Lydia's P.O.V.

The room was completely silent as Flynn and I put the two kids down for bed, he had gone out for a long time and when he came back he had a busted lip...Cassie had a small smile on her face as he told her Monica would be able to come, I wanted to know badly what he had said to Joey but at the same time, my own fears held me back. 

Kissing Hunter and Vallie night we walked out of the room, "Flynn." I said quietly, he stopped in front of me. "You need to put something on your lip."

Flynn looked tired, "I'm just going to go to bed."

There were so many questions brewing a storm in my mind but none of them found a way to my tongue, "Flynn." I stopped him again holding his hand, "Come here." Taking him to my room, I sat him down on the bed before heading to the bathroom, grabbing the First Aid Kit. Playing it on the bed beside him I gently grab his face tilting it up so I could see the cut properly, "This might sting a little." He watched me carefully as I cleaned his cut, his gaze was so strong, "Stop looking at me like that." I whispered, my hands shaking, "I'm a nurse...it's a habit now to take care of patients."

Flynn grabbed my waist snatching me down so I was straddling him, "What-"

"Shh," He hushed me, my heart skipped a beat, "I have another wound. I am just showing you."

"Where?"

Flynn grabbed my hand lifting it to his heart, "Here." His eyes looked so tired, "It's been in pain for the past four years."

"Flynn-" I began but he shook his head telling me to keep quiet, 

"But it's nothing compared to the pain I gave you...I broke your trust, Luna, you loved me, you are the mother of my beautiful children...and I chose to believe Amora. That was the biggest mistake of my life Luna. I didn't listen to anything you said, I didn't trust you but please, please believe me there hasn't been a day that I haven't missed you...I didn't miss your laugh, your smile, your touch, your voice...just you Luna. I longed to see Hunter and Vallie. I didn't even know she was here, I lost everything in one second...and now the three of you are right in front of me, please Luna...all I want is a second chance."

Tears blurred my vision my hands began to shake, "I don't know if I can...I can't trust you, what if you throw us out again..."

"Lydia." He said firmly, "I won't."

"But how do I know that? I thought you wouldnt before too and-"

"I was an asshole." Flynn admitted, "I didn't know what I had to lose...now I know, I learned my lesson."

"So everything you need to learn something you'll hurt me?"

"Lydia-"

"No!" I said getting off of him, "I can't trust you! I can't let you back in Flynn, I don't want to be in pain-"

Flynn stood up grabbing me again, "Can't or won't." He frantically looked into my eyes, "Lydia, please..."

Sobs racked my body as my resolve dissolved in front of him, failing into him I hugged him tightly, "I don't want to be hurt."

"I won't." He whispered, "Fuck, baby...I won't."

It felt so good to be back in his arms, "I won't be able to take it this time..."

I felt his tears drop onto my skin, "I've got you..." Flynn said, "I got you..." Snuggling in his arms I hugged him tighter, "I got you back...I don't need anything else."

I hadn't felt so safe in anyone's arms in a long time, I felt at home, but if he decided to set fire to my home once again, I wouldn't be able to survive. All my life I had been craving for a family...I had it four years ago...and now I can have it again...but I won't be able to live with this fear of being thrown out. Ripping myself away, I shook my head, "No."

"No?"

"No." I said, "I don't trust you."

"Lydie."

"You were my home!" I snapped, "You and Hunter, we had a family, we had a home and you burnt it...I survived it last time but this time I won't and I need to stay strong for the kids."

He took a step towards me, "Lydia...what can I do? What can I do to win your trust again?"

"Nothing, we are leaving-"

"The fuck you are!" He snapped back. "No one is leaving...Lydia, we need to work this out."

"How! I don't trust you and I don't think I ever will be able to. You took it and crushed it."

"Do you love me?" He asked

My heart stopped, "Excuse me?"

"Do you still love me?" I never stopped. 

"No, Love and Trust go hand in hand Flynn. You can't have one when you don't have the other. I don't trust you or love you."

Flynn nodded, "Well I do...I never stopped, I use to see you around the fucking house all the time, hallucinating and shit. You are a part of me Lydia, and I know deep down somewhere you love me too.  You just won't say it because you have a point to prove right now. We both know you love me...yeah you might not trust me, but I'll win that back too...for now, I'll leave you alone but once this Luke Shelby shit is over and done with...you won't be able to get rid of me." 

Opening the bedroom door he stormed out, allowing me to have room to think properly, I almost gave in.  

No Lydia, he can do whatever the fuck he wants but you need to stay strong...for Vallie and Hunter.

Author's Note:

How are we feeling about Flynn's promise? Do you think Lydia should forgive Flynn? Or should she stay away from him because of her innate fear?