*suicidal thoughts and self harm skip if triggering*

Kara lost it, there wasn't any better phrase to use to be honest, there was about 3 holes in her wall, Even Alex was to afraid to talk to the girl of Steel

Kara let out a horrific scream and she collapsed onto the ground, everything was happening in her head, the hero had finally broken, the scene was scary, all the pressure of being a hero catco trying to be the perfect girl finally caught up on Kara and it wasn't doing any good

Deep sobs come out, tears stained the floor, The blond lay on the floor trying to comfort herself, but there was nothing, she had just broken and no one could put the piece together, Kara wanted a way to make it stop, but then she couldn't, she couldn't feel physical pain, it was all in her head, all she wanted was to stick a shard of kryptonite into her heart to make everything stop

But someone wasn't going to let that happen

A simple knock on a door stopped Kara's sobbing

"Please go away" Kara says trying her best to sound strong

"Kara it's me Lena, I have a key can I come in" The CEO asks

"Lena it isn't safe for you to be near me"

Lena ignoring the comment barged in

Kara immediately put her glasses on and dried her tear

Lena was taken back by the state of the apparemment, pillows were shredded holes in the wall, it was a mess, The Luther walked over to crying hero

"Hey Kara your safe, do you want to tell whats going on" Lena says sitting down beside the blond

"I'm fine" Kara lies

Lena knew that she was

"What's really wrong"

"I'm fine, everything is fine, it's always fine" Kara mutters aloud

"Kara please you can tell me anything"

"Lena"

Sky blue eyes meet the kryptonite eyes of the CEO

"Yes Kara"

"I hate myself" she says choking on a sob

"No never say that" Lena says,

The CEO mind went back to when she was a teenager and how she brought a blade to her wrist during hard time

Lena pulls Kara sleeves up and let's out a sigh of relief

"I would If i could" Kara mumbles leaning into Lena

"No you should never, it's the worst thing you could do" Lena says hugging the reporter

"Lena I want the pain to stop, I want everything to go away, but I can't, there is no way unless you have a shard of kryptonite which I would love to have right now" Kara says without even thinking

"Why would you need kryptonite"

"Well because I'm her" Kara says standing up, she pulls off her glasses, more tears stream down her face

"Lena I'm sick and tired of everything, my whole civilisation is dead, mon-el is married, my parents used me, and i have tried so hard to be strong but I can't" Kara Says

The kryptonitian falls to her knees and Lena walks over to her to comfort her

"Well if your weak then how did you help me during hard times, how did you stand up to snapper, how did you still fight even when everything was hopeless, how did you judge me on my own merits" Lena says rubbing gently the blond hair

"Lena please stay" she begs through the sobs

"I'm not going anywhere, I promise"

The next day

Lena eyes slowly fluttered open, her Kryptonite eyes scanned around the appartement

"What where am I am" she says rubbing the back of her head

"Oh your awake, yeah I can't remember what happened last night but I woke up with you hugging me, excuse my messy appartement, there must have been an accident" Kara says walking into the bedroom which Lena says lying in

Lena cheeks changed to a pink colour,

Memories of the night before flooded into her head

"You know you don't have to wear your glasses" Lena says getting out of bed

"Well I'm bling without them" Kara says fixing them

Lena POV

Wow Kara really doesn't remember, that can't be good, well I'll just play with it

"I think you be cute with out them" I mutter

"Well um thanks, I made bacon" Kara says

"Don't need to tell me twice" I say getting out of bed

"So how is work" I ask her sitting down on her messed up sofa

"Well it's quite stressful, how about you" the blond says sitting down beside me handing me a plate

"It's fine, I'm sorry to hear about mon-el, I feel like it's my fault" I say sadly

Kara leans against my shoulder, and moves to get comfortable

"It's fine he loves someone else it's time for me to move on"

"Well who did you have in mind" I ask, why am I Angry all of a sudden

"I don't know, maybe a new guy"Kara says looking at me, so many emotions were going through her eyes, Fear anger sadness, helplessness.

"Well what about a girl" I say immediately regretting it

"Well I'm pretty sure I'm straight but then no one really is, why do you ask" the reporter says stuffing her face with more bacon

"Well I haven't told anyone but I'm pretty in gay" I say finally admitting it

"That's great, You and Alex would get along great, well I took the day off work today so if your free can you stay"

"Of course, but don't you have people to save" I say smirking

"What do You mean"

"Well doesn't the girl of steel have duties" I say taking off her glasses

"Lena how did you find out" Kara says fear fills her eyes

"You told me last night"

I rub her blond hair gently again

"What else did I tell you"

"Well you weren't doing great" I tell her hesitating

"Define not doing great please" she says her blue eyes looking straight at me

"Well im sure pretty you had a breakdown, it's fine don't worry, but what scared me the most was the fact that you wanted to kill yourself" I tell her tears threatening to spill

I'm met by silence

The tears in my eyes breach and start to soak my cheeks

"Lena I would never kill myself I promise" Kara says wiping the tears from my face

3 years later

I ran into the appartement yelling my girlfriend name

I look at the text she sent me

Goodbye thanks for being the greatest girlfriend ever, I'm sorry I have to this to you, please take care of Alex for me she will need you and stay strong something I couldn't do

Love Kara

I ran into the bathroom tears poring down my face as I see a limp body with a shard of kryptonite sticking out her chest

"No" I screech, I run over to her cold body and pick her up

"Please Kara you promised"

So hey this is a sad one, I just want to make awareness for suicide it's really serious

Edna