POV MEW

That's it! -- Gulf yells, surprising me -- I don't care about your brother's death! We weren't together anymore ,Just stick it in my head! -- ends with sadness as he grabs my wrist and turns to leave.

-- It's your fault he's dead.. he went crazy after you left him! He loved you while you just played with him! -- yelled the chick.

- You know nothing of our history! - - Gulf replies turning with grim eyes, approaching her but I stop him, he turns to look at me and calms down a little -- I'm sorry for Patwan but I had nothing to do with his suicide, go home Cantalupe and go on with your life as I did with mine. -- concludes Gulf grabbing my wrist and dragging me away this time.

--Gulf Kanawut the thing does not end here ... I will destroy everything you have more beautiful !! He heard me? -- screams .
But this time Gulf ignores her and continues to walk quickly dragging me nonstop to the beach.

--Gulf! -- I call him after a while, stopping and pulling him to me I hug him but he keeps his eyes low -- look at me Gulf.. - I ask him and for a moment he hesitates but then he looks up -- I think we are now quite far away so...what do you say we sit here and talk about what just happened, you want to? -- I ask him to point out the sea and then we walked to the beach.
He nods and melts from the embrace he collapses on the ground sitting, taking his head in his hands.
-damn it! -Angry screams and angrily kicking the sand lies on it covering his face with his arm. -Mew! - he calls me with a broken voice after a while, hiding under his arm. -forgive me for what has just happened...-- he says to me with difficulty .
- - Gulf.. Pick yourself up and tell me about this. So that I can understand and help you. - I ask him by grabbing his hand.
After a few seconds he gets up to sit and with his gaze turned to the sea he begins to tell.

- Cantalupe is the sister of my ex-boyfriend Pat. We were together for two years and our relationship was not well liked by his family, Cantalupe first. He thought I approached his brother for his money, but it wasn't true. Pat was a good guy with clear ideas about men. He pampered me with gifts and surprises, which at first pleased me but then became boulders. Cantalupe couldn't help noticing me every time we crossed paths, and that affected our relationship. He had become oppressive, he wanted me to tell him where I was going and for how long, he demanded that when he wanted, we have sex where it happened. - he pauses for a moment to catch his breath and my heart starts to beat fast, I was anxious because I had done so myself in a way if I think about the evenings on the veranda, and now I understand why his detached attitude.

- One morning, I took a day off from work and went to the sea to reflect. I wanted to be alone to understand if it was right to stay with him because he had managed to erase with his behavior that affection I had. But I found him behind me. He started cursing at me and my detachment, how much he loved me and how much he had done for me. He had followed me and I don't even know now how he knew that I hadn't gone to work and honestly even how he found me.. When I think about it now, it scares me to know the answer. There at that moment I did not see us anymore, I asked him to let me think a few days alone, that his way of loving for me was too suffocating.. That I needed some peace of mind because I just got out of a doctor's office and I didn't want to go back to the therapist. From there things degenerated he tried the physical approach to reason with me but I pushed him away telling him not to see him anymore. He had turned from sweet and sensitive to morbid, jealous and possessive. I never saw him again... A short time later the grief-stricken sister came to where I was working and accused me of her brother's death, that's how I found out he was dead. He took his own life and left a message of farewell to her and a message of love for me. I quit my job and moved here where your parents took me to work. -- he concludes and I shake the hand that I still held between mine, crossing my fingers.

--In these two years have you dated anyone? -- I ask him while he turns to look at me surprised

--In these two years you haven't dated anyone? -- I ask him while he turns to look at me surprised.
-- Yes, but nothing important.. Let's say I reasonably kept my distance from serious stories after what happened with Pat.. -- he tells me.
- I understand, can I ask what you think of me? -- I ask with fear.
-- why do you ask? -- he replies by looking at me in surprise.
- because I don't want my behavior to lead you to think about Pat or that my behavior might upset you -- I say by taking my eyes off him and staring at the sea.
--what are you talking about? -- Screams melting from our intertwined hands.
- I also approached you physically the first time we were together.. -- I confide in him by hugging my knees and continuing to look at the sea, discouraged by the fact that he loosened our hands.

-- Mew look at me ...-- he asks me and I turn to him -- I never thought for once, since I've known you, that you are such a man.. - - tells me stroking my cheek -- indeed it is the exact opposite! You asked me what do I think of you!? I think you're a man of sound principles, with a value inside that I've never seen before, you're respectful but stubborn at the same time. You know what you want but you get it with tenacity and patience by working hard, without asking for anything in return. If you can, in the midst of difficulties, you try to help make things work without exploiting anything. Mew you are a good person and you are also a desirable man .. -- he lets himself get blushing but freezes embarrassed.

I grab the hand that was about to leave my face , bringing it back to its place , while I close my eyes and savor this beautiful feeling of serenity caused by his words. I would like to embrace him and hold him to me and get lost in his arms but he blocks me from his current psychological state so I do not move an inch and I just hold his hand on my face opening my eyes and trying, with them, to communicate my state.

- - Mew .. --- Whispers as he leans his forehead against my -- Can you hug me? -- He asks me by brushing mine with his nose.

