POV GULF

This afternoon I wanted to stay quiet and fix my house but in the end I had to accept Mew's invitation to go out otherwise I would definitely have found him here at home. But I managed to postpone the exit at eighteen instead of five as he wanted, because I have things that I have to fix and I can only do them when I have the day off.

I finish cleaning and get the car keys because if I want to get back in time for a shower, I have to go and come back in less than an hour before I see Mew. I take the car and I head towards the outskirts of Bangkok , in the village where I was born and raised ,, for my monthly appointment that is to greet and honor my parents. The village is as I expected it ,nothing has changed in two years since my absence, even the people are as friendly as they once were. Some still remember blaming me for my past. I can't change my past but I can create myself and live my future, free of further stress.

I stop by the florist and arrive at the cemetery just in time because in a little over ten minutes will close so I take advantage of every second to stay here to pray for them and also for me.

Arrived at their gravestone and I sit cleaning their grave. I haven't been there for seven years and I still feel responsible for their departure, a little voice inside me still screams that if I had stayed with them maybe they would still be alive, if I had had a little more patience I could have cured them, If I had been stronger I would have saved them, but now it's useless to think about it now.

- Excuse me, sir. Are we closing! Gulf? Gulf Kanawut? - the warden tells me.

--Yes. I apologize, but I don't think I remember.. Do we know each other? -- I say confused.

--I think so, son. It's been eight years since we've seen each other. That's normal. I was your neighbor for a few years then I moved to another building .. you were a baby then.. -- explains me embarrassed.

-Ah I see ... he said it's time for me to go. -I say getting up and saying goodbye to my parents with the promise that I would return soon to visit them, I walk with Mr Pete to the exit of the cemetery.

--Your parents loved you in spite of everything. When you were born, I remember that your father went around the neighborhood to introduce you to all of us.. It was touching to see him so close to his "Toad". that's what he called you. -- Mr Pete confided to me.

I did not know anything about this because the memories of my father and my mother stop to the days when one was already sick and the other unable to handle it, so I did not know this family love.

--I'm glad to find out even though I haven't known their love for years.. -- I let it slip.

Pete stops and grabs my arm looking at me with tenderness and understanding. - - Boy I understand that it must not have been very easy for you to grow up with them in those years, but I can assure you that your parents loved their child. Your father, after you left, did nothing but mourn your absence, he felt terribly guilty for driving you away with his behavior. I think he felt guilty about everything he must have said to you that day because he said that his words didn't deserve to be your father. -- he said to me, moved by the memory.

-Mr Pete . It's true that it was hard that day but I can't condemn him, even though it took me three years in analysis to get out of the state I had entered after leaving , he was a man who could not handle a situation that was bigger than him .. In fact, I feel guilty for not being able to help them in any way. -- I'll tell them as we get to the gate.

--Son, I don't think you could have done anything ,I'm happy to have seen you again, and I think your parents are happy and proud of the beautiful person you've become- concludes Pete saying goodbye, I also greet him and thank him for the things he told me.

I leave the cemetery with many perplexities acquired with the small chat I had with Pete. I feel a little upset in having learned of the pain of my father , I would never have said because as far as I know he did not want to see me anymore , but despite this I loved them anyway.

I take a look at the time and I realize that I am late, it is in fact 17:15 and calculating that to return to the city it takes thirty minutes ,traffic permitting , I will have fifteen minutes if all goes well before the appointment with Mew. I have to hurry!

POV MEW

It's 15 minutes to 18 and I decide to take the bike to go from Gulf. For two reasons, the first is that in motion you can move more easily in traffic and then today is a perfect afternoon for the way seen the mild weather . The second reason is that I love to feel Gulf's body pressed to mine as he wraps his arm around me to hold on. So I take a last look at the mirror staring at the hair back and taking the keys of the bike I head to the back of the Committee where it is parked .

I climb on it and after having fixed my helmet I start the engine heading towards his apartment, but I do it calmly. I'm way ahead of schedule, and I don't want to rush him. The air is really pleasant so much that even if I only wore a jacket I don't even feel cold , but this can also depend on the awareness that I'm going to spend the evening with the guy I like and that confuses me more with his behavior every day.

Like today, for example, when he asks me to postpone our release for an hour with a message. I admit that not being very detailed in telling me why I was sorry a bit but I promised him to follow his time and then I will wait for him to tell me things in his own time.

Ten minutes after I arrive at the house, I take off my helmet and send him a message that doesn't show immediately. In fact the answer comes three minutes later telling me to give him another five minutes because he had been late and was almost ready.

I smile at the thought that it was there to finish preparing for our outing while I below waiting for him, in fact I tell him to rest assured that I was the one to be early.

- but if you open me up to wait for you -- I ask him in an audio message and his answer this time was immediate, he opened the entrance door.

''Sali', third floor ,apartment no. 5 '' answers my message.

With a smile on his face, I don't think twice about going up, too much was the curiosity to see where he lived and above all the curiosity to see him move in his space and environment.
I go up calmly despite the desire to see him, to give him all the time to continue and once arrived I ring the bell.
- Hello, come in. I'm almost done! -- he tells me by opening the door.
And so I do but I stop on the spot after seeing it.
Gulf was wonderful, not that it usually wasn't, but today it was more so.

