I headed to the lounge by myself to get some breakfast with the other members. Jimin was sleepy and didn't want breakfast so I let him rest some more as it was early in the morning. I didn't sleep much... I wasn't able to fall asleep with all these thoughts flowing through my mind of what just had happened between me and Jungkook. That, as well as the guilt that rushed over me just as Jungkook had left the room.
Jimin and I still weren't together together. Yes we were maybe acting like we were, but we both agreed it was too soon to put a title on anything. Still I had the worst taste in my mouth.

Jin and Yoongi were the only ones sitting at the breakfast table as I entered the room, "Good morning."

"Morning." Jin said while munching on some fruit. Yoongi looked up from his computer and waved at me.

"Already working from the morning?" I questioned and sat down next to Yoongi across from Jin after grabbing a bowl.

"Mhmm." He grumbled in response.

"And what are you doing?" I shifted my attention from the computer screen to Jin, who was just starring at his food.

He slowly moved his eyes from his bowl of fruit to mine, "Enjoying this food." He said and pointed to the food on the table.

"I see." I laughed and leant closer to Yoongi to look at his screen and squinted my eyes, "What are you working on?"

"Um... I don't know if I should tell you but it has..." He started, but his voice fainted as Jungkook entered the room and flashbacks of last night flooded through my head.

"...That's it." Yoongi finished, still focused on his screen.

"Sure, okay." I said my eyes fixed on Jungkook. He went to the kitchen to grab a bowl too. He didn't once look at me until he sat down next to Jin, but it was just a quick glance.

"Morning Hyung." He said and patted Jin on the back.

I kept looking at Jungkook, seeking his attention cause I wanted to talk to him about the night. But when he looked at me, he just looked away again as if nothing had happened.

"Jungkook where were you last night?" Jin started and I unintentionally started coughing, making everyones eyes land on me.

"I've woken up in the middle of the night the past few days and while you've been my roommate, your bed has been empty almost each time." Jin continued got the attention again.

He's been in the lounge every night? What is he doing there..

Jungkook just shrugged and grabbed some chopsticks and began eating.

"Jungkook... can I talk to you?" I asked low-voiced and shy of asking that question.

"Later, I'm eating." He answered without giving me one single glance.

"Fine." I sighed and grabbed a watermelon slice.

"Jungkook we should talk about last night." I said after dragging him into a room with me after being patient enough.

"Talk about what?" He said and pulled his arm from my grip.

How is he so cold

"We need to talk about-" I started annoyed, but stopped as my shyness hit.

"You know we.." I hesitated.

"Kissed?" Jungkook finished my sentence.

I nodded, looking at the ground from shyness.

"I just don't want the others to know yet.." I mumbled.

"It was just a kiss." He shrugged and while getting relieved I also felt like it hurt... that kiss made me feel something Jimin's haven't... it felt more right.

He turned around and headed out of the room.

"You're not like the Jungkook in my dreams." It slipped out of my mouth a little too loud.

Shit

I planted my hand in front of my mouth, but breathed out in relieve as he kept walking out the door and didn't hear.

Just after the door closed my phone buzzed from my back pocket.

"Unknown number?" I mumbled to myself and picked up the phone.

"Min Haru, you need to come home right now!"

"Dad?"

"I'm serious Haru! How dare you leave your mom and I like we were no one!"

"Leave!? I'm coming home soon dad, didn't mom show you my message?"

"You're not old enough to fend for yourself, you're just a kid!"

"Like you even care!"

"You never cared about me! Don't start now."

"I want you home by Sunday Haru."

"I can't!"

"I'll mail the school that you'll be back on Monday."

"Do you even listen to what I'm saying!?"

"I won't come home, ever!"

"I hate you!"

"Haru if you're not home by Sunday, you're not my daughter anymore!"

"It was never my choice to be your daughter anyway!"

I hung up, threw my phone at the floor and collapsed onto the couch behind me. I laid still for a few seconds, trying to comprehend what just happened.

"I hate him!" I then screamed. Tears started streaming down my cheeks and I grabbed a pillow to mute my weeping. I cooled down a bit and the feeling of emptiness was left in my body.

"What am I gonna do after this tour?" I mumbled despaired into the pillow.

Where will I go?

"Haru?" A soft voice asked, followed up by a knock on the door.

I looked up and when my eyes met Jimin's I couldn't hold them in... the tears started streaming again and I got up from the couch to get a hug. He clenched his arms around me as I felt like I broke down in his arms.

What about my mom? Am I ever gonna see her again?

Jimin held me tight and comforted me - just what I needed.

But not what I deserve...

"Do you want to talk about it?" Jimin questioned softly and pulled away to look at my face. I shook my head and leant into him again.

"I don't want you to look at me like this." I said while hiding my red face in his chest.

"Haru, you're beautiful. Even when you cry." He caressed my hair, a encouraging smile on his face making a small one appear on mine as well.

Nope...I definitely don't deserve this..

"Now, what's wrong?" He said softly and walked over to the couch, still with me clenching myself to his body and sat down.

I shook my head, not able to form words, feeling a new stream of tears coming.

"It's okay." He soothed me and let me wet his shirt with my tears.

I'm so lucky to have him

Jungkook's POV

As I closed the door behind me I stopped and zoned out.

"I'm not like the Jungkook in her dreams?" I repeated her words to myself, bewildered by what she meant.

A ringing phone woke me from thoughts. I shrugged and was gonna head to my own room, but stopped as I heard her insecure small voice from the room I had just left.

"Dad?"

Oh it's just her dad... never mind.

I was gonna head away again but stopped again, now as I heard her yelling.

"Like you even care!"

I probably shouldn't be listening to this...

"You never cared about me! Don't start now." Her voice cracked as she yelled into the phone.

Wow that's harsh

"I can't!"

Can't what?

"Do you even listen to what I'm saying!?"

"I won't come home, ever!" She yelled and I heard her sniffling.

What is this about?

"I hate you!" Her voice cracked again as the words left her mouth. A short silence hit and the sound of her small feet walking back and forth was the only thing I heard for a while.

"It was never my choice to be your daughter anyway!" She yelled and something was thrown on the ground with a bump.

My heart pierced, hearing Haru sound so broken.

This... Is she okay? I don't want her to be this upset.. should I go comfort her?

I grabbed the handle but then my motion stopped.

I shouldn't...

I went to Jimin and Haru's room to get Jimin. Just before I knocked on the door, I took a deep breath and pulled myself together.

"Hyung, your girl is crying, I can't focus." I said with no emotion.

"What happened? Where is she??" Jimin asked worried and got up from the bed.

I pointed down the hallway, "Yoongi and Namjoon's room." and off he went.

I hope he'll comfort her...