This is part 2 for Rapid Eye Movement which is from the first book, imagine #58 after 'Affianced (Jared)'.

Requested by castiwljack, I hope this clears your curiosity! (And doesn't disappoint you 🙂)

🎶: 'Silence' by Marshmello ft. Khalid

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(THEN)

You hurried to the next door, then the next and then the next. It was happy memory, after happy, after happy. Virtually all your memories with Cas were happy ones.

To your dread, you had reached the dark side of the hallway, the one that literally screamed out 'DARKEST MEMORY OF ALL'. You looked at Cas with hesitation but he nodded as he squeezed your hand.

You opened the door, it creaked eerily. You were expecting the memory of when you had been possessed by a demon and you had beaten Castiel to bits, he didn't touch a finger on you that day, he didn't fight back. It was the worst thing ever and you felt extremely guilty after the event.

But it wasn't that one. It was a memory where you had to think for a moment on whether it was real of made up, whether it actually happened to you or not.

But then it came back, drowning you in despair, anger and sorrow. You feared going in, the memory... It was too horrid. You were about to run and cry.

It was the memory that you made an effort to forget. You tucked it away on the top shelf in your 'memory rack', a shelf that rarely anyone reaches to get something.

It was the memory of that day... The day that-

(NOW)

Your mind played back the memory, it was the worst think that you had to go through. It was so vivid and clear that you were close to throwing a fit.

**FLASHBACK**

"Hypnosis, it's interesting... You can't make anyone do anything you want but," The witch-bitch said as she stared at your steady figure, "Hypnosis is what you imagine it to be. You'll never really do something that goes against your will... won't you agree [y/n]?"

You remained silent, standing upright like a statue and the witch huffed. She chanted something then you're suddenly hit with a wave of dizziness. Your under her influence  now.

"[y/n] I want you to go to Castiel and I want you to make sure he won't be able to stand up again," She explained and you nodded, no hesitation shown from your side.

"Y-Yes."

"And what do you do?"

"I find him... and I kill him."

You were zapped to the motel where the Winchesters and Castiel were staying. The Winchesters were out to get some information about a witch... the same witch that cast a spell on you.

Castiel was there, reading a book and looking at some notes. You watched him through the window then grinned slightly.

"This will be too easy," You said to yourself as you walked into the motel. Why? Because Castiel trusts you, he wouldn't suspect a thing. Because you both are together and you had a way to play 'innocent'.

"H-Hi, I'm here to visit the Winchesters?" You told the lady at the counter. She smiled and replied, "Down the hall, second right." You followed her instructions and knocked on the door.

"Come in!" You heard Castiel say and you took a deep breath and straightened your shoulders to stand confidently before walking in.

Castiel looked up to you and smiled happily. He got up and walked to you, "[y/n], I'm so happy to see you. Where did-"

You pulled his tie, bringing him closer to you, and kissed him. It was hard and rough, you wanted him to suspect the least about your intentions and somehow acting like this would do the trick.

You stepped ahead and he went back until he stood right at the edge of the bed. You slipped your hands under his trench coat and took it off. It fell to the floor and you smirked.

"What are you-Are we going to-"

You placed your  finger on Castiel's lips and shushed him in the most alluring way, then tracing your other hand down his chest.

Your gaze drifted to his eyes and you moved closer for a kiss but-

You punched him in the jaw, the shock of it and the pain knocked Castiel back. He fell on his back onto the bed.

"WHAT THE-"

You punched him again but with the other hand and towered over him. You climbed onto him as he tried to sit up straight and push you off but you held him down with force. You had no idea where this sudden strength came from.

"Come on baby, where's the corporation?" You teased, "I thought we'd have fun a little differently today." You ran your hand down his chest and he tensed up.

You grabbed his shirt and started to punch him, on his nose and cheekbone. He groaned in pain, spitting out a few drops of blood.

"What's wrong with you?!" He yelled with worry and you shook your head. "Oh honey, you've never heard of BDSM?" You gave him a fake smile then rolled your eyes.

You grabbed his collar and pulled him up. You got off of him and pushed him to the wall, kicking him in the knees then kneeing him in the gut.

You continued to attack him constantly, he had no chance to take his Angel blade which was, unfortunate for him, sitting on the table in the corner.

Every time you hit him, his strength weakened. What's more is that he didn't know why you were acting like this and since you both love each other he didn't even try to hurt you, just defend himself and try to stop you. The plan worked perfectly to your liking... or the witch's liking.

"Kneel," You commanded and he looked at you hopelessly. "[y/n], did the... did th-the witch do this to y-you?" He dared to question as he obeyed your order.

"Shut up sweetheart," You warned then licked your lips, tracing the blade lightly across his forehead, and putting his hair back, and down the side of his face, "I'll be tempted to make sure this blade is permanently part of your body."

