Sweet creature | Chance or Choice.

We must take risks.
We will only understand
The miracle of life fully
When we allow the unexpected
To happen.

Paulo Coelho

Serenity

I've never felt like this before. The way that my arms wrapped around his body so perfectly. He fit so perfectly with me. My arms wrapped around his waist, my head pressed against the other side of his waist, my eyes closed the entire time - my breathing nonexistent. I couldn't bring myself to breath because all I could focus on was the adrenaline that ran through my entire body as we sped down road.

This moment was amazing, and I didn't want it to end - god I wish it would never end.
I wrapped my arms around him tighter, never letting my eyes open in fear that if I see the road below me moving at this pace that I would be sure to freak out and throw up on his back- so, I kept my eyes shut, and just held on. Taking in this moment. It was weird to me - the feeling that I got when I was with him. He made me feel different. Different from anyone on this planet has ever made me feel - I just couldn't describe it ; the way my heart skipped a beat whenever our eyes met. I wondered if he felt it too. Apart of me felt as thought maybe he doesn't - but it didn't matter. All I knew is that I felt it, and I didn't want the feeling to end - because it felt great to have it.

Only The damaged boy with the dark eyes made me feel this way.

He was absolutely indifferent, and I was flawed. The perfect fit.
And, so what if I got in a little trouble for it. I'm sure my mother would understand. I mean, I hoped she understood.

"You can open your eyes now" The sound of his husky voice piercing through my ears. I flutter my eyes open. Not expecting to be here. When I look past him I realize we were outside of city limits, we were more on the country side of town, because the only thing that surrounded us were acres of land, and trees in the further distance. I was surprised to see the tall building that stood before us. The building ; An angelic white, the red oak cathedral double doors, with two giant gross on both sides, the three large cathedral windows two on each side of the building, the other in the middle above the entry doors. The glass on the three large windows each were a series of light colors, with little cross prints making a cross through the glass. It was a church - and it was absolutely beautiful - one of those churches you see in the country side, but it's well kept, and you could just tell by the outside that the chapel was filled with love, from strangers that came from all around, just to be apart of something beautiful. I look up at Kai, as I climb off the back of his bike.

"Well, don't be shy" He says, his voice playful as he grabs me by my hand. Guiding me up the stairs and through the doors.

He walked in like he owned the place - but from the outside it looked empty. Only one other car besides ours parked out front. And it was a silver 2005 Ford Five Hundred.

"Let's hope John isn't here" He whispers, as we enter the chapel. Just as I thought it was empty, but you could tell it was very much still functioning, just how well kept it was. Row after row after row. The interior was simple, a lot of the place was wood. Wooden seats, wooden arched ceilings, wooden floors. The stage had a mic, and a small set up. The walls where the stage was were brown and brick. It really complimented the whole thing. It was nice inside.

A very nice place where anyone would feel comfortable in.

"Where are we going?" I ask, but not really letting myself sound indifferent - because if I were being honest, I would follow him anywhere.

"It's a surprise" Kai says, his voice light and playful, as we walk gracefully through the empty isles of the chapel.
Before we could make it out the doors an older man appears, He wore a suite that only you would see a man wear in church - it wasn't the usual suite I would imagine a reverend to wear, it was less formal, yet very nice and sharp. The old man was thin and tall. Every hair on his body grey, even his hair on his head. He wore glasses, that kinda covered the bags underneath his eyes - yet despite his age, the man still looked lively - his facial sharp, and well kept put - even at his age. Which he looked around his late sixties. So he looked absolutely great for his age.

When Kai notices the man he quickly pulls his hand from mine, our walking quickly coming to a halt.

The man looks up at Kai, his expression shocked me, he was happy. Pure joy filling the old mans eyes.

"Kai Carson?" The old man speaks, his voice still full with obvious joy - the joy is so pure. And fresh, even I could tell Kai meant something to this man.

"Hello Pastor-" Kai begins, but is quickly cut off by the old man

"Now boy, I haven't seen you in quit literally eight years and you call me that." The man tone now discourtesy, but you could tell it wasn't serious. - he's being playful with Kai - almost teasing him like he's a child.

"Serenity, this is John Smith," Kai says, introducing us. I shake his hand "Reverend John, this is Serenity."

I smile, shaking the mans hand. It was nice and warm.

"John was my mothers Pastor, and mine." Kai says, his tone even with a hint of dark.

"Yup. And Kallerina had the most heavenly voice I've ever heard - even at the age of three. She would just sing, and sing - her mother - your grandmother says she would beg her to come sing at church everyday." Reverend John says, smiling at the memory of Kai's mom. He never talked about her much - and just by the way his eyes suddenly feel dark, and lifeless I could tell something had happened. Something that haunted him - even still to this day.

