POV MEW

-- No! I don't want to ! -- Gulf screams in agitation.

I wake up startled because Gulf screams in his sleep and turning on the light of the lamp I realize that he is not only agitated but that he is also crying. I approach the bed to try to wake him-Gulf! Wake up. -- I call him gently sitting next to him because when I brought him home I decided to leave his bed and lay down on the sofa. Why did I do it!? because I would not be able to keep the distance! I approach and I wipe his eyes with the back of a hand . But it seems that I can not be heard because it continues to be agitated and does not stop crying. Then I do the only thing that comes to mind , I lie down at his side I take him in my arms and hold him tight to me. - It's all right Gulf.. It's all right.. -I'll rock him. At first he does not react to my body because he is in the throes of hiccups, but then he wakes up perhaps also because of me, since to calm him not only I stroked his back and head but I also gave him a few kisses on the forehead.

--Mew! but that.. -- he wakes up walking away from me and taking a look at the room realizes he's at Cottege. - - what happened? Why am I in your Cottege? -- He asks me by touching his head. -God! -- says resting on the cushion and rubbing his eyes, only now realizes that he has cried.

--You fainted while we were talking on the porch. I brought you here , because I couldn't leave you there in the cold! -- I tell him nervous about duo behavior as soon as I wake up and get out of bed I go to sit on the sofa to create a distance.

--And you thought it right to sleep with me and hug me because I was unconscious! -- He whispers and that stops me instantly. You really think I'm the kind of man who takes advantage of the situation?

- Don't be an asshole! I was sleeping on the couch before you woke me up crying! -- I scream at him more than I would have liked so much that he jumps and turns to the sofa where my pillow and a blanket was placed.

- Forgive me! I don't know what I'm saying. -- whispers exasperated while I see him covering his face with his elbow to hide from me since he realizes he has made a mistake

--Forget it! Do you want a headache medicine? -I ask him as I watch him turn to his side with difficulty probably from pain.

-Maybe. thanks -- he tells me looking at me in the eyes as if he wanted to read me inside, look that makes me crazy that's why I get up and go to the medicine case and look for the analgesic. Before making the mistake of running to him and forcing a situation that is already absurd and complex of his own.

--Mew .. I'm sorry about all this. - He whispers to me and I almost drop the glass of water I'm filling for him.

-Don't worry about it.. I will face any mood swings if it helps me to understand you more and to understand why you try to keep me away from you.. -- I say to him by giving him the tablet and the glass and returning to the couch. He sits on the bed with his back to the headboard to swallow the tablet and after a few minutes ,that seemed hours to me, he speaks again.

--Thank you for trying to calm me down. It's been years since I've had nightmares again -- starts by telling me with a half smile.

--Please. You were quite agitated. Would you tell me what you dreamed of ? -- I ask him with all the tact I can and he nods to me to sit on the bed with him. -Gulf I don't think it's a good idea. -- I say to him hesitantly but with a half smile on my face.

- Please... I'm asking you. I don't want to have to yell at you about my past.. I can't talk about the dream until I tell you about my mother. -- he tells me by touching the bed next to him --come here.. - he begs me this time.

All that remains for me to do is to get closer as I finally think he's ready to talk a little bit about himself, so I sit on the opposite side of his and I cross my arms and feet in order to be at least relaxed , which I wasn't at all .

-Okay. Thank you. I would like you to listen carefully to what I say Mew without you interrupting me and if you can even without judging too much some of my behavior. I grew up in a village not far from the capital with parents who loved me in their own way. At least that's what I thought until my 18th birthday. 

My father was an employee and my mother was a teacher but well taken he had to give up his career because he had behavioral problems. Mew my mother was suffering from Bordeline personality disorder and when we noticed it my father denied for years the possibility of having her treated because according to him I was the problem . 

As a child I tried in every way not to feed the disorder of my mother trying to please her in everything even in times when she refused to take care of me . I learned as a child what it meant to take care of myself but even this was not enough, my mother worsened slowly and I went under because my father loved her and my mother was madly in love with her husband so he took out all his trouble on me-- he pauses for a moment, I think to tidy up his emotions and I take the opportunity to take his hand and cross his fingers to mine , and for a moment he looks up and his gaze crosses mine .

-- At school nobody could establish a relationship with me because of the voice about his illness and no child wanted to be near me out of fear, fear that mine also transmitted to me so in the end I convinced myself that I did not need someone next to me who loved me because love brings only pain. When I was 18, I decided I wanted to leave home to save at least my mental health because my mother's disorder had reached the last stage and my father's impotence to his illness gave me the input to make that decision. My parents called me ungrateful saying that I had no right to live peacefully if I was able to leave them alone, that no one could love such a being and above all they made me think that I too could have inherited my mother's illness.My mother died a few months after leaving them alone and my father followed her immediately after- he tells me with the cracked tone .

Feeling that he has had such a past tears my heart and I want him to understand that everything he has been through has touched me a lot so once again I break the promise made and I approach him taking him in my arms . He lets himself be embraced by leaning his back to my chest and I hold him to me with one arm in life and since he is clearing his head I kiss him in the hair to encourage him to go on with his story.

He lets himself be embraced by leaning his back to my chest and I hold him to me with an arm in life and since he is clearing his mind I kiss him in the hair to encourage him to go on with his story
--It took two years of therapy and a different environment to get me out of my psychological block, and Bright is one of those who stood by me right away. His parents were the people in charge of following me. With them I have rediscovered the value of the family and of a parent's love for his child. -- he says looking at me.

