Be With Me
Part 3

(Dedicated to rabia0032)

(Note: Swara in this FS, never said that Magalsutra and Sindoor one dialogue.)

Swasan are sitting in one of the corner seats of the restuarant together, he denied to sit on the opposite side as he wanted to feel her with him, distance of few centimeter's is even highly unacceptable by him, he held her hand in his and kept it on his lap feeling the promixity, this time their is no such insecurity in his heart, only a smile on his face which is not leaving it for a second, he cant stop remembering that how His, only his Swara stood for his happiness.
Maybe it will be a small thing for many but this gesture had a deep effect on his heart.

On the other hand, Swara was looking down and blushing continously after feeling his gaze on her, the way he was seeing her gave her goosebumps and she was feeling ticklish in the stomach. It looked so perfect, the two people madly in love with each other, sitting beside each other, noticing the other and shying, holding hands without a word but just happiness and some peace in the heart.

"I love you." Confessed Sanskar leaning to her ear, with his breathe fanning on her ear-lobe, he confessed many times, every time it sounded new. The Three Same words with same meaning everytime sounded new, how? Just because the love other had is evergreen and always contains the same passion or even more to keep the meaning of these words alive and beautiful every time. She flushed more listening to his words, her heart started to race, and her hold on his hand tightened, he chuckled on seeing that how she is behaving as a newly wedded bride after a arrange marriage but he is unaware that his affect of her that make her behave this like always.

Soon they had their lunch and left towards the parking lot. Sanskar holding Swara's hand not leaving it for a second, just as the teenagers who come for the first date.
Few people standing adoring them, fee jealoused, but right now nothing matters.

Sanskar asked her to stand there for a minute, till he bring the car, she agreed and stood looking here and there. A constant smile on their lips.

Sanskar left to get the car crossing the road, he turned towards her not able to stay few seconds away all smiling, but soon his smile faded, on seeing a car coming towards her with speed and she standing in the middle of a road with a kid of around 4 in her hands, he dont know how to react, his voice died in his throat and numbess passed in his legs such that he was not even able to move a inch, the fear of separation, her leaving him ran through his spine, not able to take his own weight he fell on his knees, sweat dripping down his forhead and everything blackening in front of his eyes.

On the other side, Swara ran fastly with the baby in her hands and escaped the car. Her mother came running towards her and left after thanking her for saving her life, she smiled on this but her heart ached dont know why? She turned around and saw the crowd gathering in a circle around something or someone.

"Sanskar..." she murmered, as if her heart told him about his condition and she ran towards him pushing the crowd away.

Her heart stopped for a second, seeing Sanskar lying on the road in his half conciousness in a vulnerable state, his lips shivering. "Sanskar.." she shouted his name and ran towards him immediately and sat on his side held his hand in her, "Sanskar, Sanskarrr... get upp.. what hapeeendd...?" She spoke with great difficulty, tears formed in her eyes seeing him in this condition for some unknown reasons, someone asked her to take him to hospital, she agreed immediately and helped him to sit in the car while she was sitting beside him, and someone unknown from the car driving them to hospital.

He was continously murmering something in an unclear tone, she was too shivering seeing his condition and on hearing his unclear murmers she brought her ear near to his lips trying to know the reason of his condition, she was continously rubbing his hands which were started to get cold.

"Noo.. no.. not again. Dont leave me Swaraa.. dont think to leave me in this darknesss again... pleasee. I beg you.  I wont be able to survive it this time.. Sanskar will die without his Swara.. pleasee Be With Me." He was murmering these words again and again, tear drops from her eyes started to fall on his face on knowing she herself is responsible for his this condition, the one who loved her insanely is hurt and insecure just because of her one mistake, one wrong decision. He even in this state, felt her tear droplets on his cheek, he looked at her with blury vision, he was not in the state to understand anything, he dont know what is happening around, just he was able to see her tears, he slowly brought his hand near her cheeks and wiped them gently not able to see her crying, his this gesture brought more tears in her eyes. He had no strength to keep his eyes open, he wanted to shut them but he didnt dare to do that just because after closing them he wont be able to see her face, even though its blury but still. He fought with his own self and kept his eyes open and again and again wiping her tears which are not stopping to form in her eyes.

She felt guilty and ashamed of herself, she was crying and he was conselling her even in this state. What ahave I dont to deserve you? She thought and looked at him, she saw him fighting for her from himself and wiping her tears, she was happy seeing his love but hurt seeing that she was so stupid to not able to see this.

She held his hand and kissed his fingers.

"Nothing will happen Sanskar, I promise, I wont do it again. Your Swara wont leave you ever again. I WILL ALWAYS BE BESIDE YOU no matter what. But please dont give punishment to yourself." She slowly murmerd to him but ofcourse he was not in the state to understand her words.

Till the time they reached the hospital, Sanskar was taken inside while Swara was sitting on one of the chair's for Doctor to come out.

"How can i be so blind? Why have I always done this to him, to us? This is just because of me that he is in this state, I know I did mistake, I did a sin leaving him but a bigger one on not able to see his pain, his insecurity, his helpnessness. He is an great actor, he hid his pain from me and I am so stupid to believe him, how can I forget that the marks can never be removed without applying a medicine on them, I forget about the marks only. I dont deserve him, every time, every damn time i doubted and asked him, he just changed the topic and me being a fool used to forget about it. How can you do this, Swara, How?" She thought and cursed herself, tears falling down her eyes rapidly, each second looking like an year passing and remembering how every time he fooled her with the situations, how can he tell her his pain when one time she just refused to listen it and left him suffering. The scars are still present and today they have enlarged causing pain and finally she is able to see them.