"Yeah, Sundays were her favorite" Kai counters, adding more to the woman that Kai called mom.

I wonder if I would ever get to hear the story of this Kallerina. She sounds lovely, and she was clearly special to Kai.

I wonder what that story was. The pain of losing her. But I won't pry. I won't even mention it- because I don't even think I'm ready to even express my own monsters.

"Well," The reverend says "What brings you here Mr. Carson after eight long years, and better yet it's a Monday, why aren't you in school?" The old man asks. Looking at me, and then back at Kai.

"We have a project, and I wanted to take her to the gazebo." Kai says, avoiding the rest.

"Still doesn't answer the part on why you both aren't in school" The Reverend counters, his eyes jumping from us both. He must think we are up to no good at all. Which was true, we were in fact skipping school, and we should be reprimanded for it.

"Please....." Kai pleads.

The reverend looks up at me one last time. Our eyes meet. I don't fix my expression, I keep it fixed on him. I stared back without fear. I knew the moment John let out a sigh that we'd won. He let us through without another word, and Kai's smile grew as we practically ran out the back doors. I remain silent as he guides me. We're back outside now, but this time we are in the back of the church. Behind the church was more ares of just land, but the grass in the back of the church grew and it looked like a big nice garden - something you would see out of a Cinderella movie. He led me further, and further past the garden and into the tress. As we walked on a trail deeper into the woods, that's when I saw it. The wooden gazebo that sat perfectly in the middle of the woods. Surrounded by flowers of different colors, and behind it a large pond that stretched out past my eyesight. Even the pond had little flowers floating in it, with pretty Lilly pads.

I was amazed - no I was more than amazed I was speechless. I've never ever seen something like this. I didn't even know a place like this existed in this town. It truly felt like a whole other world, and the best part about it all is that I was here with the guy that made me feel most alive.

It was perfect , being alone with him.

we take a seat in the middle of the gazebo, sitting Criss-cross applesauce. I take out my notes, I didn't expect to see Kai sitting , his eyes on me, a laugh on his face.

"What?" I question.

"You care so much about this assignment don't you?" He asks, his voice amused, but I don't know by what.

I press my eyebrows together, confused. Didn't he? Isn't that why he brought me here? so we could do the assignment else where, or was there more and I was just missing it?

"Aren't you?" I question, my tone not obvious.

He shakes his head

"I Couldn't careless" He says, his voice dry.

Now I was really confused.

"I don't want to do this assignment with you, I Just want to talk to you." He shrugs.

Ah.

So, He wasn't interesting in this assignment, he was interested in me. Uncontrollably my heart did a back flip. Kai Carson found me interesting of all people, and I found him interesting of all people, but why? He was so beautiful, so angelic and I was so opposite of that, I was a freak - a nobody. So, Why would he possibly be interested in me?

I frown again

"Why?" The question came out before I could stop myself. I move my eyes to my shoes. He must think I'm embarrassing. I mean I am - I am literally asking him 'Why me?' but it was true - why me? out of every girl he could have. I hear the gossip around school, I see the way the girls try to give him attention in the hallways, but he ignores it all, or only give 1% of himself - if that. He was no ones open book, yet he talked to me. He brought me here. And as great as it felt, It also didn't make sense to me. Not one bit.

Kai moves closer. He's now inches from me, his finger press lightly against my chin, as he lifts my head with his fingers. Our eyes meet revealing those alluring hazel blue eyes. He smiles at me, it isn't a joyful smile, it's more soft, more emotional. It doesn't hold joy, but it holds something more. Something more real - something like understanding.

"Because I see you." He says, his voice raw yet soft. Husky yet gentle.

Because I see you. The words played in my head over and over again, even after he dropped his hands off of me and we began talking about random things. The words played over and over again in my head even after hours of conversation as the sunset began to set. The words still played over and over again even after Kai decided he wanted to jump into the pond - dragging me along with him. He swam in the pond as the night sky started to fill the sky, just laughing and talking. He liked the color black, and liked to box. That explained the bruises, he also was the only child - but he never brought up the name Kallerina again that night. Which was fine, because all I could think about were those words anyways. Even after he drove me home, and my mother had a talk with me. She wasn't upset at me at all, she was confused by me. And if I must admit I was confused by me too. Me and Kai weren't friends, I didn't know what we were. We were English literature partners- that's all. But as the night started to settle, and sleep started to invade my thoughts, the last thing on my mind were those same words, as I drifted peacefully off into my perfect oblivion, with dreams full of Kai.