Sweet creature | Tomorrow isn't always promised

Enjoy the now. 

- Unknown

Serenity

I was upset. Upset at the fact that I pushed Kai away this morning, and let grief take over me. What was up with me? I never got upset over things like that, at least not anymore. And poor Kai. I had pushed him out without even a proper goodbye, again, something I had never done before. I wasn't myself today.

"You're up early" The sudden sound of my mothers voice peeks into my ears. I turn around quickly like a child being taught stealing a cookie off a plate.

"Did you sleep down here?" Mother questioned, curiously. Observing my lack of unchanged clothes from the night before.

"Yeah," I lie quickly, heading for the stairs to avoid any conversation. I wasn't in the mood to talk. "I'll talk to you later mom. Have a good day at work" I say quickly, dismissing her with a quick wave before heading up the stairs.

Inside my bathroom I observe myself. My hair was wild, and bags began to appear due to lack of sleep. I take a quick whiff of myself and decide to shower. Quickly I run the shower, letting the water warm up before I hopped in. Once hot, I step in. Quickly washing my hair and my body and everything else that needed washing. After 5 short minutes I turn the water off, opening up the shower curtain and stepping out. Thankfully the rugs in my bathroom saved me from feeling the chill of the bathroom floor. I don't remove my towel from my body, because it gave me a satisfying sensation of warmth. I pull out my tooth brush, about to start brushing when the sudden red drops of blood began to fall from my face.

Was I bleeding?

Quickly looking up in the mirror I see it then. The massive nose bleed that was beginning to develop. I drop my toothbrush urgently, grabbing some tissue that was nearby and pulling it to my nose. I tilt my head back quickly, and apply pressure to my nose.

Odd.

I never get nosebleeds.

Suddenly faintness began to hit me like a brick, causing me to drop to the bathroom floor. I felt like I was going to pass out. Just as I was growing concern the bathroom door swung open.

"Serenity??" Luke says, quickly coming to my side in a heartbeat. "Hey are you okay?"

"I'm fine. Just a little dizzy that's all" My voice was shaky as the dizziness began to settle as quickly as it came.

"And your nose?"

"It just started to bleed out of nowhere" I clarify, finally coming to my feet after the nausea had finally passed.

The room suddenly felt stuffy. Maybe it was the heat from the shower, or maybe I was just overheating that caused the bleed.

"Should I take you to the hospital?" Luke questions, his voice in a pit of concern.

I shake my head quickly.

"Don't be ridiculous, it's just a little nose bleed , it's not like I'm dying or anything" I laugh at the thought. Playing off the concern with a smile as I turn back to Luke with dismissive eyes.

"What?" He questions, oblivious.

I look down at my bright pink towel that wrapped around my body awkwardly. Not needing to say a word, but hoping he would realize without words. Luke cleared his throat in realization, picking up on the gesture and apologized quickly.

"Oh right - Sorry. If you need anything I'll be right here behind the door - well not like standing behind the door waiting for you like some peeping Tom but, well you get what I'm trying to say"

"I get it" I clarify, giggling at him now.

With one last look of embarrassment Luke exits the bathroom, leaving me alone.

I smile down at the sink, letting the worries of my nose bleed and dizziness disappear from my thoughts before continuing with what I had been doing prior. I scrub my teeth, and finish getting ready for the day.

•••

At school, I find an empty parking space in the student parking lot, and head for the familiar building with the giant double doors, on a mission to find to Kai and apologize. It's only been a few hours since our departure this morning, and I was missing him. I walk past the usual group of teenagers that stood idly by in the parking lot, talking and laughing amongst themselves, with my head down and my eyes focused on my own path. As I walked past the group I couldn't help but catch sight of Noah. A face I hadn't seen in awhile, that's become so unfamiliar to me in a way. A voice I hadn't heard in weeks. I've forgotten the way his voice sounded. His glorious blue eyes sweep my own. His eyes talked the words "I miss you" without Noah having to utter a single word. Guilty - I look past him, letting my eyes fall back to the ground as I continue my walk.

"Hey Serenity, wait up" The calm voice of Aubrey White calls out to me. I slow my pace as she catches up with me. I smile a friendly grin, in sight of her, she smiles back.

"Hey Aubrey, " I greet kindly "what's up?"

"Nothing much......everyone's just been talking about the big Halloween dance that the school is throwing tomorrow night. Everyone is so excited about it." Aubrey Exclaims, with her own exciting tone of enthusiasm. 

I pull my eyebrows together, puzzled. 

Was it Halloween weekend already? Wow time was moving fast.

"That's tomorrow night?" I question, Mentally counting the days in my head, trying to figure out where had all the days gone. 