-- something is wrong?? -He asks me since I was stunned at the entrance .
--No.no.. -- and clearing my voice I slowly approach him -- you look good dressed like that -- I tell him from head to toe.

--Thank you .. -- he whispers embarrassed -- you too .. -He says to me in a breath from my face, since I stopped practically to a palm from him.

I grab his arms and slowly climb up until I touch with my hand his neck and again his lips with my thumb.

-- you took my breath away for a moment --I confide in him by approaching him and brushing his lips. I take his upper lip between mine and start the slow torture and then move to his lower lip. Gulf both approaches me further by resting his hands on my life and kissing me back, he urges me to intertwine our tongues.

I do not know how long we kissed but as always happens when we are close ,we break off only after being breathless.

-Gulf. as tempting as the idea of staying here to continue, I think it is better to leave your house or I will not answer more of my actions and I made you a promise that I want to keep. -- I tell him and after a quick kiss he goes to get his wallet, his cell phone and his house keys.

--Ready .. Let's go I need to distract myself a little.. -- he tells me to indicate the door then the advance opening it for him and we walk towards the exit.

--In motion? -- he asks me as soon as he sees my ducats.

--Yes.. Is that a problem? -- I ask him to raise an eyebrow and give him my helmet.

-No.. definitely not .. -- he says wearing it.

POV OF GULF

I will never get tired of riding behind him on his bike where the air touches your face and my arms are close to his body so as not to fall. It's in these situations that I think there's no better place for me and safer than in her arms. The family warmth is a dream for me, but with Mew it is so easy to think ,so much to frighten me that it is a soap bubble that can burst at any moment. I squeeze even more and I rest my cheek on his back , closing my eyes, until he grabs my arm and slows the bike until it stops.

- - Gulf , We arrived -- he tells me while I get away and get off the bike.

--At the sea? -- I ask him with surprise -- how did you know? -- I ask.

I love the sea because when I was a child my parents took me there, picnicking and playing castles with sand, until my mother got sick . I forgot about it.

--I have my informants.. -He says with a smile -- come on.. we walk a little on the sand before going to eat in the restaurant that I booked.. -he tells me taking my hand.

And so we did, we talked sitting on the beach I do not know for how long .
Then walk for half an hour, hand in hand, before sitting in this beautiful restaurant with sea view. I got the Panag Red Curry, one of my favorite dishes, while Mew got the Pla Pao, which is grilled fish. And between forks and forks we talk about ourselves and our history and our stories. Mew shamelessly asked me how many guys I had and I honestly told him that I had only one important story ended two years ago. I suffered a lot in that relationship made of obsession and jealousy on the part of my ex and especially little compared to the end I closed and I moved ,fortunately finding work immediately at the restaurant.

- Let's not talk about it if it makes you feel bad... I don't want you to feel sad.. - He says taking my hand.

Obviously I immediately blush for the gesture and I dodge my hand for the embarrassment, in fact we are in a place a little crowded, and the thing can be even more embarrassing.

-I'm sorry ... but it seemed like thinking about your ex made you sad.. I just wanted to comfort you.. If you're done, how about going? -- asks me quietly.

-No.. I'm the one who has to apologize.. you wanted to be polite .. Shall we walk a little further along the beach? -- I ask him with a sincere smile, getting up and wearing the jacket.

- Of course he starts to go. I'll be right back.

--Mew I would like to pay my share!.. - I ask him as he melts from the grip.

--Gulf does not exist.. wait for me outside that I arrive immediately . - he tells me and I just have to go outside and wait for him.

I stop to look at the moon dazed by its beauty tonight so I don't notice that Mew had gone out and that he was looking at me with adoration.

--OTCH! Mew... -- I say surprised, as he joins me and hugs me from behind.

--Have I told you how cute you are tonight? -- He tells me and I answer with a nod of his face while I try to look at him in the eyes. -- Come on. we do those steps of which we talked-- asks me after a short kiss on the cheek.

-- Otch! Look who's having a great time without any restraint .. -shouts behind me a woman's voice that I never wanted to hear again in my life.

-- Cantalupe! -- I whisper and turn.

--Hello Gulf! I see you're doing well! Of course you don't have any restraint! I see you're having a great time with a great piece of man I have to admit.. -- she says with a note of hatred by squaring Mew from head to foot.

- None of your business! -- I answer coldly and then ignore it -- Mew let's go, I have nothing to talk about with this person -- I tell him by grabbing his wrist and trying to get him away from that' harpy.

--Mew? Are we that close already? Mr Mew told you about his last boyfriend? and what happened to him? -Screaming in hysteria and pain.

- That's enough ! - I scream in my turn surprising even Mew because I hear him jump -- I do not center with the death of your brother! We were no longer together ,Put it well in your head! -- I conclude with sadness dragging Mew away while she kept cursing and cursing me.

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Don't hate me, but I told you that Gulf has been through a lot, that's why he's catching on Mew..
How will it end with Cantalupe? Will it end like this or is there more? How does Gulf psychologically get out of this encounter and especially Mew how will he face all this?
Bah read on and you'll find out!