__NicoGrey__
I still haven't found the words to say but I need to express this somehow. I love you so so much. You have been there for me and I don't think you understand the impact you've had on my life.

Suicide is never the answer. I know you don't want to hear that, but it's true, even in your situation. You're probably going to hate me for saying this, but I'm so happy you didn't succeed. It's not your time yet, as much as you want it to be. You're still needed here. You have helped so many people, and we love you for that. I understand why you did what you did, but it's not okay. We're not ready to let you go yet. It's selfish, yes, but we still need you. I still need you.