"Yeah- everyone's been talking about it for weeks...but I guess you've been busy with Kai that you haven't noticed" Aubrey says, her tone sour with sad eyes to match.

I remain silent for a moment. Aubrey was right. It's been so long since I've talked to her, or anybody else besides Kai for that matter. We've been so consumed with each other that I had completely forgotten that anybody else existed. Other people just never seemed to become a factor when Kai was around. Was that obvious?

"Sorry if I offended you. It's just, I've missed you Serenity and-"

"I'm not offended Aubrey," I say honestly "you're right. Ive just been,"

"In love. I get it. It happens to the best of us"

Did it really? Was this how everyone acted when they were in love? Consumed by it, driven by the satisfaction of their partners? Incapable of seeing anything else in the world? I'm sure the world could have turned into dust, and aliens could have invaded the planet and all I would still notice, and care about is Kai. Kai and I were definitely in love, practically head over heels for each other, like every stereo-typed love struck teenage couple, Kai and I were no exception to the standards, maybe even worse. Was that even healthy? The attachment. The obsession. 

"Well how about I go tomorrow, to this dance" I say, meeting Aubrey's sad eyes. I watch as her blue light up with overjoy, a grin now being worn like a flattering dress on her beautiful face.

"Really?!! You'd seriously come?!"

"Will you be there?" I question, excited now at the idea.

"Yeah, but the only downside is,  I don't have a date. Everyone in the group pretty much has someone and then there's me" Aubrey states. I frown.  Would Aubrey be the only one without a date to this Halloween party?

I ponder at the problem, trying to come up with solutions in my head. What if I invited Aubrey to come with Kai and I, would she mind 3rd wheeling or would that be awkward? I know it beats showing up at a school dance with a group of kids and you being the only one without a date, but still. Did it make it any better? Then it hit me. Luke! Luke wouldn't be leaving until Sunday night anyways. He would totally be down to attending, especially with somebody as pretty as Aubrey. It was the perfect plan, and I was playing match maker.

"I think I have someone you can go with" I say, pulling out my phone to show Aubrey a picture of Luke. I hope he was her type, but I mean Luke was beautiful with his chiseled jawline, and perfect luscious curly hair.

"Who?" Aubrey questions curiously

I show her a picture of Luke and watch as her eyes light up.

"Damn Serenity, where'd you find him at?" Aubrey gasps, mesmerized.

"He's an old friend, and I know he'll be pleased to accommodate you tomorrow night, if you want"

"Yea I want. He's hot"

I giggle. My eyes look up, and automatically notices Kai waiting at my locker for me. I turn to Aubrey.

"Come to my house tomorrow at 5pm? We'll all go together okay?" I question, confirming our plans.

"Okay, see you then" She exclaims, beaming ear to ear as she walks away.

I reach Kai before Aubrey was even out of sight, and hand by his side.

"Hi you" I greet, getting on my tippy toes to meet him with a kiss. He makes the transaction easier, swooping me in his arms and pulling me up to kiss me. The kiss was sweet, but odd. Something was missing from it. I couldn't put my finger on it.

"Hi" he says, his husky voice melting my skin like usual.

"So," I begin "I was thinking that tomorrow night, if you're up for it that me, you, Aubrey, and Luke could attend the Halloween dance together" I pitch the idea, watching Kai's eyes as the words leave my mouth.

His eyes were the same, but something in them was different. Something distance, kinda like the old him.

"That should be fine, but I really need to talk to you about something" he says, his voice disturbed and his eyes haunted by something.

"What?" I question quickly, suddenly worried by the seriousness of his tone.

He pulls his hands throw his hair, sighing with exhausted eyes.

"After the dance okay?"

I shake my head.

"No, what is it?"

"It's nothing - nothing that can't wait. I don't want to ruin tomorrow night for you. I want to have one last good night with you before things get complicated between us"

I remain silent. Confused by his words. What did he mean 'before things get complicated between us' was he breaking up with me? What was this? What did he even mean? I began to feel my heart beat out of my chest , going at a speed that I've never felt before. Only the feeling of his arms wrapped around me could calm me down. And that still didn't fully stop my heart from racing.

"Hey hey, it's okay - you look like you're gonna pass out"

"I feel like I'm going to pass out" I clarify.

"It's nothing Serenity, I promise"

"Then if it's no big deal then why won't you tell me now" I demanded.

"Because I want tomorrow night to be perfect for you. This can wait, okay?" He questions, still holding onto me tightly.

I decide to let it go. Whatever it was it would simply just have to wait. I'm not sure what exactly to expect to happen, but he owed me an explanation, and if that meant tomorrow then so be it. But tomorrow was all I was willing to wait.

"Fine, tomorrow."