🎶: 'Apologize' by OneRepublic

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Every moment you were awake, you felt the constant dread that something bad was going to happen and completely finish your life as you know it.

You can't help feel that way... you've tried to fix yourself on your own but it doesn't work. You have help now, from friends who are really close to you.

Like every story about paranoia usually goes, you encountered the same with facing a traumatic event that caused your whole mind to slowly cave in on itself.

It was horrifying beyond repair, and how much you wish someone could repair your mind while you cry out for some shelter from the nightmares you face in the day.

You ran through the twisted halls of the vine covered Bunker. This demonic plant creature chased you with its tentacle vines growing large and long, ready to pull you down into an eternal pit of doom and darkness.

"Help HELP! DEAN WHERE-"

You hit a dead end, a door at the end of the corridor was locked and you had nowhere else to go.

You slid down the wall slowly, the eerie noises growing louder whole the the halls continued to go darker. You pulled your knees to your chest and covered your face while crying.

"No no NO!" You yelled, "STOP PLEASE, NO-"

"[y/n]? [y/n]!"

Someone grabbed your arms and started pulling you. You jerked around, shutting your eyes and trying to kick the person off you.

"No go away! GET AWAY FROM ME!"

"[y/n]! Snap out of it!"

You opened your eyes and saw that Dean stood in front of you, with pure concern on his face. "Are you alright? Are you having another episode?" He asked sadly and you blinked a few times to help yourself snap out of your delusion.

"Um..." You looked around, the vines weren't anywhere to be seen, "But it felt so real."

You looked at him with tears rolling down your cheeks then hugged him. He wrapped his arms around you and kissed your head, wishing that after weeks of searching he would find a way to help you out.

*****

"Dean I need you, it's urgent," Sam came rushing to the door and requested for his brother. Dean looked to you one last time before getting up from the bed and walking towards the door. He had been with you for the last hour after the hallucination, comforting you.

"What's wrong now?" Dean asked, irritated. Same raised an eyebrow, "You might want to clear your mind for this. It's serious."

"Quit giving me hints and cut to the chase. What's happened?!"Dean said loudly as they entered the library.

"It's Cas, he's... he's gone-"

"Wait WHAT?!" Dean exclaimed, snatching the phone Sam was holding in his hand. "I don't know, he sent a voicemail saying that he's been taken or something and-"

"Dean, Sam, there isn't much time. Asmodeus is growing stronger by the minute and-Oh no, someone's coming. I'm at street 7-"

"Who are you talking to?!"

"Please find me-"

BEEP!

Dean threw the phone and yelled, "SON OF A BITCH!" Sam held his forehead and sighed, "We need to get Cas back but... we can't leave [y/n] here alone in the Bunker. She'll have another fit and she could get hurt."

Dean looked at him puzzled, "What are you-"

"Dean, maybe we should admit her into a mental hosp-"

"HELL NO! NOT ON MY WATCH!" Dean shouted, "I'm not going to dump her into a looney bin. Sam we've seen what they do to patients, how they treat them. We can't let her go through that, she's like a sister to us!"

"Then how are we supposed to get Cas and save the world, for crying out loud!" Sam argued, "That's our priority. You can't take care of her forever. There are experts at the hospital, they may be able to cure her!"

Dean stepped closer to his brother and clenched his jaw, "We are NOT putting her there! We'll figure it out, we always find a way and this is like every time."

He turned around and stormed out of the library. "Dean if you're not going to do anything to help [y/n], I'll do It!"Sam shouted out and Dean cursed him under his breath, not turning around and heading to the shooting range to take his anger off.

*****

Every time you heard a bullet being shot, you jumped with fright. You naturally domt like loud noises and with your condition it just makes it worse.

You walk into the shooting range slowly and Dean shoots three bullets in a row, making you cover your ears. You heart thumped violently in your chest.

He glanced to the side then out his gun down after switching it to safety mode. "Oh [y/n]," He said and started reloading the gun, "You shouldn't be here."

You wrapped your arms around yourself and cleared your throat, "W-What are you doing here?"

"Trying to clear my mind," He said.

BANG! BANG!

"You should go back to your room, don't stay here," He said sternly but you refused. "Dean I hope I'm not bothering you and Sam," You say and Dean clenched his jaw, "I don't want to be a burden-"

"You know it's hard for me to deal with all this happening right now. First you and now that son of a bitch Asmodeus took Cas!" Dean yelled and you stepped back without realising, "I'm sick of tired of being in the middle of making sure the world isn't screwed over. Do you know the level of frustration that holds?!"

"Dean I want to help you-"

"You can't do anything [y/n]! You're in no shape to do anything!" He exclaims and storms towards you.

"But I-"

"You know, we don't need this right now. It's making everything more stressful," He shouted, "NOBODY CARES THAT YOU'RE BROKEN!"

You stared at him with disbelief. He looks at you with regret, "[y/n] I-"

"Really? Is that what you really feel?!" You exclaim and slap him across his face. You ran out of the room and towards your bedroom, dumping as many clothes and things you need into your bag.

Dean banged on the door, yelling for you to open up. He constantly apologized for what he said but after living with Dean for such a long time it's at times when he's angry where you really know how he feels about something.

And right now, he doesn't really give a damn about you.

You opened the door with a jerk and pushed Dean off and hurried to the Bunker's door. Sam watched you run past, "[y/n] what are-"

"SAM GET HER!" Dean yelled and you ran up the stairs and slammed the Bunker door shut after exiting.

"What the hell happened Dean?" Sam ran a hand through his hair and Dean looked at him with distress.

They listened to a car start up and drive off at a high speed. Dean rushed to get the keys to the Impala and put his jacket on. "I messed up Sam, I messed up big time," He said, "I said something that I didn't mean at all."

"Where are you going? What about Cas?!" Sam questioned out loud and Dean stood by the door.

"Keep me updated, I need to find [y/n]. She's my priority."