(A/N I don't like this pov pic but it'll change later so ;))

She.

She did it.

No.

I really thought she wouldn't. But she did it.

I trusted her, even if that wasn't the best idea. But she... she told everyone. She showed everyone.

"Man, really?" Jack punches my shoulder and I sigh. "Just leave me, okay?"

I walk away, my whiskey still in my hand. Groaning, I drink it in one sip and grip it so fast it breaks. "Fuck," I curse. 

Everything's falling apart.

Because of Willow.

I walk to my car, leaving this fucking party. A few guys are laughing at me, but I ignore them, even though it takes some strength to not punch their stupid faces.

But I promised her. I don't fucking know why I keep that promise when she clearly broke it, but I do. 

Why? No fucking idea.

A ping breaks my thoughts.

Willow: Where r u?

I narrow my eyes at the text. Don't fucking act like you care.

Me: Somewhere I cant see ur fucking face. Stay away from me

Willow: R u really mad? For this?

My eyes widen. Duh. She just threw out my biggest secret on a party with the whole school and I can't be mad?

Me: No. I loved it

I roll my eyes and slide it back in my pocket. Bitch. I let my head rest on the steering wheel. 

Why did she do this?

What did I ever do to her?

Okay that's not the best question.

She didn't had the rights. 

A few tears roll down my cheeks. Fuck. I'm crying like a fucking loser. But I am a loser.

I didn't even deny it. I couldn't. She showed everyone the video. Everyone was laughing. At least Jack tried to hide it. Still.

I'm not even gonna get her back. I'll leave it like this. It's done. I'm done fighting her. I don't care she wins. I don't want to have anything to do with her anymore.

I start the car and drive home. I keep thinking about her face. How her face twisted from proud to... I don't know what it was. Does she feel sorry?

Probably not.

She hates me. I don't even know why. 

Maybe she hated me from the first moment we met.

Or maybe she hates me since I left her out when I stole her brother. Was it that moment that decided my life would be ruined? Because I stole her brother?

Fuck.

I never saw it like this. I stole her brother, who she was always close to, and left her out. That's why she's been always alone. 

This is my fault.

I park on the side of the road, realization kicking in me. I grab my head. No. 

As soon as I found out she hated me, I hated her too. I didn't even know why. Now I get it. She was jealous. 

Should I turn?

Tell her I'm sorry for... everything?

No.

I just cried because of her. I'm not facing her right now. I have to figure this out.

Soon.