You messed up again, your brothers look at you with disappointment in their eyes. You look away from them, and head to back to the car trying not to cry.

"It was an accident Dean." Sam says trying to stick up for you.

"Stop sticking up for her Sam, she almost got us all killed." Dean angrily retorts. "I'm dropping Y/N off at Jody's place tomorrow."

"Dean..."

"No Sam, this is the third hunt in a row that she has messed up on and nearly gotten herself killed!" Dean storms back to the impala. You're in the backseat, and you buried your face against the back of the seat just crying softly to yourself. Your eldest brother doesn't even glance at you, he's that angry.

Once back at the hotel, Sam told you that you're going to Jody's place in the morning. Hearing this your heart breaks, neither of them believed in you. You're not a good enough hunter, in their eyes. On the way to Jody's your hold back your tears and stay quiet the entire ride.

"Thanks for taking her Jody." Dean says when he drops you off. "We'll be back in a few weeks." You don't hear Jody's reply because you head inside.

"Hey Y/N." Alex says. "You look terrible, what's wrong?" Your bottom lip quivers and you close your eyes letting the tears fall.

"A-apparently I'm n-not g-good e-enough t-to h-hunt w-with S-Sam a-and D-Dean." You stutter out.

"What makes you say that?" You were crying so hard that Alex could barely understand you. Claire, gotta love her, decided to walk in just then. She's never seen a Winchester look so exposed before. The only forms of Winchester that Claire has seen is bad ass, sassy, and angry, never crying before.

"Okay that I've never seen that before. A Winchester crying." Claire says. "And the one crying is my favorite one, so who do I have to kill?" You manage a watery laugh. While Alex throws Claire a stink eye.

-time skip-

You stay at Jody's place for three weeks, a very emotional three weeks. Everyday you take a walk sometimes with Claire, sometimes with Alex, and other times just by yourself. Today you were with Claire, she somewhat gave you advice... but mainly she just let you rant. When the two of you got back to Jody's you see the impala and well your somewhat decent mood goes south for the winter. Once inside you don't even look at your brothers before heading to your room.

"Is she okay?" Dean asks.

"Y/N's moods have been fluctuating like that for the last three weeks." Alex says as she walks into the room. Dean then asks if she knew why. "Not really my place to say."

"Her mood swings are because of you two fuckers." Claire says rolling her eyes and as she leans against a wall with her arms crossed. The Winchester brothers arch an eyebrow before asking what she means. "All I'm going to say is that you two severely fucked up this time."

"Claire!" Alex snaps. Claire plain out ignores Alex's outburst of anger. Jody calls everyone to the table for dinner, which you choose not to go eat. You actually told everyone to start without you. "I'm going to see if I can convince Y/N to come out of her solitary confinement." Alex says with a small sigh. She gets off her chair and walks to your room.

- 30 minutes later.-

Eventually you come out of your room... knowing that you're going to have to face your brothers at some point. Different emotions swim through your head while at dinner. "Y/N we could really use your help." Dean says.

"That is not what you said three weeks ago, you hypocrite!" You rudely retort. "You made it very clear that you don't need my help anymore Dean!" You get to you feet and storm out of the room.

"Y/N!" Dean's voice is a mixture of anger, hurt, annoyance and shock. He hears you slam the front door shut. The brisk autumn wind stings your bare arms as you realise you left your coat inside, but you're not going back inside to grab it. You shiver a bit and hold your arms closer to your body trying to keep somewhat warm.

"(Nickname)?" Sam asks as he walks outside.

"Leave me alone." You answer. Your voice sounding as cold as you felt.

"What's going on, you're never like this." Dean points out. That's when you break completely.

"Oh you want to know what the fuck is going on?!" You explode. "Apparently I'm not good enough to hunt with the great Sam and Dean Winchester, my own god damned brothers! In their mindsets the only thing I'm very good at is fucking up on a hunt!!!"

"We've never said that." There is a fire of anger behind your (eye color) eyes.

"The last time I saw you guys, you sure acted like it. Especially Dean!" As soon as those words leave your lips, you're not angry anymore just hurt. You're also really cold, insomuch your teeth won't stop chattering. Someone drapes their jacket over your shoulders. You snuggle into it thankful for the warmth.

"How about we talk about this inside, you're shaking like crazy." Dean suggests. You slowly nod. It takes a few days for you to warm back up with your brothers, and well it also takes them a few days to agree on bringing on hunts with them... but you guys are a 'mostly-functional' family for now.