I don't let myself be asked twice, I hold him and drag him with me on the sand, hugging him and giving him a little kiss on the hair.

I don't let myself ask twice I hold it to myself and drag it with me on the sand, hugging and giving it a little kiss on the hair
-Gulf you can do it whenever you need it. I'll support you when you can't do it yourself.. -- I say to him holding him to me.

Let's keep hugging until I hear him shiver in the cold -- Gulf .. Let's go home if you're cold. - I ask him to bend down and look at him and when his eyes open I am struck by their intensity. He gets up with his face towards my neck and lays a kiss at first light then more intense until I feel a little pinch. -Gulf! - I move in surprised while he smiles at me.

--I think it's better.. because I could do something that would make us ashamed if we still lay here. - he says to me, looking down at me and then grabbing my lips in a fleeting kiss.

-- Gulf Kanawut do not start this battle with me because you could miserably lose.. -- I tell him by catching his lips and locking him against the sand with my own body. -- Let's go to Cottege .. -- I tell him by leaving him before
That I can't control myself anymore.

--No Mew, let's go to my apartment .. -- she asks me by biting her lower lip ,I don't know what she has in mind but I like it..

POV GULF

We return to my apartment with the knowledge that we will continue what we started on the beach and that I tried to continue during the trip. I think I took Mew to the limit by stroking his abs while he was trying to focus on driving. And at the exasperation when I touched the inner thigh , in fact it blocks my wrist and rests it on my waist after taking me back.

So I decide to be good until we go hand in hand in the house , where I throw it to me and start the real fight made of kisses and hickeys . Mew for a moment is surprised but then he goes to the attack bending and taking me in his arms, making me hook my legs on his waist and kissing him back .

- If you don't stop leaving marks ,I'll have to return the favor and I don't think you'll like it. -- he tells me panting and taking breath --the room is the right one? -- he asks me and I nod with a smile.

He opens the door while I come back to torment his neck with my kisses while he caresses me from all over and with our erections that graze through the clothes .

-- Mew. -- I whisper to him in excitement while he makes me fall on the bed with him over me.

--Gulf .. I don't want to go any further if you're not sure you want to.. -- he tells me looking into my eyes and trying to control himself once again.

This way of taking care of others before himself is one of the qualities that attract me in him, would be able to stop if I asked him, but it is not what I need now in fact I grab his face in my hands and after a chaste kiss on my lips I look right into his eyes .

- stop talking and get to work! .. -- I ask him grabbing the back of his neck and eating his lips in a kiss that leaves no doubt to either of them the desire that I have for him -- I want you.. Now -- I let slip while he begins the slow torture of kisses from my neck, to the chest until I get to my pants that ends relentlessly on the ground together with his clothes. She slowly climbs up, torturing me between kisses and caresses, arriving at my nipple that starts torturing and biting.

--Mew! - I whisper between pleasure and pain.

- I told you not to mess with me. -- tells me going up with the kisses until to reach my neck where it leaves a bite followed by a caress with the tongue and another immediately after under the attachment of the ear up to bite the lobe itself.

--Mew tomorrow I'll be bruised if you keep this up ! - I'll tell him by lifting his face to look into his eyes

--And whose fault is it? You started on the beach.. And then on the bike! Now take your responsibility! -- he says smiling to me.

- Oh yes! I'll have to walk with a scarf on my neck tomorrow! -- I tell him by kissing him , that Mew does what he wants of me ,because I have to be honest with myself and admit that I think I am in love with him and that makes me enormously afraid.

Two hours later

POV OF MEW

Something at my side wakes me from my dream, it is Gulf who is restless in my arms while he has a nightmare. We made love with all the passion we had for each other and the marks on our bodies are an example. Gulf fell asleep in my arms almost immediately after the second round , while I first cleaned everything. Now that I had managed to rest for a moment, he got agitated, waking me.

--No.. Don't do it. He's got nothing to do with it. Pat! -- He screams unconsciously -- Oh, God. Stop. - He whispers almost crying.

Knowing that she's dreaming about her ex after making love to me is sad, it's like a stab wound to the side where she doesn't kill you but hurts you badly. But anyway ,I want him to feel my closeness so I do the only thing that usually calms him, I hug him giving him a kiss on the head. Shortly after in fact it succeeds to calm down and to return calm in my arms.

- - Gulf .. I would like to heal all your wounds but I don't know if you will allow me to.

The desire I have to know everything about him , about his past , about what he lived and how he faced adversity is so great .. I want to know his every thought but I don't want to press him so I'll try to give him some time to win all his trust. We've taken a huge step forward tonight, and I'm not talking about sex, but the fact that it's opened up so much on the beach. 

Talking to me about her ex helped me understand her shy behavior , but many other questions I now ask myself. Like why he went to an analyst ,for Pat or something else. In due course I will try to understand everything about him but for the moment knowing that he thinks all those nice things about me makes me hope that our relationship can evolve more and more from now on, even if in dreams he sees another.

I cover our bodies well with a blanket , Gulf grazes my chest with a kiss as if to thank me for the gesture . This steals a smile and after a' last kiss on the hair I try to get back to sleep because tomorrow is a long day and tomorrow I have to get up in the morning to return to my Cottege.