Definitely, from the day she came back, she has tried his best to make him his priority, to give him the time he wants, his wishes, his cute romance and their silly fights, but still she failed to see the pain which he was growing through, he was hiding from her, he kept her in a bubble which finally bursted now.

"Stop blaming yourself Swara, nothing will happen with it, now you have to handle Sanskar, god knows in what condition he will be in, just dont give him more pain." Said a immaginary Swara sitting beside her, she turned towards him and was shocked first and then accepted her words, as on blaming her now will cause nothing good but will break her further, but now she cant affrod to be broken, she have to heal him.

After some time, Doctor came out and Swara on seeing him immediately rushed towards him.

"How is he? Is he fine?" She asked from him worridely.

"Umm. Mrs. Maheshwari, yes he is fine but I cant tell you for how much time, his condition says that he is taking so much of mental stress and he is living in some sort of fear as he is continously blabbering, I dont want to intervade in your personal life, so I will just say that keep him happy and help him to overcome his fears, otherwise he may go in depression and that can be really dangerous. Tell him, made him believe that everything is right and more precisely try to make everything right." Doctor said and left the place leaving Swara standing alone fighting with her own thoughts.

Soon a nurse came out and went towards Swara,

"Mam, these are the items we found from your husband's pocket." Said the nurse handling her the items and left the place.

Swara became shocked on seeing this and the world skipped below her feet on seeing the ciggarate packets.

She held it and thought, "Congratulations, Mrs. Swara Sanskar Maheshwari, you finally ruined him, ruined him in this way. (Saw the packet in her hands). You know what, Now I feel even Kavita was better than me. She have not ruined him like this even." She was about to cry but held back her tears and went inside the cabin where he was lying uncouncious.

"I promise you Sanskar, I will bring back my carefree Sanskar back, without any fear and insecurities and without needing this. (Saying this she threw rhe packet in the dusbtin) My love.. no.. our love will bring us back together happily without any fears. I will try harder to erase those scars which I gave you." She said to his sleeping figure and kissed his forhead assuring her.

***

At Night,

SwaSan were sleeping in the room in each other's embrace, Sanskar didnt remember what happened after they left the restaurant, and Swara told him that he fell down because of dehydration and asked him to take care of himself, behaving normally as she dont want him to know that she know everything because she is well aware that it will not erase his insecurities but he will try to hide them more, which she cant risk as she thinks she is so stupid that she will never be able to know if he is acting.

Now, Sanskar was sleeping beside her holding her tightly while she was just looking at one of the dark corner's of the room recalling everything from the start due to what all this happened and finally the incident of today, she unable to control herself and get up and moved towards washroom making sure not to disturb his sleep.

She stood in front of the mirror looking down and tears started to flow down her cheeks uncontrolably, she kept her hand in her mouth to avoid any sounds and was crying, crying and crying standing there.

"You are really so selfish."  Came a voice, she heard it and looked up and saw the her reflection seeing her angrily, she was shocked first but than the reflection continued, "you are really so selfish Swara, you are crying, huh?? Removing the pain which you are going through this much easily, like seriously and see there YOUR SANSKAR, he is in pain and cant even cry, he is killing himself keeping the pain inside him and here you are again betraying the pain, the pain which you deserved, he is giving himself and you the pain which is left are standing here and removing that too. I pity on myself that I am your reflection." Saying this everything becomes normal again, she was again able to see herself origianlly in the mirror.

"I wont let him go throught he pain again, this is what I deserve na? Then I will only get it. I promise I wont even let a single drop fall from my eye till I make everything normal." She thought and washing her face with water left outside and saw the bed empty.

She looked around and didnt find her, she silently move towards the balcony and saw he was standing holding a cigaratte and was about to lighten it.

Few minutes before, on not finding Swara beside him, he got up rubbing his eyes and became tensed on not seeing her there, he get back to those 6 months and thought he was living in the illusion till now and she have still not returned back. His heart pained and he got up from the bed and came outside taking the packet of ciggarate in his hand.

"Smoking kills"

He read the warning on the packet and chuckled, "smoking saves from the pain." He thought and was about to remove out from it when he heard the voice of water, his eyes widened realising that she is with him now, he is not hallucinating, he mentally slapped himself for forgetting this or thinking this as a mere illusion.

He was about to throw the ciggarate but then thought, "How can I betray it when it helped me so much?" Thinking this he held it back and was about to lighten it when he heard the voice of something falling and her scream, he without thinking twice threw the cigarate and rushed in the room only to find her fallen on the floor and around her the water jug was lying.

"Help me, Sanskar." She said on seeing him, she after coming back to room threw the jug on the floor and screamed, she cant stop him directly this doesnt mean she will let him harm his health, he rushed towards her and picked her gently from the floor and placed on the bed.

"How this happened?" He asked.

"I was coming back from washroom in half sleep and collided with the table and then dhummm..." she said and pouted sadly rubbing her arm, he chuckled seeing her expressions, while she glared him still pouting, he raised his hands and murmerd a 'sorry' and pecked her lips lightly, she blushed on his sudden act but still acted to remain angry, the best way to distract him from that bad thing is that she have to spend time with him, he dont need anything else than her.

He shook his head on her nautanki and placed his lips on her's and started to suck them while she expecting this started to respond back equally, soon the room was filled with moans and groans with love birds under a blanket skin to skin.

To be continued...

How was this? I hope worth to read, I am sorry if someone dont like this. Different people, different POV.

I am not only blaming Swara, so dont take it in that way, the situation needed them. I will try to justify her pain as well.

Thank you

Love you all❤