~Months Later~

When I arrive back to Forks, I took a taxi since Charlie is dealing with Bella and her tantrums or whatever you want to call them. Getting out I pay the man before seeing Charlie talk to some guy about motorcycles "Hey" I say, they look my way.

"Helena" Charlie looks at me shocked "when did you get back? I would have picked you up"

For the last few months I've been in Jacksonville, Florida with mom and Phil doing school from online. I didn't want to face anyone, especially since I was having PTSD about finding Johnny. But more importantly I was feeling numb, I miss Johnny and I loved him-I did but my insides are just numb. So I tried to feel something, so I went out and fucked and even though that was satisfying my feelings were numb. It's like I subconsciously am fine with knowing that Johnny is dead and I'm a better place since he doesn't have to deal with the about show that is this life.

I went to therapy and my therapist says that it's a coping mechanism, that this is my way of coping with the fact that Johnny is gone. I'm still going to see a therapist since I don't feel right, so maybe a different therapist can help.

"Today and I know your having trouble with Bella" shaking my head "is she still the same?"

Nodding his head "There she is, come with me" I follow Charlie to Bella who doesn't even look at me.

"Hey!" Charlie says "it's freezing out" what he means is put on some more clothes since Bella doesn't look to be wearing anything warm. Unlike me where a green crop top with high waist ripped black skinny jeans, black ankle boots, a black leather jacket and a black beanie "running a little late again, aren't you?"

"No, I'm fine" she opens the door and Charlie closes it/ slams it.

"Alright, that's it" he doesn't look at her "I can't do this anymore"

"What?" Bella asks confused

Wow, she is really that self centered or would it be self absorbed? Either way it's the same thing with her, she's nothing but a bitch. I found the file using Charlie's police resources and apparently there was defensive wounds and claw marks on Johnny before he died. Claw marks from a large animal that wasn't a bear, and defense wounds from a fight and I remember Paul warning me about the woods since a red haired vampire was coming by constantly. So I went through Bella's diary before leaving and she's the reason Johnny is dead.

"Your going to Jacksonville, to live with your mother" he says

She looks at him in anger then to me "You"

"Your sister" Charlie gets between us "didn't do anything. He's not coming back"

"I know" Bella agrees

"It isn't like with your sister, Edward is still alive" he says "Johnny died and your sister was there and couldn't do anything to stop him from bleeding out, this behavior of yours is scaring me. Scaring your mother. Hela got better with your mom, you'll do better as well" Bella doesn't look at him as he continues "baby I don't want you to leave, I don't. But this distance will do you some good. Go to Jacksonville, make new friends"

"I have friends" she says

"Who you never see" she glares at me "I still talk to my friends here and they tells me that you don't talk to them anymore"

"I'm gonna go shopping" oh, so a lie "with Jessica"

"You hate shopping" Charlie states

"I...I need a girls night" she says

"Bring your sister" Charlie orders

~Later~

I'm zoning out as Jessica blabbers on and on about the movie we just saw. Before we went shopping and Bella got some socks while I got new books, makeup and lingerie. "I'm really glad your back Hela" Jessica says as we see Bella go to some biker "and everyone understands why you left, finding Johnny the way you did was traumatic and you needed time. Bella, we don't even know what her deal is and Bella!"

"I'll be back" I tell her going to one of the guys "hi"

"Hi" he smiles. He has dark hair, tattoos on his arms. Pale skin.

"I'm going to be blunt" his friends stare at me as the guy looks at me curious "I'm trying to forget something and fucking helps"

"What are you asking?" He asks eyeing me up and down.

"Let's go back to your place and fuck" I state

He hands me his helmet "Come on" I text Jessica telling her I'll see her tomorrow.