--  That's why your bond is strong. -I whisper to him as he asserts.

--Bright is the brother I never had but when two years ago she met her now ex-boyfriend I decided to leave to let him free to make his experiences , that with me at her side she could not do seen her concern for me too. While I did my own things that I could never do with him.. He was really obsessed with someone hurting me to push away anyone who came near him. --He tells me by grabbing the hand with which I am holding it to myself ,starting to caress it.

- So you moved here and my parents hired you as a pastry chef.. - I ask him.

-Yes. your parents were second parents to me and when they passed away I felt lost , but fortunately that at my side there were Zee ,Eart and Mix.-- tells me to then silence for a few minutes.

--Mew ,what happened between us .. -- he starts to tell me but stops as if he's afraid of something.

- -Gulf I can only imagine what you went through in your childhood ,and I understand that this has left you with scars that still carry you in interpersonal relationships ,but ... don't you think it is impossible to stop emotions? -- I ask him to raise his face with one hand to look me in the eye -- Stopping the process of falling in love between two people who want it is not so simple.. Despite what you told me last night , I believe in the emotions I feel when I'm with you and when I hold you in my arms as I do now. I believe what could be there if we just let go .. but I also understand that you're probably not ready.. -- I tell him while I caress his arms.

--You may hate me one day Mew... I may get you as exasperated as my mother did me.. or even more serious thing I could run away from you if my emotions became unmanageable x me-start telling me and I don't want him to think that about himself and our relationship.

--Gulf ! no.. -- I'll let him go and turn him towards me -- you're not your mother, look where you've come on your own! You're a great pastry chef who only holds this place in his grasp with his skill! You've managed to have your experiences and come out with your head held high, of course I admit that with me things have gone differently but we can remedy this.. -- I tell him.

--What do you mean ? -- He asks me confused, looking at me.

--Well among us the attraction is undeniable and we have the proof face where we went to finish the only time we got drunk ,even if you do not need alcohol for that-I tell him pointing at the crotch of the pants. -but how about taking a step back and starting from the fact that we like each other and that we are slowly starting to see each other. You need time to understand your feelings, and I intend to give it to you.. - I say to him by getting up with the intention of going to bed on the sofa. But Gulf grabs me on the wrist and pulls me in if he makes me fall on the bed where he blocks me with his body. -Gulf! - I miss surprised.

- I would say that we could start doing what you said from tomorrow, tonight I just want to feel inside of me .. -- he tells me by shortening the distance and kissing me.

A kiss full of repressed desire and passion as she licks and grabs and tugs at my lips to be able to enter. As much as I want to sink into his, I fear that this is a mistake so I grab him from his arms and I suspend the kiss forcing him to open his eyes and look at me.

I get lost in those irises full of passion but I have to make sure that this time he does not regret the next day, I do not want to be injured again tomorrow.

-- Gulf! wait. - I ask him by leaning my forehead against his -God knows how much I would like to make you my own but I don't want to be hurt again tomorrow if you wake up and regret it.. - I ask him, looking into his eyes.

--Mew .. stop talking ... your promise to stay away from me ends here and now! I agree to see you one step at a time, but please. I want to be yours tonight! I give you my word that tomorrow I will be here to give you good morning.. and I will wake you to the sounds of kisses -- he tells me leaning to grab my lips.

This is the straw that breaks the camel's back, I grab it from the neck and start kissing those beautiful lips that have been torturing me for days , engaging in a battle of tongues.

I start to undress him in less than a minute and he does the same with mine until we find ourselves lying in bed with me overlooking him.

--Gulf are you sure you want to go further? tell me now or no one will come among us tomorrow! EVEN YOU-I- I tell him to flounder.

-Mew stop wasting time.. you know I wouldn't have eyes for anyone anyway , except for you.. - he tells me by grabbing my face and starting to kiss me again.

I stop to stop and start to rub our erections between them causing a groan from Gulf

--Mew .. I need to feel you inside me.. - - Gulf tells me as he grabs the member between his hands, making me instantly aroused, almost risking to come in his hand ,then I gently move his hand and take my oil from the drawer of the bedside table while he starts kissing me all over stopping on my nipples.

--Gulf .. if you continue like this I will not be able to be delicate .. -- I tell him in the hope that he slowed down but I did nothing but make it worse because now he is not only doing it again but he is also challenging me with his eyes! - - you're a little brat! - I let myself slip away as I begin to stick my finger inside him ,and then another until I feel him ready and eager to have me inside him.

My intentions not to touch him went to hell in a second, but I'm glad I gave up because our sex was even better than the first time we did it. We loved each other for three successive rounds until we collapsed from exhaustion, or rather Gulf collapsed. In fact I placed him on the sofa for a moment while I cleaned the bed quickly, to myself, I passed a wet cloth on his body and put on a pair of pajama pants and after putting clean sheets ,I took him back to bed. I fell asleep immediately after holding it in my arms lulled by the warmth of our bodies embraced.




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Gulg finally opens up to Mew.. But inside he has much more to reveal but for the moment 'this is what he wants to give him and to Mew this is what he wants for now''. .cit. In the next chapter!! Gulf will keep its promise not to run away the next day?


PS : let me notice any typos because I posted it without having time to reread!