He swallowed hard, scared at the fact that you might actually do it... under your current mind state.

"Aw why the long face Angel?" You asked and pouted, "You should be happy that I'm the last thing you'll see before you die."

Castiel frowned and looked down. "HEY!" You snapped all of a sudden and it made him jerk in fright, "Look at me. You know how you're always... on the top? It's my turn now sugar."

You smiled smugly and Castiel squinted his eyes in anger. He couldnt take another minute of whatever this is.

You noticed his annoyance and hit him hard with the handle of the blade. He fell to the floor and you picked him up, bending down slowly and looking straight into his eyes.

"You're lucky that I haven't killed you already," You said then kissed him but he pulled himself away. You stood up with complete rage, "Oh so you're going to play like that huh?! FINE!"

You uppercut him and he hit his head on the wall behind him. You kneed him in the stomach and you coughed up blood. You moved forward to-

**FLASHBACK ENDED**

You couldn't watch the memory anymore. It was horrible. You were crying in frustration and pain, you had hurt Cas so much that night and he didn't stand up to defend himself... Not even raise a hand to you.

Castiel held your hand and walked ahead, reaching closer to the people from the memory.

"I need you to trust me," He said as memory Castiel was constantly being beaten by memory you, "And don't stop at any moment. When you see the door, run!"

He took your hand and placed it on your memory self's shoulder. There was a bright light, your vision got blurry but then you realised it when the light dies down.

You were playing the role of your memory self.

SHIT.

You looked around, no other version of Castiel was there other than the beaten one.

"Keep going [y/n]! Let go and let the memory play," Castiel said tiredly and you panicked.

"But-"

"I'll... be fine," He reassured and you took a deep breath.

Just like that the actions were happening automatically. You continued to hit Cas and he cried out in pain. It was unbearable to watch from a first person point of view but you trusted Castiel.

You wanted to stop, this was stressful and traumatizing. To live through your worst memory all over again was beyond painful. You felt a pit in your stomach, you felt like you'd explode out of-

There.

You saw it right there in front of you at the other end of the motel room. It was a white opening that continued to grow in size.

The door... THE DOOR! You thought.

You started to make a run for it but then realised you couldn't leave Castiel here. You picked him up, wrapping his arm around your shoulder and started to drag him towards the white opening.

To your horror, it started to shrink in size... thankfully, slowly.

"No no NO!" You exclaimed and picked up your speed, "Cas come on! Just feel the pain for a little more."

He stood up and you both made a run for it, just in time to reach to the other side of the white portal.

It felt like you were burning, in a pot which was placed over a campfire. You yelled out in pain, you could hear Castiel too. You both hugged each other tightly, fearing that you'd get separated from one-

You gasped for air, sitting up straight and breathing heavily. You looked around to find that you were in a living room, Sam and Dean were sitting on a table a little away.

When they saw that you were conscious, they rushed to you. "H-Hey guys... what's-"

You pushed them aside and puked on the ground. It was this thick and slimy black liquid, you felt like your organs just came out off your body.

They looked at the substance with disgust and confusion. "Okay I'm not eating anything for the next three days," Dean remarked and Sam looked at him with eyebrows furrowed.

You wiped your mouth, feeling a little light-headed.

THUD!

You looked up and found Castiel on the floor, leaning against the wall and looking very tired.

You ran to him, ignoring the protests from Sam and Dean for you to rest. You hugged Cas and kissed his cheek before kissing him passionately on the lips.

"Thank you for saving me," You said and he smiled softly. He caressed your cheek, "I love you." You nodded in agreement and kissed him again.

You got up after you pulled away and smiled widely. You put your hands up in victory and cheered, "Look guys, I'm fine! I just need to-"

You fell to the floor, on your face, going unconscious from the severe and sudden throbbing head ache after you had stood up.

The Winchesters and Castiel started to feel panic and picked you up, placing you on the couch. They feared that you went back into the coma once again but finding that there were no black veins on your body anymore, they sighed with relief.

"She's just tired... I'll stay with her," Castiel said and Dean nodded, squeezing his friend's shoulder before walking away.

Castiel took your hand and rubbed it with his thumb softly. You started to sit up straight after gaining consciousness but he pushed you back down.

"Rest... You need to rest," He smiled and you patted the couch, scooting to the inner side as much as you could to let Castiel lay beside you.

He took off his trench coat and his blazer then lay beside you, holding you in his arms and planting kisses on your cheek and neck.

He rubbed your arms slowly, making you slowly go into a dream state. You saw a memory, it was a happy one this time. Both you and Castiel were there and it was of a time when-

THE END

Just kidding.

It was more of a wish than a memory. There was you and Castiel... a little girl called [y/d/n] living a happy and perfect life in a house in the suburbs.

Not a bad vibe or memory in sight... forever.