said, voice sounding very gentle. They both looked at each other for a while before Seungmin smiled. He shook his head and pulled his hand away.

" Don't make a promise like that. It'll make you feel bad when you're going to break it one day. " He said before washing his hands and left.

" Oh. Mind washing the dishes for me? Because me and Felix are going earlier to buy our gifts. " He said before shutting the door close, didn't even let Hyunjin answer. Hyunjin looked at the dirty plates before sighing.

" Sure. "

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The members were in the restaurant already except for Minho and Hyunjin. At first they said they will wait for them but then Woojin said he wanted to go in first because he was so hungry already so they all did.

Jisung watched as Woojin finished his 5th chicken.

" Didn't you ate four chickens already? " Jisung asked while looking at him with a fake-disgusted face.

" Five. " Woojin said before smiling. Chan just smiled brightly as he gave Woojin his soda.

" Eat as much as you want. " Chan said as he finish his 4th burger.

The other members can't understand how these two can eat that much but they just smiled anyway. They both always seems very happy when they eat so they don't mind. Seungmin too seemed to be enjoying his food too but he zoned out a few times that Felix questioned him but Seungmin told him everything's okay.

After a few moment, Hyunjin and Minho finally arrived and Hyunjin tired his best not to set off a weird atmosphere between him and Seungmin. Minho sat beside Changbin and Hyunjin sat beside Minho, right across Felix and Seungmin. But just like what Hyunjin expected, Seungmin didn't even looked at him.

" You guys started without us! So mean! " Minho said while whining, pretending to be pouting. He wrapped his arms around Hyunjin's arms while leaning on his shoulder.

" Let's go get ourselves food then baby~ " Minho said to Hyunjin and Hyunjin could only rolled his eyes as the other members laughed. It is something usual for Minho to do, he loves being playful like this. Then Hyunjin felt like Seungmin was looking at them but when he look at him, he quickly narrowed his gaze again.

Hyunjin tried shaking it off and walked away with Minho to get themselves food. They took awhile before they walked back to their seat with their food while most of the members was already finish with their food. Minho and Hyunjin started eating. Minho taked to other member as he does while Felix talked to Hyunjin.

" Hyunjin. Do you know this is the first time Seungmin eat a fast food? " Felix asked. Hyunjin nodded while giving him a smile.

" Of course i do. " He said while looking at Seungmin who just stared at his burger before taking another bite.

" He really love it! This is his second burger hahaha. " Felix said while looking at Seungmin happily eating his burgers. Then, Felix saw there was sauce at the corner of Seungmin's lips. Felix took the tissue and cleaned it for him.

" You're like a kid. " He said before chuckling and Seungmin giggled.

" Thank you. " He said with a smile.

Hyunjin watched the short scene that happened in front of him and there's something in him that just don't like to see it that much. So he too, just stared at his food and eat them without looking at the other two. After finishing eating and chatting they all take a bus together and arrived home. It was pretty late already but Seungmin told Felix that he wanted to stay at Felix's room for a while but Felix told him that he should stay with Hyunjin and jokingly said that Hyunjin would feel lonely without him while he actually promised Changbin that they will watch movie together on his laptop. Just the two of them. Jeongin even decided to stay with Minho and Chan for the night.

Seungmin ended up in Hyunjin's room and was ready to sleep on the floor but Hyunjin knew him well so he kept everything so there was nothing on the floor. Because Seungmin was acting like everything's okay in the first place, he decided that it's fine to sleep on the bed. So he changed into his pajamas and laid down at the other side of the bed. Trying to get himself as far away as possible from Hyunjin.

Hyunjin could only sighed and turned off the light. He then walked back to his bed and and laid down beside Seungmin. Seungmin still got his back facing Hyunjin. Seungmin tried shutting his eyes close but for some reason he couldn't fall asleep. He really can't bare it knowing Hyunjin was behind him. He was not completely angry at him now, but he just felt awkward. He shut his eyes close once again but Hyunjin interrupted his attempt.

" Don't get too close to the other member. "

This time Hyunjin sounded cold. The weird feeling that Hyunjin got ever since they were in the restaurant won't leave him alone. It's like he's angry, but he couldn't really explain it.

" Why? "

" Just don't. " Hyunjin glared at his back. He recall the scene over and over again in his head when Felix and Seungmin was smiling at each other and how Felix took care of him. It made his heart beats faster and his hand gripped onto nothing.

" I asked why. " Seungmin repeated himself and his calm tone just got Hyunjin feel like he wanted to beat someone so bad. He was too busy gritting his teeth, holding back his anger that he didn't answer Seungmin.

" Well if you don't have any reason then don't tell me what to do. " Seungmin said.

Hyunjin groaned and he bet Seungmin heard that. It's frustrating. He wanted Seungmin to stay away from the other but he didn't know why. All he got in mind was he was the person who had been taking care of Seungmin until now and seeing Felix taking care of Seungmin. He just felt like he didn't want to be replaced. He want to be the one who will always be taking care of Seungmin.

Oh...
How can he be so clueless?

" If you're done. I'm going to sleep. " Seungmin said and Hyunjin finally sighed.

" You wanna know why? " Hyunjin asked and waited for Seungmin's response. But he didn't. Well, Hyunjin didn't need that anyway because he'll still say it even if Seungmin didn't want to hear it.

Hyunjin became calmer now that he realized what feeling that was.

It was...

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